Just to try to save what is left of me. If you read my last post I was plan A'ing, he was to move here to and we talked all the time on the phone, computer and played computer games together from across the country. Day 2 before he was to get on the plan to visit me and we havent seen each other in 5 months he said he wasn't coming & had court stuff with exwife. I know he didn't have certified appointment I even called with his case number. I told him I doubted what he was saying he got very pissed, then found out he was out with friends and another girl Saturday.

I was trying so hard on my part to rebuild trust, told him all he had to do was fax the paper of his appt. and he flipped out. He wouldnt do it. I am crushed because he begged me back I forgave and then I am back where I was before.

I am trying to save to move out and get my own place. I took my H off of my insurance that I added him on so it would be in place when he came here (why should I pay) now I am going to look at a rental house tonight but probably wont happen because of my recent forclosure but I need to move on atleast for my sanity.

Today is H's bday I did send him an email card. He hasn't talked to me in days. Should I just go ahead and plan B for my own good and sanity? After all I was the one that forgave and was working on my trust and he denies denies denies again and said it is my fault I don't trust him.