ROTFLMAO .... hehhehehhe yes but we have always KNOWN that haven't we !!!!!!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" />


I wonder if there is a mathematical formula for diminishing returns ????????????? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/tongue.gif" alt="" />

Well I guess I'll chime in. This is yet another first in a long time. Being by myself on holidays has been tough. But at least I'm not feeling lonely (even tho I'm alone!). I do have my little dog...she's the best. It' still 4 hours till midnight. Debating if I should text estranged husband a virtual kiss at midnight. I can't tell what plan I'm doing - I don't fit any of the templates. I had the affair, begged for forgivness, husband had revenge affair, we're separated and he threatens me with divorce.. Never saw a plan for me...
Anyway I'm around tonight and will check back in...
Happy New Year - may 2006 be kind to us all!
Cis

well cis been in your sit...as have a few others here... dont give up on the plans THEY DO WORK!! Not always of course but have a good track record. better than NO PLAN!!

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drop in and have a talk. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" />

I am trying to have a good new year alone. Dusted off the old wedding champagne glass that has our wedding date on it - took a sharpy and put - 2006. Opened the bottle of champagne our closing attorney gave us 2 years ago when we bought the now and heck probably then "Affair house". 2006 will be a time to move on without my wayward and onto a normal life with my little ones.
tdr

may it be a better year for you tdr

have a HAPPY NEW YEAR for 2006. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

I am having an utterly horrible New Years eve. I wanted to go to an evening of jazz, but fws said absolutely not, he was not going anywhere.

I was in my trying to get along mode, and told myself, well I could go ahead without him, or I could make the best out of it, buy a pizza, bring home a movie and enjoy an evening together.

It started out all right, I mention to fws that I was glad this year was going to be over, that it was the most painful year of my life.

I went over to hug my husband, he gives me a quick hug and then pushes me away as usual.

I told him I was tired of him pushing me away when I wanted affection, and he tells me its never enough.

This is his famous line, whenever he wants to lash out at me.

It's never enough.

I told him, his quick hugs are something you give a family member, daughter, mother, sister.

That is not the affection a wife wants.

I then lb and told him that I guess his love for me is different than what I feel for him.

I am so tired.

I am tired of feeling like the only time he is going to show affection is when he is guilted into it.

I'm tired, just plain [censored] tired of it all.

He doesn't give me affection spontaneously.

Apparently it must be too much of an effort for him to show me any affection, and is only given when he feels guilted into it.

I don't know how long I can stay in a marriage that feels like he is sacrificing just to be in it.

I don't need it and I don't need him.

I am very, very lonely. DS#1 flew back to his university today. (And I know that he's at a party...) DS#2 is off visiting his GF but will be home before midnight. DD has a nasty sore throat and swollen, red tonsils. She and I have eaten prawns and watched a movie. In a few minutes, we're going to watch another one. I've been drinking champagne. At midnight, we'll go out into the street and shoot off some fireworks. Let blow away stinkin' 2005.

It's not the first time I've felt lonely on NYE. It was often lonely back in the days before WH was probably W. The shadow man made no impact. I'm feeling sick of limbo. I'm ready for something more. Next year, I'm going to be more proactive. I think I'll try to have my own party. I'll place big bets that WH doesn't even call his kids at midnight. God knows where he is, either at a bar or at OW's. I really hate that woman. I want my life to be different.

The most interesting thing I've done today is find out that my dog likes to eat pecans. Is that weird or what?

Off to see Bride and Prejudice. The much vaunted NYE kiss will either be from a contagious kid or the dog.

Happy, happy everybody.

Believer, did you and the kids make it to midnight?

No, believer, I'm not, or I didn't. Have you read my latest post in the "I'm sick over all this" thread?

kds,. I am so very sorry you had such a miserable New Years Eve. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />

Teenagers partied NYE at Pep's Palace

played [color:"red"]Apples to Apples [/color]

played LOUD music

set off *poppers*

set off *illegal* fireworks (stopped when we heard a distant siren .... LOL)

boy-type teens left at 2AM

girl-type teens slept over

and they are still asleep

it was really fun having all the young people here ....

the cats were not happy .... too much noise

Happy 2006 everyone!

By myself, opened up a bottle of Pinot Noir with dinner, got a little drowsy from it and fell asleep early... Slept for ~11 hrs. Pathetic!

Ok we made it through New Years eve...let's get through New Years Day and we are free and clear...
Watched a DVD then fell asleep with my dog...woke up at 11:45 thought about staying up to see the New Year in and send H a virtual kiss via text message..but instead rolled over and went to sleep! Woke up and went down to the bay to see my girlfriend get in 50 degree water and swim a mile...awesome! No wet suit...she came out of the bay, red, wild eyes and happy.
Cis