Well, better late than...LATER! Here I am to finally post my update. I have been wanting to post for awhile now, but kept talking myself out of it. Not sure why either and that bugs me, maybe I will gain insight from you folk...?
October 6th marked the 1st anniversary of our recovery. We spent the night celebrating and it seemed so weird that a whole year had gone by. But then felt weird that a year had ALREADY gone by? Last Christmas was wonderful! We were celebrating everything in life. Our love felt like that brand new love that encompasses your every breath. We were so conscious of our EN's and LB'ing and life was great.
The girls would occasionally ask us things that showed that they needed reassurance still. We would gladly give it with hugs and smiles. Intimacy was difficult. I cried our first time back together, God how I missed this man!
We took a few vacations together as a family, including Hawaii and camping at the Grand Canyon. Those were wonderful! They were relaxing and really helped the girls belay their worries about divorce.
We don?t have fights anymore. We have discussions and sometimes get very angry. But we still talk about them. We have been going to counseling all year, two times a month. She has said that we have come so far. We see it in ourselves as well.
During one discussion that was getting intense I suggested waiting until our next session to continue, so that Ruth could help. B pushed for finishing it ourselves because we can't lean on her forever. We finished it and resolved the conflict ourselves. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" /> Yea for us! I was glad that he pushed to keep talking, it was worth it.
Now here we are, over a year and sometimes it feels like it never happened. Then that scares me. Because we may fall back into old patterns that way. We talk still about everything. I think it is time to do another EN questionnaire. I'm sure that I'm not meeting his as well any more and I know I could reassess mine.
All in all, things are great! We have a healthy, strong relationship. We have fun together. We help each other out. We talk. We love each other. We will keep loving each other. I still come here on an almost daily basis, reading and learning. If there is ever a need to reach out to me, I will be here.
Thanks for reading. Have a very Merry Christmas and a wonderful, safe New Year!
