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This morning I had to take my 12 yr old daughter and my 11 yr old granddaughter to the hospital for same day surgery. The 12 yr old was just getting tubes in her ears. The 11 yr old was getting T-tubes in her ears and her adnoids taken out.
When the dr talked to me before the surgeries he told me the first one (the 11 yr old), would take about 30 minutes. The 2nd one 15 minutes. Ok no big deal.
They came and got Bethanie (11 yr old one) and said they would get Taylor after they finished up.
45 minutes past still waiting. Finally after an hour the dr came out and told me that she was doing fine but they had had a problem. When he went into her throat to remove the adnoids he discovered a growth the size of a marble. So he removed it and sent it to pathology. He doesnt think it is anything to be worried about, just sent it to be on the safe side.
Ok, I am trying to keep it together. As most of you know I lost my daughter, my father, my sister and my grandmother to cancer. Now here is my granddaughter, the daughter of the daughter I lost with a growth in her throat.
The results will be back on the 26th. hopefully it will be nothing. Logically I know it is probably nothing. telling that to my heart is something totally different.
When we finally left the hospital, I stopped in the town where we used to live to check the post office box for mail, as we were going thru town we passed a funeral proccession coming from the church we had attended. I got my cell phone and called my pastors wife. She told me it was for Jimmy, He died Sat. night.
He was a dear sweet man that had developed cancer in the kidneys. No one called to tell me. I didnt get a chance to say good bye to him.
So here I am dealing with these thoughts of cancer and what pops into my head?
What if it is cancer and she has to go thru treatments like her mother did? Will my H cheat on me again because he cant handle it? I dont think I could survive this again.
I called my son, my xh and her other grandparents to let them know what was going on.
I feel like I am barely hanging on here. I am so tired of being strong, of having to hold myself together.
Bethanie is sleeping now. She doesnt know about the growth yet. I wanted to wait until she was clear headed and I had a chance to pull myself together.
I know its been awhile since I have posted here. hopefully you will remember me.
I just need a place to vent my feelings. I am scared and have no place to go.
Lori
Lori
me BS 43
H WS 40
H had 11 yr A
OC Tylor born 4/95
2 girls 11,10 and 1 boy 6
Me- son 23, Daughter 18 in heaven
custody of 10 yr grnddaughter
married 4/88
D-day 3/ 2001
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So sorry for your worries and how awful to have to wait. You and your granddaughter will be in my prayers.
Faith
me: FWW/BS 52 H: FWH/BS 49
DS 30
DD 21
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OCDS 8
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So sorry to hear this.
I will pray for her and for continued strenght for you.
married 13yrs-02/02/93
A(about2-3wks) ofSept. 03
almost 3yrs. of sucessful recovery, and getting strongger everyday
d-6/93
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God and True Love Rule
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Hey Lori! I am so sorry that its been such a bad time for you. (((Hugs))) Hang in there girl. He doesn't give us anything we can't handle, remember that! K! You and your H are different people now and you M is stronger than what it was so many years ago. Keep all of this in mind and you will be in my prayers.
Sunny D
***I DO now - Live, love and laugh ****
BS-39
WS-36
M-12 YRS
Together 14 yrs
D-18
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File D 2-12-03
Rec 10-03
OC born 9-04 - Baby A - My step-son!
Have C & Legal visitation
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((((((Lori))))))
I'm sorry you have this worry. My heart hurts for you and I can't think of anything to say, but I like what Sunny said: you and your H are different people now. Hang on just a little bit longer.
Rooting for you!
J
Do not wait for leaders; do it alone, person to person. -Mother Teresa
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Lori,
Prayers for you and your family in hopes that everything will be ok with your granddaughter ...
me-34
xH-38
DD 10/03
D-day 11/03 (cellphone)
Talked-Day 01/04
H left-02/04
Divorce-05/04
xH left -false recovery 1 week- 08/04 -told about OC
OC-07/04
xH left -false recovery 6 weeks- 12/01/04
12/02/04 DESTRUCTION OF MILY MUST END
1/17/05 - Started dating
11/05 - CS and visitation established at Court
02/28/06 - xH moves back after 2 yrs!
10/16/07 - asked xH to leave - he's still in a relationship with OW
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I am praying for you and your granddaughter also. Please let us know as soon as you hear something. Keep strong, and do you have someone you can lean on?
Married 5 years. Together almost 14 years.
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DDay March 2004
OC Born June 2004
2nd Dday Feb 2005
My daughter was born 7/22/05.
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Lori, I am so sorry to hear about this. I like what Sunny and the others said. You've had a huge plate the last couple of years and I pray that is nothing, and she will be just fine! Prayers and hugs for you Lori. {{{{{{ }}}}}}}
Aka Marysway
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Thanks guys.
No, I dont really have anyone to lean on. Usually my sister is there but she has a new boyfriend first one in years so she is caught up in that.
I am trying to let go and let God handle it. It is hard.
Today my 24 yr old son told me that he signed up in the army. He is going active duty. leaves for bootcamp in 10 days. My DIL and grandson will be staying with us while he is in bootcamp and then they will go where ever he will be stationed.
I am scared for my son. I have already lost one child I cant handle losing another one.
I have gotten so attached to Hayden (my grandson) it is going to be hard to let him go.
My heart is shattering in a million pieces.
I feel so alone. (In a house full of kids LOL)
Lori
Lori
me BS 43
H WS 40
H had 11 yr A
OC Tylor born 4/95
2 girls 11,10 and 1 boy 6
Me- son 23, Daughter 18 in heaven
custody of 10 yr grnddaughter
married 4/88
D-day 3/ 2001
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Took Bethanie to the dr today. The growth is benign.
Thank God.
Thank you for all your prayers.
Lori
Lori
me BS 43
H WS 40
H had 11 yr A
OC Tylor born 4/95
2 girls 11,10 and 1 boy 6
Me- son 23, Daughter 18 in heaven
custody of 10 yr grnddaughter
married 4/88
D-day 3/ 2001
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HOORAY!!! Glad to hear that!
Beth
Married 10 years
Three Children: Son(8),Daughter(6),Daughter(3)
DDay - May 6, 2004
False Recovery Begins - June 1, 2004
OW Pregnancy Revealed - June 27, 2004
False Recovery #2 Begins - August 30, 2004
OC born Feb. 25, 2005
Have chosen to have C
DDay AGAIN -- June 10,2005 - Found out contact w/OW had continued from Sept-Feb
Recovery Begins (again - let's hope it is real this time) July, 2005
C w/OC on indefinite hold while M is worked on
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me: FWW/BS 52 H: FWH/BS 49
DS 30
DD 21
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Wonderful news! What a releif?!
wiz
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