I posted this over at just found out, and was told I might get more response over here. So, here goes! For more background info, check out some other posts of mine in the past few days.

How am I going to handle this? His plane is broken (he is Navy and met her while on a detachment to this town) and he has been delayed another few days. I know it is true because I called the squadron. But that gives him time to be tempted. As far as I know, she doesn't know he is there. I have checked his voice mail from home. Nothing on there. I am having anxiety attacks so bad now. They are to the point that my face is going numb. I have epilepsy, and this worries me. The soonest I could get in at the psych was December 7, so I called and made an appt at my own doc for Tuesday. I just found out about her on November 4, so this is way too soon to be in this situation. I feel like I am drowning! Help me to get through this, as I have no one else! I have posted before with very little response. It is very disheartening.

I am so sorry you are in this situation. What is your H doing to make you feel better? Does he know what you are going through? You need to talk to him. You are right that you are very early in this, but stay strong and you will get through this.

I hope and pray that your H stays strong and does the right thing.

ama,

What kind of support system do you have? This is a time to surround yourself with folks who care about you. I personally think tues is too far away. Go to the emergency room if you feel as though your health is being compromised. I don't know what ADs you can take with epilepsy....so you need a doctor's care.

Hugs....take care of yourself!!

Anna,

Perhaps it is time for a little honesty with your husband. Have you told him how fearful you are that he'll reconnect with her on this delay? Would it help you if he called you several times a day while delayed? Then talk with him and tell him. Explain that you need his help and reassurance right now, not forever, but for now. This can all be said without accusing him of going to see her. He might even say, "you think I am going to call her?" And you can reply, "part of me knows that you won't. But there's a part of me that is very afraid. It is that part that needs your help."

See what I mean?

~ Snow

Yes, snow. He knows how terribly afraid I am. His cell phone battery had died, so I am relying on e-mail, but they aren't coming. He has e-mailed me a few times yesterday, but none today. I still am unsure of when he will be home. With the three kids here, I can't even go do our Thanksgiving grocery shopping. If he is even home by then. I know he probably hasn't contacted her, based on the fact that he is the only one on his crew who can work on the engine, he has been very busy, but I am still scared to death!