((((((Believer!)))))))))

Sorry...sounds like he wants YOU to support him! yeah, as if! Take care of you, and tomorrow will be better. I know it!

SAR2

Believer,

Remember this:

There are no shortcuts to any place worth going. When you think you have exhausted all possibilities, remember this . . . . you haven't."

(((((Believer)))))..this is all part of the process..you will be sad for what was but you have taken great strides to work on you... my thoughts and prayers will be with you

My dear Believer,

{{{Hugz}}}} U have seen the worst and survived. U R one beautiful lady and one I deeply respect. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Aloha,
L.

wow believer..

I have nothing to day but to echo what bob-pure said...

well put bob...

blessings to you believer...

ARK

I am aware of the titanic struggle going on within you.

If we were examining Believer's brain with a wonderful new instrument that had the ability to determine where her ~soulfulness~ was located ... we would discover that Believer's brain is made up with an inordinate amount of tissue dedicated to

~empathy~

Empathy is awareness and sensitivity to the experiences and feelings and thoughts of others ... sometimes when these things have not been fully communicated objectively.

Herein lies Believer's struggle.

Her empathy combined with her Grace from God is juicing most of her life decisions.

That Holy combination (empathy & Grace) causes Believer pain when self-protection situations require she make a decision that will cause another pain.

I used to imagine that Believer's struggle and slowness of this decision was with her stubbornness. I did not understand that the relative slowness of this decision was because she feels other's pain so acutely.

Believer's titanic struggle is between self-preservation and empathy for others ... even those who I identify as the enemy to Believer's own happiness.

Believer has no enemies to her own happiness. God has juiced her differently than most.

This is your sadness Believer. It's not ordinary grief like I thought it was. It's bigger than I can imagine.

You are truely touched by God. And although many of us would see that as a blessing ... I think it can sometimes feel like a heavenly curse ... because it hurts so very much.

Believer, have you read the book The Secret Life Of Bees written by Sue Monk Kidd ?

In that book, a little girl and her nanny escape danger and persecution, running away and finding safety and love, and more, in a safe house where 3 sisters live. One of the sisters has been blessed with titanic empathy.

If I had not recently read that book, I might not have recognized your empathy for what it actually is ... a struggle.

Have you read that book? Please let me know. If you haven't, it would give me great pleasure, and heal me in some small way, if you would allow me to buy you a copy and give it to you Saturday.

Is that OK?

Believer

sad it had to come to this. But he's really lost it and can only do you more harm.

But if you didn't spend time thinking back today then you just would not be the person you are today.

You have a great heart & soul believer, and you share it.

AW said she would love to give you a big hug right now and I wouldn't mind myself.

You're a gem.

{and I have a nappy for you ANY time you want it]

Sorry to hear abt this, believer.. but based on the little I know from reading about yr story, your life seems to be taking off in ways that you had never imagined.

I don't have any wise things to say, I'm afraid. I'll just give you a comforting {{{ hug }}} across cyberspace.

~A