The prodigal just left.

He has been spending a fair bit of time visiting us lately.

He was in a bad mood tonight- tired and sick. I had invited him for supper but he didn't feel well- said his stomach was upset.

I think it is all the cake he has been eating, lately.

I have been a mess. Bad dreams, shaking, not eating etc. since Thursday when I was in the city. I hadn't heard from him for a couple of days, and we had arranged for him to cover for me while I went out to a meeting. He didn't return my call, and I was in the area, so like a fool I drove past her house. His van was there. I was upset.

When he is here he is very affectionate and great with our daughter.

He is also baked on weed. He says when he is high he lives in the present.

The thing is that he has what he wanted, (freedom, his van, no responsibilities) but its not working. Hes not happy. He has no peace of mind. He is alone.

I want to talk to him, but I have to be very careful not to put him on the defensive, or he will clam up.

He has initiated R talk a couple of times, but it took me unprepared, so I didn't say much. He said one night that he didn't know where to start with me.


Are there any xWH's around who can give me some insight into what is going on in his head?


Shul

me 46
him 41, Antisocial personality disorder
m19 yrs, 2 D's