So here I sit 4 years later, what should I do that I am not doing now?

FORGIVE HER

But I have chosen to forgive her, ...where did I go wrong?

By chosing to harbor your feelings of anger,bitterness, and resentment.

They have somehow become a safe harbor for me.

Exactly as Satin would have it!

So what do I do?

Let go!!!

How will I trust her again?

By trusting of Me. That I will not let this happen again!!

And if it should?

I will release you!

Then I will be obedient to YOU, and trust in your wisdom, I will let my heart be yours , and You will guide me, is this correct?

IT IS!

so I am done with this?

If you so choose.\

Thank you for letting me choose!

I love both of you beyond your comprehension!!

Thsnk you soooooooo much!

Bless you Lord and everyone else here who needed someone or something to cling to. It is truly time (after 4 years) for me to move on and establish my new M. I will be forever grateful to those who chose to post back to my somewhat nonsencicle posts. Still, I needed all of you to get through the most dificult time of my life.
I truly hope that God blesses all of you, and continues His good work on this forum.
I was woefully short in giving any good advise on this forum, so I guess I was mre of a taker than a giver. I wish this wasn't so, because I truly do wish to give back to the newbies on this forum.
Alas, I have no important wisdom to impart, but listen to the excellant advise of those who do.
I will continue to monitor from time to time, but I will not post again.
Blessings to all of you,
Jerry

go forth and be joyful Jerry

Pep

Thank you Shinethrough. (Jerry)
It is as if what you have written was written today for me.

I am sitting here with tears in my eyes. I needed to be reminded of God's continual love and forgiveness even when we cannot forgive ourselves.

That is EXACTLY what I needed to do. (What God said in His reply to your first question.) But for me, the FWW, the words from Him are: FORGIVE YOURSELF.

It IS time (past time) to walk on into the sunshine and leave the darkness behind.
"Today is the first day of the rest of our lives."

Thanks again.
Jerry, you may want to write a few more times on this thread you started; that would be great.
You are a GOOD GUY and your Wife is fortunate to have you for her loving AND forgiving Husband.