I haven't had a chance to call the conselor. Now the kids are home, I don't want to call her. Tomorrow is the last day of school, I will call her in the morning. Now the kids are off, I have to find activities for them.

I went chaperon for D's fieldtrip. We walked from her school to a park about 2 miles one way. It was hot(90) and humit. We had pizza, icecream. Then walked back. It was fun. But D's mood was so swingy. One minute she was happy, the next min she was sad. She said her friends left her. But I saw all the girls were coming to cheer her up. It is definitely her problem.

I came home exauhsted, but I like it. Wh will disappear tonight. When I am home more often, I guess that will be the time he disappear completely, time for Plan B.

When we came home, D let loose her hamster in my bathroom. Now it went into some crack, she couldn't find it. I don't know what I would do if that creature come to my bed in midnight.

LNH,

Hamsters aren't too scary. I'd much rather have that come visit me in bed than say, a spider!
<img border="0" title="" alt="[Eek!]" src="images/icons/shocked.gif" /> (Hate 'em!!) I do hope your D found it though, or worse things might happen to it if it goes days without food and water. My daughter had pet rats (much friendlier than hamsters) and they got loose a couple times and really scared us. Once we thought one was in the furnace ductwork and all I could think about was the $$$ it was going to cost if the rat died down there and we had to have a professional come clean it out. Fortunately, the rat ended up being found behind a desk.

On to other things. Are you feeling any better or any warmer? Have you made an appointment with a doctor yet?

I'm guessing nothing much has changed with your WH. Are you planning on going to Plan B at the end of June? (I have no business asking, since I can't seem to do it at all.)

LL

</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Are you planning on going to Plan B at the end of June? (I have no business asking, since I can't seem to do it at all.)
</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">LL, thank you for asking! I still have the same plan unless WH changed dramatically. Hefinished intalling all the speakers(6) and the DVD in my room and disappeared yesterday. Who knows what he is thinking.

S found the hamster right before the bed time. What a relief! I had a good night sleep last night b/c of all the walk yesterday. I still have the chill, but I am not going to see the Dr. unless it gets really bad. I thnk it is depression related. I will call D's conselor today.

LL, how about you? I will read your thread a little bit. All my friends, LL,RR, Believer, etc, I hope you have a good day.

The weather here is sharing a rollercoster ride with my mood. It was 90 and sunny in the morning yesterday morning, then it was stormy in the afternoon and night. It is 60 now.

speaking of moods and weather, just had my session w/SH and he said that the moods of the WS change w/the weather.

sounds like you are doing better. i have to make this short so i can post about my session. i did reply to you on my thread about your brother's visit.

i went to the housing office yesterday but they closed at 3pm, i didn't know what time they closed but assumed it was 4pm and i got there about 4:05 because of traffic. so i'm going to leave even earlier today. even though it looks like i'm getting tomorrow off from work because of the national day of mourning due to pres. regean's funeral, i wasn't sure if the housing office would be open tomorrow because of the same thing. i'll still come in work tomorrow to get some stuff done but not sure when or for how long. at least i can sleep in <img border="0" title="" alt="[Big Grin]" src="images/icons/grin.gif" />

gotta go, prayers to you, RR

roughroad - I have tomorrow off too, but am going to work to catch up. I was gone 2 weeks and still have not caught up.

lostnhurt - Hope you will see a doctor soon. You need to start feeling better.

Believer, I am fine. I think I will survive, even once a while the suicide thought popped in. But whenever it happened, i prayed right away and asked for Jesus to help me.

Kids are off school now. They will be home starting tomorrow. I found some camps for S, but DD will not have a camp till mid August.

RR, how did your sesion go?

believer, do you work for the federal government as well?

lost, absolutely best thing you can do about those thoughts is to pray. get your D involved w/the animal shelter until her camp in august and it will also give you something to do. you could also get her involved w/the recipe book. i just posted my session, it is really really long so have fun reading it <img border="0" title="" alt="[Razz]" src="images/icons/tongue.gif" /> thank goodness i can type fast.

gotta go, prayers to you, RR

RR, I forgot to tell you that the animal shelter does not take anyone younger than 18. DD was disappointed. But we are going to get a dog, she will have something to do. She doesn't like cooking either. I called the conselor, but haven't gotton any reply yet. I will read your post now. Believer, are you going to to watch the funeral tomorrow? Kids don't want to, but I want them to.

It is another day. I was able to get up at 8am instead of 6am, b/c kids are out of school. They are still sleeping, I enjoy my quiet time. Even though getting up 2 hours later than usual, I still feel head heavy. Last night,I watched NBA with WH till 12am. I fell asleep few times during the game, you can tell how inteerested I was about the game. Nothing new happening here, same old crap WH, distant and cold. I just have to enjoy myself.

Yep - I work for the federal government at the Navy Hospital here. I don't do the medical side, but the contracting/facilities part.

lostnhurt - How about some more recipes?

Ok, it is the first day of summer(of school), it is cold(57) and wet here. I couldn't get the kids up. S was up 11am, D was just up at 12am. How do I fet them up for the rest of the summer? I just cleaned two bathrooms, one more to go. How did they get so dirty? It seemed that WH pee on his sink!! Yuk!.

Well, since I posted such yuky stuff here, I will have my receipe next one. Believer, hold on tight. I will come back when I clean the other bathroom, and will have the Lost receipe of the day.

Great! I'm in the mood to cook.

I'm also up for a good recipe!

See, something to keep LNH busy and her mind off the situation for a few minutes, and look at all the people who ready this thread who will can always use another recipe!!!

LL

hello lost,

that's too bad about the animal shelter. how unfortuanate that people who want to volunteer can't because of their age. think of all those animals who are missing out. it's also such a good thing for kids to learn responsibility and satisfaction for helping others. oh well.....you tried. if you do get a dog, look in the paper or get one from the animal shelter. try to stay away from the pet stores. you could even adopt a greyhound. there is a big misconception that they need a lot of exercise. THEY DON'T! they are naturally fast and in fact like just lying around the house or on the couch just as much as the next dog. if you find a dog and want an opinion about whether it would be a good choice or not, just let me know. of course i think it would be better for you guys to start w/an "older" dog versus a puppy. i think a puppy would just put way too much stress on you guys right now. but at the same time they need homes too.

do you usually go to a special store to get the food you cook? like a asian market? just curious. i'm not a big "noodle" or "seafood" fan but any other asian type dishes i usually like. i acutally really like korea food, i love the beef and broccoli dishes, and also the General Tsao's chicken but i'm not sure if this is a chinese or japanese dish, i think it's chinese or maybe i should say chinese-american. oh great! now i'm hungry!

gotta go! sounds like you are doing better lost and have a good weekend, prayers to you and all those on MB, RR

Ok, friends, it took me a while to come back. The bathroom was cleaned, and lunch was served.

D's conselor finally called. I asked her whether WH told her that we are DV'ing, she said no. But she said that she got the impression that is what is going on. How can she? I told her that we have problem, but no legal action and I want to save the M. Neither I or WH told her that we are DV'ing, she can not assume that. She said but I think he is pretty much made up his mind. I told that I knew and I know where I am standing, but at this moment, no DVing. I don't know about tomorrow, next month, or next year. I don't hope that it will happen. I told her that I don't want D to get the message that people can walk away their problem DV, and get happy. I don't want her to be placed to the group of kids whose parents are DV or name calling. She said ok. But she told me that D is very depressed. I told her I knew, that is the reason I took her in. But anyway, I will see what happen. SHe kept telling me to talk to WH to find out what he thinks. I almost wanted tell her that it is not your business.


Here is today's receipe:

Chicken wings, 2 lbs, cut up in 3 parts(my favorite part is the tip)

marinateed with salt(to your taste), 1 tsp garlic powder, 1 tsp onion powder, 3 Tsp cooking wine(or any wine) for at least 30 minutes(can be longer).

In a seperate container to make sauce:

4 Tsp soy sauce
1 Tsp vinager
1 Tsp sugar

Use a nonstick fry pan with lid, the class lid is the best. Place the chichen wings tightly in the pan, cover, use highest temp, for 1o minutes or until brown. Turn off heat to avoid burning your hand, turn all the wings to other side, do the same for another 10 minutes. Pour in the sauce, turn of heat and cover for 5 minutes. Yum. My kids favorite. You can have it with beer.

Just came back from boy scout picnic. I went out bought 3 toilet seats and changed them. And bought some latern for decoration too. I am proud of myself.

Well, done teaching today and just talked to sis. DD has a lot of trouble. Last night we watched a movie, Anger Management. She was wriggling and hit the button stopping the movie. So Wh and I both said that she shouldn't do that. She stomed out to her room and yelling I hate you. The rest of the evening she was so mad. I finally got her down and had her appologize. Then at night, she asked me again, when are you going to D, it takes too long. I don't feel good. Dad is not happy, why do you still want to have this family?

How do I answer her? Where did she get this from? Her conselor? I definitely have to change one. Please give me advice how to deal with her?

Tell daughter that you don't believe in divorce and have a plan. Her anger comes from fear. Try to reassure her.

Good to see you doing things. Keep busy, that is the best. I got a neighbor's brother to paint the mobile home that my boy's live in. Next week he is going to paint the outside of mine. He is temporarily out of work, so it helps both of us.

Hang in there. I am thinking of you. I am back into Plan B now, so things are quiet.

Well, I don't know how to describe this. I came home very tired, had lunch WH cooked, then took a nap. Afte napping, Wh was gone. I didn't know where he went. But he came home a little bit. He told me he went to Home depot to exchange the sprinkler head. Then I said that we need to go grocery shopping. He told me to go by myself, it doesn't need the whole family to go. SO I went alone. When I came back, he made a lot of food. But after dinner, he's gone again. I have no idea where he went, but I locked the door and do not expect him to come home tonight. I felt sorry for hime, he was home so boring. If he can not be happy here, I don't think he will find happyness somewhere else.

But what bothers me was D again. She asked me again, why are you Dv? Dad doesn't love you anymore, he is not happy here. Why do i have a D like that? Does she want me to D? I told her that I am working out. She said yeh, you told me you are going to change yourself, but it is not good. you got to be yourself. I feel like I am an idiot in front of her. I really don't want to talk to her about that.