Thanks IAPBS! It was good, I enjoyed it!

Well, I got the kids back, I asked for my laptop, but of course I didn't get it! Kids are well...L's getting ready for bed and F's relaxing...

I'm okay, been praying alot over the past few weeks, just asking for God's help...There was a beautiful rainbow in the sky this afternoon...it reminded me to pray...

ANd I guess give thanks...I'm tired and wearing thin...this has gone on SOO long...

I had a good weekend, worked on the rummage sale stuff, kept busy...busy is good right now...to much time on my hands isn't I don't think...

Well, let me get L into bed...

Hi, Again...I got L in bed, I went to give him his meds. and he said that dad gave him a whole tablet instead of a half, and he told his dad that mom only gives me half...

L said that he didn't tell dad again becasue it didn't want his dad to get mad at him...The bottle CLEARLY sayd 1/2 tablet twice a day...I'm sure that looks good for me too!!!

Good thing POWS didn't overdose the child...I'll document that too...Then, both of them with coughs were playing after in rained and got soaked...great judgement on POWS part!!

Oh, I looked in the meds bag and POWS sent some on my mail...there was an Dr. appt. that was rescheduled from 7/6/07 to 7/19/07...I just got it today...I guess that was the one that I rescheduled, I'm not sure...all the mail looks like it's from June and July...

These just had my name on them...guess he's opening everything with both of our names...

POWS being a POS...can't change that...

Heck, I just may end up with sole custody by the time we get there...BONUS for ME...

Well, i hopet hat everyone is well, and in a better place today then yesterday b/c This too shall pass!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

Rin-

Woo- Hoo! A mani-pedi, AND eyebrows?!?!? You must have been feeling gorgeous after it was all over with! I am glad that you treated yourself.

You are doing a great job of looking at the positive side of things. That sometimes is hard to master... but you seem to be doing great at it.

I cannot believe that he gave him a double does of the meds!!! Does POWS not know how to read??? That would be upsetting to me too.. what was the med?

It is looking more and more like he is just digging the hole deeper and deeper... you will triumph in the end! Hang in there!

I called my mom, she's a nurse, but she couldn't find it, so I looked it up on the net...he has no symptoms of OD....

editted to take med name out

That is good news... how is L?

He's doing fine...one of the OD symptoms was irregaulate heartbeat, something easy I could check...it seemed normal...

I'm going to have to ask in the morning before I call my Attorney to see if this happened once or all four times...my looking in the bottle, it looks like all four times...

God is good...and I think this is the third time this is either child neglect or endangerment...

What a shame!

Well, I asked a few questions this morning...L was given twice the dose all four times that POWS gave it to him...and F didn't get his meds...

At least they only have one more weekend before court...we have 25 days left! Hurray...

Thank you all for supporting me. It means the world to me! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Rin,

SO GLAD that the meds did not hurt L! And what's this that F didn't even get his?? GEEZ! I'd ask what is POWS thinking, but obviously he's NOT thinking!

Sounds like you had a good weekend, though, with the exception of the meds issue. Manicure, Pedicure AND eyebrows! You gotta feel GREAT!

Makes me want to ditch all this mess around me and go do that myself!!

Have a great day!

I did have a good weekend, the med issue gave me a little strenght, I was feeling tired and thin...

Girl, You should do something for yourself with all the hard work you are doing!

You know I had been talking about getting it done, but the finances would end up screwed up, so Firday when I got CS, I promised myself that I was going to do it...went BY MYSELF...LMAO...didn't have a clue what I was suppose to do, couldn't understand the lady when she talked to me...

I think I said I was sorry three or four times...LMAO...and I do like looking at my toes! Their cute! Had to make sure that I wore my sandals today to sow them off! LMAO <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Well, I called my attorney on the double dose of meds., felt that was important and I should let them know immediately on that one...

It really will not surprise me if the judge makes him attend parenting classes, and I can tell you this POWS will NOT be happy about that!

Doing the best I can with what I have!!!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> This should be REALLY easy for the judge!

Hi everyone, I picked up L and he was sleeping, put him in the car, sleeping, got home, sleeping...tried to wake him up for supper...nothing...

OCCASIONALLY, he'll do this and I just let him sleep throught the night and he's good to go...

F got ALL of his homework done tonight, I let him listen to my CD player and I helped him...he earned five pebble for his jar...one for each subject and two more...this seems to be working...

As far as me, well, I'm trying hard to focus on what I'm doing here and now...my brain keeps wanting to shift to "how many days til court"...that's too far away to be thinking about...

I have to remind myself to stay present, easier said than done...

I did get to spent a little QT time with F tonight, since he was sleeping, Spon. watched him while F and I went to the store and got him a new school bag, then we went pick up pizza...we had to wait for it to be done, so F and I watched the clouds and laughed about what we saw in them...we had a good time...

Oh, L was trying to convince me this morning that he only had to go to school three days a week...I wanted to laugh...he was really grummie, side effect of the meds...I haven't given him anymore...better to be safe than sorry...still a little concerned but only because he chose TODAY to sleep like this...

If he didn't have a history of doing this, I would be coming unglued...Well, I'm going to go try to read something and keep my mind on right now...staying present is my goal for awhile...it's what I'm struggling with the most at this time...

Wishing everyone well, hoping that something I have shared helps in some little way...the world does get brighter...opportunity are often not seen b/c they are concelled by hard work...

<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Well, l woke up at 2am, then at 4am with me...at 4, I fed him some pizza and something to drink...

When the clock went off this morning, he didn't want to wake up again...it was a struggle to get both kids started...

Outside of that, we are doing well. F finished ALL of his homework, I was so proud, and L finished his this morning...

No word on that interview, perhaps that was God's way of telling me that I CAN write grants...

Rin,

Patience on the interview,,,, these things can take time.

It's tough for all of the kids the first week or so to get back into the routine. The med thing probably just has a bit of an lingering effect. He should perk back up in a day or 2.

Keep smilin!

hI, bUGS! i CAN BE PATIENCE ON THE INTERVIEW, i'M COOL WITH THAT...

Sorry for the caps! At work...

Well, I called my attorney...the more I thought about my laptop, the more mad I got...I TMed POWS Sunday and said: Please give my laptop to Spon. when she comes to pick up the kids.

Of course, no response...and I didn't expect one...

So, I called my A and told the para that I have requested things from the house and he fails to response each time...kids' DVD and clothes, So I went purchase them...but I'm not doing that with my laptop...

I said that it was suppose to be a Christmas present to me, he wanted to finance it in his name and couldn't, so it's in my name, and I'm paying the bill...I said that I didn't know if that made a difference, she said that it should...

So she's going to request it through his Attorney...so we will see...he's really pissing me off!

It would not surprise me if he came back and said that it was not a Christmas present, or something like that! It's the PA behavior when I ask, let's see what he does this way...

AGH! Well, I have a noon meeting to go to! That will do me some good!

Well, I got a good call from the teacher that called last week...she said that he has improved, he still needed to work on his handwriting and she said that she could tell that I work with him at home...

So, that made me feel good...maybe, just maybe I have this thing turning in the right direction...I'll cross my fingers...OH, he got an A on his reading test...HURRAY! So, he's earned two pebbles b/f I've even seen him!!!

I've let the pissy mood go from the time I posted to now...I'm just getting tired of dealing with POWS...

I'm sure that will straighten itself out soon too...

Well, I have to go force a solution...mail merge printing problem?????

LMAO... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

You know - compared to a year ago, you've "ungroomed" yourself to no longer be tolerant of abuse. I can't tell you how many women I've worked with in women's programs or at shelters, or covered their stories as a news reporter, who kept saying, "Oh - that's so much worse - that story - aweful - my husband/boyfriend/father/brother/whoever/whatever is no where like that. He only does......." And a year ago, you were there.

Your training is falling away. POS trained you to tolerate his way of controlling you. Never forget how you left, if you ever find yourself forgetting - IT WAS THAT BAD. He was every bit as vile as Brian. The signals were there.

You had just grown tolerant of it - so it didn't seem all that evil to you at the time.

Thank heaven you've made the strides you have. A year ago, I could not have predicted the level of mental health you have now.

Thank you for restoring my faith in my sisters! (I feel like the woman on the seashore after the tide has gone out, tossing starfish back into the water so they can survive - I can't help them all - too many come right back on the next wave.

But now I know there's one who really is not coming back voluntarily for more abuse!!

Good morning KA! Thank you very much for the compliment! Yesterday was a REALLY rough day for me...L woke up with me at 4am and we had some QT time together.

I told him that no matter who it is, if he knows that he's not suppose to take that much medicine tonot take it b/c it can really hurt you. L said "You could die!" I said that was right and it hit my heart SOOOO hard. Thechild would rather have died then make his dad mad by telling him again that it was too much medicine.

Then, I picked up them up from the sitter and we had a talk, L was kinda of sleeping...F and I were talking, he wanted to call his dad and ask for their bikes. I asked if he had asked b/c and he said that POWS said he forgot or let me think about it...So, I recalled some things for F to remember and said that was POWS way of getting out of whatever it was that needed/wanted to be done...

F said that POWS does have a lady friend he calls baby all the time...I said that I knew about her...F asked a few more questions and asked if the little girl was his stepsister...I said no, that his dad was still Med to me, and that he was committing Adultry until we were Ded...

F knew that was a sin...and for the first time in a LONG time, F got mad and expressed his feeling...Raised his voices, and said like he was talking to POWS "You won't give us our bikes, you won't let us live in the house, etc"

I honestly don't remember what all he said but he wants to "curse" his dad out w/o the bad words, but he said that he wasn't old enough to show his anger...so I talked to him about being old enough and that if he was mad with his dad then he should tell him. We talked about how I use to express my anger and how much better I have gotten...

He said that he just wanted to MAKE his dad do the right thing...I explained that you can't make anyone, do anything...

Needless to say this whole conversation just pulled at my heart, but I was happy that F was talking about it...I have an exercise that I want to do with him about his anger...

So, I was a mess when we got home, trying to figure out how I felt...I talked to SPon. and she send me to a meeting...the topic of choice was anger...GREAT!!! Well, I was sitting there, listening to everyone and I just started tearing up...my mind was rolling with thought after thought...then it hit me, I was furious!!!

Absoletely FURIOUS!!! I wanted to throw a temperture tamtram like a child who kicks and screams, or I wanted a punching bag to kick and whale on...I said I was furious about L with the medicine, and not being given things that we have requested...mad that we were being treated like this and I just went on...

My nose was stopped up, I had tears running down my neck and I had to catch my breathe several times...so I talked it all out and felt much better...

I got home and L was in bed waiting on me for his breathing treatment...but I'm out of medicine and after talking with my mom about the overdose medicine she said that he slept Monday b/c he was coming down from that high...

So, I went back and read again about the medicine, and it increase mucus production...when L got up yesterday we had to blow his nose several times, he wasn't that bad the Sunday night, and now, he's coughing again...So, I'm making him a Dr. appt. today...

Going to explain to the Dr. what POWS did and Thanks to LA, going to try to get a letter about the harmful effects of the medicine and get that to my Attorney...

I've decided that I will do my best to swap weekends will POWS whenever there is medicine involved...so that he can not give it to them...I will also talk to my Attorney about this and try to have it added to the paperwork for court, along with not being around OW...

OKay, we have an appt. for 4pm today!

Anyway, I will not allow my kids to continue being treated this way if I can help it at ALL...POWS just does not know what he just did...

I'm sure that he will lose interest in the kids here in the near future, b/c they will not fit with his lifestyle...but that's neither here nor there...

KA, I remember good and well what it was like RIGHT NOW....yesterday helped me to see alot...and I strongly feel back on track...I'm tired of playing games with him...

I passed POWS on the road on the way to pick up the kids and I looked at him...nothing else...also I've determines that I'm going to have to call the police if he shows up like he did Friday...he knew I was there...my car was in plain view and I'm just going to have to enforce my boundaries!!

So, this is where I am today...I'm standing tall and am in fight mode for my kid's safty...that medicine said seizures or death...

I know sole custody is HARD to get but the more they can tell me is NO! I would love to see supervised visitation...

Anyone know what the minimum visitation is for the non-custodial parent?

I think it's Every other weekend and two weekends during the summer????????

(((Rin)))

Thanks Smiley GUy! I appreciate that!