Good morning ladies,

I have caught a virus or something, and it's been a long night. I'm totally empty now, so the runs to the bathroom have stopped, both ways, and I'm just sitting here. I slept a couple of hours, but can't close an eye now. I don't know.

Soon, Sam took good care of me. He barked at me when I was tossing in the can, so he was worried. When I would get out of bed for another trip, I would catch a chill and be all shaky, so I'd run back to bed, grab Sam, and hold him tight in order to warm up. He's my hero.

I'll probably be on here a lot today, somewhat subdued, but I'll try. I hope you had a good night.

Thankful, Keep the faith, baby. You are doing great.

Tired - Sorry you're sick - I hate that feeling!

If you have some, try to drink Gatorade - it'll perk you up. See if a friend will go get you some if you can't get out. Feeling week and shaky is because you lose electrolytes and your blood pH gets all out of whack.

Gatorade is the best thing to cure all that!

Hope you feel better soon.

Oh Tired. I'm so sorry that you are sick. I wish I could do something to help you! So, I guess Sam is in charge of that. Hopefully it's just one of those 24-hr bugs.

I know you are miserable. I hate that "raw" feeling, if you know what I mean. OK, so now I've made a tacky comment. But it was an honest one.

So I take it your staying at home today. Maybe you can get some rest today since you didn't sleep much at all last night.

I hope you are feeling better. Just rest and be lazy and drink plenty of fluids so that you don't get dehydrated, maybe try some crackers if you can keep them down.

I'll be talking to you sometime, hopefully.

Thanks Time, I'll go get some gatorade. I love it anyway.

Soon, How are you this morning. I'm feeling better now, though still afraid to eat or drink much. Whatever kind of bug this is, comes on in a flash and hits like a sledge hammer.

I was talking to my brother, yesterday about 5:30 pm, and he had it. I was really feeling good. Within about 30 minutes I was on my knees driving the percelon bus. I hope it's only a 12 hour thing. He was feeling much better after about 12 hours.

Soon, how did the night go last night? I hope you got to laugh and smile some.

Well, I'm glad I get to talk to you some today, but I hate that you are feeling rough. I'm sure you are pretty weak from all of the running, no pun intended, and having an empty stomach. I am glad that you are feeling better. So I wont ask you how your night went, as I already know. Miserable.

I didn't laugh much. I went and got sisnlaw, drove her truck to get the stuff I had packed and then put it in storage. I let the baby stay with them last night as he was so tired and worn out and just wanted to go to sleep.
My sisnlaw, I love her to death and she'd do anything for me. We are very close, but she's a drama queen. And I hate drama. The whole time we were driving she was asking me questions about my H , his family, his other women. And I didn't want to talk about it. I almost couldn't wait to get home so I could be alone.

I didn't get to talk to the oldest last night again. H called at around 10PM and said he was already asleep. He told me he loved me and missed me, I just said ok. He called here this morn, I got to talk to my sweet baby. He's still having fun. I just hung up the phone after I got through talking to him.

Well, gosh I wish you'd get to feeling better. I'm worried about you Tired! I'm sure Sam is taking good care of you.

Oh yeah, please do not write me a song pertaining to activities that you particapted in last night.

When is your birthday?

My birthday is 9-18-64. I think I'm going to make it, and your concern means a lot to me. Thanks.

Sorry your night went roughly. I'm lucky in that I don't have to deal with anyone too nosy into what happened. I think I'm really starting to put it behind me since I've been dealing with all this since May 05. I hope you can get to that point. I certainly do not want to seem mean in saying this, but once you are away from him and have limited contact, things will get a lot better.

How's the headache? I hope you don't get one today. When is your oldest son coming home? I know you can't wait to see him. He will probably have a lot of stories to tell you.

I've got your CD burned and I'll mail it tomorrow. Good times.

Are you working today or at home?

My oldest, his name is Milas (pronounced Mylus) by the way...his birthday is Sept 29th. Must be a good month!

I will get to that point I know. I'm on the road right now. I know that once I'm out things will get better. But I think that my H thinks that even after I move out, we'll still be saying ILY's and talk every day. And I'd bet you anything he will still think that he can come to me for SF. And I'm going to have to set boundaries, if he wants to call and talk to the boys then that's fine. But I'm not interested in being his best friend, he's used me enough. No more. I mean, I will remain his friend for the boy's sake...but that's it.

Milas comes home on Saturday. I cannot wait to see him. I'd like to take he and the baby, oh...his name is Jubal. Funny names I know. Strange names I know. I like em though. Anyway, I can't figure out a nice little weekend trip, that's not too far away to take them on. They love the water, wish it would warm up.

Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I did get your email yesterday. And I want to thank you too for helping me through these hard times (tearing up now). Got to go.

OK, got over that quickly! Do you have plans for the weekend? We are having a big 50th birthday party for the Mandolin player in our little band on Saturday evening. I'm not sure what time Milas will be home so I may have to skip out of the party early.

He doesn't know that we're having it. We are gonna grill out, hamburgers and hotdAWGS and a whole mess of other stuff. Want to come? I mean, it's only a ten hour drive. I figure if you're willing to drive six hours to stand in pig poop then surely you'd be willing to drive ten to eat a hamburger!

OK, I'm going to talk your head off today. Just ignore me if you wish. I know you're not feeling well.

I thought of you and Sam last night. There was an article in a local newspaper up where my parents live about a couple who were in visiting family. They had went down to a place called "Potters Falls" to take some pictures. They stumbled upon a garbage bag that had a dead mommy dog in it. And they looked around and there stood a little baby bassett hound. Nearly dead. They took it home with them, and nursed it back to health. The picture they had put in with the article was a little boy sleeping, and the hound had his head laid upon the little boy. It was so sweet. A sad story, but a happy ending.

Dang it Soon, now you've got me crying. Two things in this crazy world that I cannot tolerate are child abuse and animal cruelty. When I say animal cruelty, I don't mean hunting and fishing, I mean starvation and torture. I couldn't be a police officer, because I would literally shoot someone for either of those things. Enough of a sermon already.

What kind of trimmings with the burgers. I mean if I'm going to drive 10 hours, I need some condiments. I hope you have fun at the party. Eat a burger for me, although it doesn't sound very good right now.

No major plans for the weekend. I have made a new friend, although I haven't actually met her yet. We were set up through mutual friends and have been e-mailing and calling. I've seen her picture and she is very pretty, and she likes my pics, so she is crazy as hel! too. Anyway, we talk for hours on the phone, and it feels real natural. I'm going to take her to lunch tomorrow, if I get over the virus.

Don't you ever feel embarrassed about your boys names. I like Milas and Jubal, I really do. I know they are wonderful kids. Email me a pic of them if you get a chance, I would love to see them. When is Jubal's birthday? Zach's is 3/26.

I'm at home today. Called in sick and nobody argued either. They're all scared to catch it.

Soon, talk all you want today. I love to hear it.

Soon, all I have to do today is to work online crosswords and talk to you. Chat all you want, ok?

Soon, I could sure use those chaps and nothing else today. That would save a lot of time and effort.

Congratulations on meeting, well almost meeting, a new woman in your life! How long have you been talking to her? If it feels good, then go for it! So you're taking her out to lunch tomorrow. I hope you have a great time.

Jubals birthday is Jan 04. I'm not embarrased about their names. Usually when I tell people their names, they just say "Huh?". Milas' full name is Zebadiah. He was named after an ancestor of my H, and uncle that fought in the civil war. Jubal's middle name is Nehemiah. He was names after Jubal Anderson Early, the confederate general. I picked out the middle names too, I like bible names. And names that are different. Ofcourse, they may be in the fifth grade before either of them learn to spell their full name too. I wish I could email you some pics of them, but I have no means of doing so. Not equipped for that here. And wouldn't know how to do it anyway.

What kind of trimmings do you want for the burger? You name em, I'll make sure they're there.

Are you still feeling better? I hope so.

I guess the chaps would have came in handy. **note to self** I must stop picturing things in my head as I read Tired's posts.

I think I may be a little jealous here. You make sure this new friend does not interefere with your MB time. Just joking.

You ever seen "Dumb and Dumber"?

Please, don't be jealous. My heart belongs to Soon. We are going to get through this together, so don't worry about me bailing out.

I watched Dumb and Dumber over the weekend. And yes, that is just about what it's like. That is the mental picture that you have, right?

You were reading my mind weren't you? Yep, the exact picture...except with Chaps...less the hair-do.

That's one of my favorite movies. I could watch it over and over again.

Along that same line, have you tried Zoolander, Meet the Parents, and Raising Arizona? These are some of my favorites too.