Hi all,
Keeping up with this post is a full time job, but quite educating.

I cannot sleep tonight, I thought I could get some advice here. After I found out that WH is still in contact with OW, I've been going really down, really fast. I guess I was LB and DJ. After Pio's advice, I am trying to get a hold of myself. Tough.
On Monday morning, I told him to only do second NC if he really means it. Not because I am pressuring him, since if he does it bc of pressure, he does not follow it.
He told me a couple of times that he loves me, wants M to work. I am waiting to go to MC today to talk about relationship.
I am going back to early feelings that I just want out of the M. I was getting happy again, but now it is so hard to be with him and always wonder how much he really tells me.
I don't think he's seeing her, or PA, but talking, even if "business" is also an A.
What are my "arms" for this fight? Other than threaten a D or separation, I don't know how to make him take me seriously.
I am so tired of him.

Pio, how is it going?

Stph, I took my wedding band off on DD. WH did not say anything at the time, but later said it upset him. I put it back when he returned to the house. And decided to keep it until D, hopefully not D, but only then.

Hello again,

Arrived home a little earlier than I thought. Thanks for replying to my post. I see most people stayed clear of it though. I hope I didn't upset anyone, I would never want to do that. I am really struggling with my disgust, distrust etc.

I really appreciate you helping me Bigkahuna. I read the links you mentioned and also printed them so I can take my time reading them tomorrow. I have so much printed material to read from this site I need to buy a new cartridge.

Steph20 I am much older than you but I am also reading and learning from all the advice being given to you. I hope it all works out well for you. I think we have been lucky to find this group of posters.

I had no idea posts were edited. I certainly read nothing to cause distress today. In fact I enjoyed the humor.

Now I have to google flashlights!

Goodnight and thanks again.

Hi Beth,

Flashlight may not satisy your curiosity. Try changing the "a" to an "e".

I went to google! Fleshlight! I hope I don't need to use a real one too soon...

estrela,

I replied on your venting thread. Keep that stuff up and you will start to piss me off. It is okay to vent. Good that you did it here. No go back and get to work! [You're doing great BTW - much better than I ever did] <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Thanks. I will try to get some sleep...

Posts are only edited if they are offensive or the poster asks that it be done, etc. Nams post was pretty tame compared to what has gone on since. Justuss will have a busy day ahead of her tomorrow. I don't envy the mods - especially since this thread started. They edit very little. One thing I am still very upset with Justuss about though is a post directed at me that she edited. In that post, I was called

a) a miserable excuse for a human being

and

b) a horse's a$$

Now she edited out the miserable human being part but left the horse's a$$. What was the basis for that selective edit? It has never been explained. Maybe just Justuss tacitly expressing her OWN opinion?

Personally I would rather be a miserable excuse for a human being than a horse's a$$. JMO.

Nobody is avoiding your posts but you do seem a little sensitive. I think we want you to feel more at home before we start walloping you like we do stph20. Don't worry, you'll get your chance <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Meantime post about licorice but just don't post about creative things you can do with licorice or the mods will be on you too. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/blush.gif" alt="" />

Thanks ToddAC

Guess you realise I am now very well prepared for the next earthquake - thanks for the E can I buy a U ?

Back to Google with my E.

For some reason, I think you will be okay.

I am sorry, but you only have prizes and no cash at this point so you cannot buy vowels. Spin or solve.....

Vanna is frozen BTW...

Would you like my input here?

Sorry. Left out Todd's input:

c) all of the above

I apologize. I was not a miserable excuse. I was a useless excuse. I also was not a horse's [censored], I was a [censored].

So I was not permitted to be a useless excuse for a human being but was allowed to be a [censored].

I just reread the post to confirm. Anyway, it does show some inconsistency in the editing guidelines.

So Pio - are you expecting your posts above to be moderated? I had not seen any posts moderated here before today. Have I been edited here by Justuss?

You know Pio, this genuinely hurts me. I asked in good faith if you wanted my input and you took it upon yourself to "read" my mind and conjure the anwswer. I am very disappointed.

ToddAC,

Thought I had better return your E.

My oh my, hope I don't have nightmares.

By the way the site I looked at had a buy two get one free deal! Makes the mind boggle!

piojitos,

At least you are a very pleasant horse's a$$.
Plus I've noticed a really great dad.

Goodnight.

Correction:

c) insensitive dweeb

d) all of the above

Oh 2regret,

Not that I am interested, but what is the URL of that site?

too much "coffee" has a terrible affect on me.

Okay Pio, you are simply prolonging my disappointment and hurt.