Pio,

How are you doing on the inside? I know you are keeping busy which is excellent but what is happening in your head and heart?

Pio,

Tell me....what do you see as your biggest challenge with G's return?

Well I am eating plenty of ruffage so things are going okay.



Oh - THAT'S what you meant. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/blush.gif" alt="" />

I tried to watch Apollo 13 last night but I feel asleep. I will try again tonight. I have to get the earth back in the window. So far I still can't see anything and it's a bit scary.

Hey All!

Hi Todd! Yipee! Glad you're back. Gawd, the NC thing...how much hurt are you trying to inflict on yourself? What are you hoping for when you see her & why do you think your WW will have changed?

I didn't read everything since I was last on but as ususal I see reference to SF. STOP THAT! There are people here who have gone years "being alone". Did I not get that right?

"pottery mouth!"

Cute Pio! I spent the whole day doing pottery things with my pottery buddies I'm bound (with what? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" />) to have a pottery mouth.

DD1 was reading about Matthew and Tilly for homework last night. Matthew and Tilly get into a fight and start calling each other names. The call each other stupid, stinky and something else I forget. Anyway. DD1 won't say the word "stupid". Every time she reads it, she substitutes a high pitched "beep". No matter where that word occurs in the story, she "beeps". I am going to have to start paying more attention to what channels they are watching on TV. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" />

OK, since there was talk of food & SF the is a way to combine both, no I don't mean going out for dinner than after... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />

I saw it on a show on HBO called Real Sex. In one episode some people, they were British, you may wonder how I knew they were British when they weren't wearing their sandles & black socks, but that's another story. Any way, these people all shared a fetish. It was mixing sex & food. They would rub foods like baked beans, cakes, puddings, etc. all over each other while naked. Rather gross really. Thankfully they didn't show what happened after the rubbing.

There was a Seinfeld about that where George had to sneak food into bed so he could enjoy SF. Baked beans though... Only in England. Whipped cream? Maybe...

Whipped cream is sticky...so I've heard.

I bought 5 new glazes today & they will help alleviate the SF thoughts for a bit...mini bit.

Glaze talk = tool talk

Thank you Nams.


I honestly don't know.



Do you mean like George was "alone"?

So why do you need 5 different glazes? How many different glazes are there?

I have a stool that I don't use. It came with a table we use for the microwave. I'm thinking of inverting my drill press and fixing the tool seat to the chuck and making a pottery wheel. It's just a concept so far.

How many glazes would I need to start? Can I use a microwave as a kiln?

We are talking about being the king/queen of our domain right?

I can start with prince/princess and work my way up.

I don't know Todd, if I had to take a wild guess I'd say you just want things they were at one time in your married life. That coupled with a few other things make you keep going back to your WW.

Your kids & their view of the family, your desire to have someone beside you during this health crisis, not wanting the huge changes ahead if you D, unwillingness to see the changes in your WW as the real her or at least the new her. There's likely more but this is what comes to my mind immediately.

I know I didn't want to let go the dream I had in my head of my marriage & my family. But so much of it was what I wanted ex to be, what I saw for myself in my life. It took adjusting but I KNOW I'm better off. I could not live with a man who can not be emotionally intimate with me, a dishonest man, a cheater, a liar. You know, the list goes on.

Pio, please don't show us a picture as you work your way up. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" /> <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" />

No. No more pictures after all the abuse I got. Not much help for the self-esteem. I have enough issues without the rest of you reminding me.

And Todd, there's nothing wrong with you for wanting your W back, but they WW is another story.

I accepted ex back fairly certain he was cheating, willing to take his word he wasn't or at least thinking we/I could work around it. Talk about not doing the right thing at the right time. I think I might be the poster child.

No George was not being alone. He was in the middle of foreplay, had to take a second, came out from under the covers and pulled out a slice of pizza from the bedside table. He broke up of course. Later he got into a fight with a woman who was baking cookies in her kitchen. She had the same "problem" as George. They ended up on the kitchen floor with cookies flying everywhere.

Now Pio, I can't decide if you need help with your self esteem or not. A man who would post his picture in pink shorts, working in his WW's garden, talking about ordering cheese cake for her return, telling DD's they need to show you some respect for your hard work doesn't strike me as a man who needs help with his self esteem.