Heard a few songs yesterday at the gym yesterday...as you guys know, I am still in the midst of a struggle with my xwh..the wistress is doing just as everybody said...she is waffling..despite telling her family of darth's cruelty and his still cheating...I can't testify against darth without getting HER testimony...I have to have it as first hand witness...so until she gives up the stupid fantasy they created...it IS OVER...she said so herself and I have her venomous words for the man she fought so hard to break up my marriage for...even getting pregnant over to end my family...all for nothing basically...my M ended for no REAL REASON..other than my xh wants cake and is disturbed. I have it all...on tape..on record..and its legal 2 do so.
Anyhow, this is the song..it is for you.
Whether you're in Plan A, Plan B, or plan D, or as I am in "Plan EXorcise Darth" this song is for you....
Its an oldie but goodie...Pat Benatar's Invincible
[color:"blue"] [/color] This bloody road remains a mystery
This sudden darkness fills the air
What are we waiting for?
Wont anybody help us?
What are we waiting for?
We cant afford to be innocent
Stand up and face the enemy
Its a do or die situation
We will be invincible
This shattered dream you cannot justify
Were gonna scream until were satisified
What are we running for?
Weve got the right to be angry
What are we running for?
When theres no where we can run to anymore
We cant afford to be innocent
Stand up and face the enemy
Its a do or die situation
We will be invincible
And with the power of conviction
There is no sacrifice
Its a do or die situation
We will be invincible
Wont anybody help us?
What are we running for?
When theres no where, no where we can run to anymore
We cant afford to be innocent
Stand up and face the enemy
Its a do or die situation
We will be invincible
And with the power of conviction
There is no sacrifice
Its a do or die situation
We will be invincible
Ok...You gotta stand up. Don't take this lying down. Doing nothing accomplishes nothing. It's time to gain respect. And even though now I could care less if my wxh respects me at all or not, It is for ME and for my CHILD...get tough. Get smart. Do not be afraid. If you do your part...cover each base...LOOK CAREFULLY at your sitch...can it be fixed? Not? Hope? REAL hope for a changed M? If it can or not...you do all you can. You work every angle. You take the WS mentality DOWN. YOU put this on YOUR terms. YOU fight for your precious kids and their well being and for not being around lying immoral cheaters who TEACH THAT FAMILIES ARE NOT FOREVER...JUST UNTIL YOU FEEL LIKE HAVING SOMEBODY WHO MAKES YOU HAPPY FOR THE MOMENT AROUND.
Sorry I am angry.
I remember just about this time 3 years ago..the ink was barely dry on my D papers...and I had to see Darth at his office for a financial issue (having him resolve something he did..one of the millions of things he did)...I remember saying to him and we were both crying..."You'd better make sure you're dam#ed sure happy. You'd best make this all worth what you did to your REAL family over this. You'd better stay with her forever...good and bad. You'd best remember the heyall you put your son through before you put your unborn baby through it too. Make this destruction worth it for you. Make it worth it ok?"
He was crying and crying and so was I. I remember yelling at him the last part...ds was upstairs in another section of the large building playing and didn't hear us...but the secretaries were tearing up (some of them were my friends) and his business partner was in the back with his head down listening to it too. And today? 3 years later I know that it all happened because Darth wanted to live for the moment and now he's an unrecognizeable person to me. A monster. He never changed. Some of them just get worse. Some become prince or princess charming and repent and turn away from their ways. He did not choose to do so. Basically all this...hearing just monday of this week from his Affair Wifey that she has n't loved him in almost 2 years now...that they hate each other...that both of them have asked the other to leave...well that bitter pill has not gone down my throat well. It's left me angry and choking and sometimes filled with tears...
My son is still stuck around this crap when he sees his father. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />
For nothing...all of it happened because he can't control himself and the anger he turned inward..the real frustration that he RUINED HIS LIFE AND THE FAMILY HE ONCE HAD THAT WAS HAPPY...WAS GOOD...WAS FOR NOTHING..his self hate and his pain now has made him become the monster he is today..he is 100x worse now than when he was in his worst wayward mode with me. This is so sad.
But listen to that darn song...fight. Stand up to the enemy. Whatever, whoever it is. Stand tall with faith and dignity and couarge. I pray for you all. God bless.
So fight for the issues that are relelvant, moral, and right. Stand up.
