I haven't wanted to say anything for fear it wouldn't happen again...but "T" is due to be here on Friday. I am so excited!! It's truly going to be the answer to all my questions, hopes, and fears. I feel like I am standing at a corner in my life...we are either going to go straight and continue on this wonderful journey together or we are going to turn the corner and walk away from one another knowing what we thought we "knew" was wrong. I feel like a child on christmas eve. The anticipation is exhilarating!! I just keep praying for decent weather and that nothing prevents him from getting here again.

I'll let you know what happens. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> okay well not EVERYTHING <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />

I thought of you (that), but didn't dare to ask. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Good luck!
(and don't forget to take care of yourself! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/ooo.gif" alt="" />)


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Break a leg, Alluring <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/laugh.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />.

AGG

Removing the uncertainty is half the battle.

Good luck.

wow -- TOMORROW??

wooohooooo!

No matter how it turns out, it will have been a good experience to have. Take the best from it! You'll learn and grow no matter which direction it takes.

I hope it all works out Alluring and that you have a great weekend.

Enjoy!
Karona

Thanks everyone! He called tonight and confirmed he's still coming tomorrow...I'm soooo excited.

He said he won't be excited until he's close to my town. LOL MEN!

Is this the online guy or am I confused?

It's Friday. Send details tomorrow.

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We had the best time!!!!! I had to work today so we met for lunch and then he took off.

I just talked to him and he's just getting home. He really is a good guy and we had a nice visit. He said he'll be back in April when he has his scheduled vacation.

<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> we need more details that THAT gurl! I'm glad it went well!

LOL...give me some time to process it all and then I'll open up some more about it. LOL

HUGS!

alluring,

slow CPU?

lol...you could say that...lol

How much time are we talking about here??
Still processing?

Must take a long time to come down from cloud nine!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Em

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C'mon girl, fess up. Whats holding you back from sharing? Are you really still processing? Or are you afraid of our responses? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" />

Soooo.... aAre u2 still talking? Are there still future plans for meeting again? Now that you've thought about the whole thing... was it awkward? Comfortable? or really great? What was good about it? What do you wish could have been different?

Spill it..... at least SOME of it..... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/cool.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

okay okay okay......I had been waiting to fully process how I REALLY thought the weekend went. My views on it while IN the weekend are much different a week and a half later. During the weekend we did have a good time. "T" treated me and my kids with respect and did some handyman things for me that needed tended to. I didn't ask him to do them...he did them on his own, which was nice and greatly appreciated. He also brought birthday presents for both my kids, bought me a television for my bedroom and gave me his not so old Sony dvd/vcr player for my living room television.(my dvd player had quit working a few months ago) All of this not asked for he again..just did it.

Three caution flags went up immediately as they happened during the weekend.

They were:
A. him not liking and not respecting our 3 cats, which we consider them as family members.
B. when a fire call goes off at his station regardless where he is, a text message is sent to his phone and one happen to go off while we were in his truck and he started to show it to me and then almost immediately changed his mind and it was clear that he was hiding something...later it came out he compares his cell phone to a womans purse...sacred and he had "private" things in it
C. the sex was so-so no fireworks at all!!

Now a week and a half later...I've not made much of an effort to "get ahold" of him and the same can be said for him. I think the spark just isn't there. It doesn't take away from him being a nice guy but just not the nice guy for me. I think we mutually wanted more spark to be there than we could MAKE happen. It's either there or it's not..and it clearly wasn't. I would be friends with him but I'm afraid that's all I could be. Not to mention the "private" things in his phone...which clearly meant "other women".

So there you have it...it is what it is. There are plenty others out there and hopefully one day I'll find the one meant for me.

On a side note...for those that know about "J"...he and I are still seeing each other when we have time...which isn't often, about every 6 weeks or so. (it's been about 8 weeks as of now since we last seen each other but we talk every night online if possible.) I think we have come to the conclusion that we are better as friends and part time lovers rather than anything more. I'm quite okay with that now. We truly do enjoy spending time with one another and we have a great time together. It's an unspoken understanding we have. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />