STWP,
Thanks so much for thinking of me. I typed up a long response/update to you the other day and then the internet crashed. Honestly, i just haven't had time to get back to you.
I was actually just thinking this afternoon that I needed to send you an email. I hope you're doing okay. I see you have a MC appointment tomorrow. Good luck with that and remember...boundaries! I'm a little nervous about your WH moving back without NC. It makes me think he has other motives. Just be true to you.
As we all suspected, my two week plan failed at almost one week. WH husband told me that he is not capable of doing what I need him to do and he is done. It really hurts because I know that there is NC with the OW (or anyone else) and now it boils down to the fact that he just doesn't want me. He says it is too painful for him to see the hurt he has caused...even when I put on a happy face he can see it. It hurts because he would rather not even try to repair our M than have to face what he has done. He is such a coward. It's almost as if his unwillingness to try hurts just as much as what he did. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/rolleyes.gif" alt="" />
So I had NC with him for a week and a half and then a couple of days ago we had to meet up and take care of some business (exchange mail, pay bills, etc.) He had been blunt...except that he continued to try and get in touch with me every day that I avoided him. I was doing great...had told myself that that was it.
Well ever since I saw him the other day I've been a mess. The awful nagging dull pain is back. I'm moving on but simply put...this sucks.
