MissM ,,, You said you wanted me to stop lurking , so where are you my freind?? I am worried and would like to here from you .

AN update on how things are going on all parts of the life . WELL ! You better answer women , don't get my temper started I am a NUT as it is LOL

Hey 3,

Thanks for caring. Sorry that you are in such a bad spot right now. I know how you feel. You have gotten so many awesome responses to your post, especially ark^.

But you know, you are WORTHY. How can you say you are not worthy when that was my chant <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> to you all those months when you were fighting so hard to recover your marriage. We have all been through so much, and you know you are special. You have your marriage 3, it is what you wanted. You have your H back. He is all the way back. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Smile]" src="images/icons/smile.gif" />

The best revenge is living well. Step away from the ow. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

I know it is hard. I am not a real good example right now of living well and the Lord is coming down hard on me right now. I don't get to be bad.

UPDATE:

I am okay. Working hard. Got into an altercation with a "traffic circle" and have had to shell out lots of money, got a nasty ticket and it was a mess. Have never had even a fender bender in over 20 years of driving so was in total shock. My record has been pristine up to this point. Not that we could afford this expense at this time. Times are VERY tough financially right now. Will probably be moving in the next few months to cheaper digs.

MY oldest son will be up to see us this weekend. He has a NA conference in my city and will be coming with his girlfriend and sponsor for 2 days. He will be 1 year clean in April. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" /> We plan to go down there to celebrate. He is working 2 jobs and doing great. I am excited to see him.

Daughter has just completed 3rd quarter at college, quit her job and hasn't found anything else yet. Jobs are hard to come by in this area. So she is all good, and is planning to move out in November. (I will believe it when it happens.LOL)

Middle son, I have been taking a break from, if you know what I mean. Will probably go visit him in the next month or two. He seems to be doing okay.

H is great. All I could wish for. Have gained a good amount of weight with going thru the change and all the drugs the Dr gave me and I gained some more weight. Quit the anti-D's and no replacement therapy. I went natural products and that is working great!!!! Hopefully I can lose some weight now that I am drug free, so to speak. I will probably have to flog it off LOL. I am very lucky, my H does NOT mind my weight, he is so loving to me, treats me very well emotionally, so most of my problems are me and me alone.

Still trying to keep my monster on a leash, have it semi under control. Therein lies my biggest battle right now.

I guess that is all for now.

Back to you. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Love in Christ,
Miss M

Thank you 3, for pulling Miss M out of lurkdom!

Miss M, so good to see your update. HRT was not for me either...it caused me more problems than the hot flashes. I could use some help with the mood swings but I don't think that's all from the change at this time (if you know what I mean) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />
And congrats on the semi under control thing.

I've gained some weight back too and H has no problem telling me about it. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Mad]" src="images/icons/mad.gif" /> even though he's no Mel Gibson! So I'm working on it...treadmill and some pilates. It's definately harder to lose after 40. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Frown]" src="images/icons/frown.gif" />

Well, gotta go. You have a great day and I hope 3 is better today.

OH here are my BOOK ENDS the both of you on the same post , Hows the song go soilders to the left soiders to th <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Glad to here your ok , I wanted to know about the H and those e-mails alls clear????

You 2 don't disappear you both have thrown of the armys (swim thing ) to many times I need you guys around ! <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

I will be back and don't you to sleep ??? GEE these posts are at weird times . and don't get me started on the weight thing women !

3,

Sorry, I'm goin with the weight thing. You don't even know!!!! 20 pounds? How I wish I were You.

Don't even go there with me girlfriend, I weigh more than I ever have in my whole life.

YOU only have 20 to lose. So what's the problem. I have menopause, drugs, etc, that I am coping with. Flog it off while you are younger than ME!!!LOL. Anyway.

Beside the point, you KNOW your are WORTHY. You got it all goin on girl, 36 years old, and you got what it takes!!! H is YOURS.

I'll never forget when FWS said to me, it is NOT all about sex for me. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> (do I believe it yet?) <img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" />

Love you 3, and TOOOLDFORTHIS. <img border="0" title="" alt="[Wink]" src="images/icons/wink.gif" />

Love in Christ,
Miss M

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