What is your thinking now?
Simple. No children between us, nothing shared financially, at least nothing to amount to anything, no reason to continue is my thinking.
What is her thinking right now?
Says she is sorry. Asks for forgiveness. Doesn't want me to end it. Whenever I tell her that I can't see it being fixed, she says that everything can be fixed. Says she will do whatever it takes to fix it. Can't do a whole lot, though, being that far from me.
I would also like to know what your W is doing. Does she call you?
Yes, she calls. However, there are times that there is a fair amount of time that she probably could call that she doesn't. Enough to have had time to be with him, and that messes with my mind. Those are the hard times for me. I could use a 1 minute call, just to ease my mind.
Then...probably normal, but....she then gets irritated at me because of how much I am asking. Take today, for instance....She called and I heard from her again 4 hours later. There was no reason that she could not have called me a couple of times within those 4 hours other than she just didn't. I tried to explain to her that the helpful value of her calling me far outweighs the trouble it would have been for her. The fact that she doesn't see that, and finds a way to justify it bothers me.
Another thing....any little thing that may be a little inconsistent drives me bananas. Some she could keep from happening, but would require a little effort on her part. She has problems with that. That only adds fuel to the fire.
I have decided that she is NOT going to do "whatever it takes". If it makes her feel like crap, or makes her feel controlled, it ain't going to happen.
I'm ready to chuck it all. Especially considering the distance between us.
Is she remorsefull (I know for being caught but that is a start if she is)?
I really don't know. Maybe I am looking for that remorse way too soon. I do know that she has a problem with showing me, but can readily say it. That is eating at me as well.
For believer.....
Not exactly a job, per se, that she is doing. There is no way that she can leave and come home right now. There are obligations she MUST fulfill without going into greater detail at the moments. Let's just say that there would be severe ramifications if she just up and left. And there would be no way that our relationship would survive those ramifications. Although she could leave at any moment. But the consequences would be bad.
