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I'm tryingg my hardest. It's hard sometimes to not stare at that phone. But I'm not gonna call. Just gotta get through the weekend.
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***Recovering and growing wiser and stronger.***
I was divorced 10/08/2008.
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Well it's Sunday & he still hasn't called or returned my emails. But I haven't had any panic/anxiety attacks either. I'm just gonna go day by day. And tomorrow is my acting coach career consulatation and I'm excited about that. I'm excited about me. Excited that I'm making myself happy and not stopping my life and waiting for him to figure out where his head is.
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***Recovering and growing wiser and stronger.***
I was divorced 10/08/2008.
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Yay Sunshine!!
You are getting STRONGER!!!
And you will continue to get STRONGER and STRONGER
And grow and grow and grow!!!
Take care & have a great day!!
Charlotte
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<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/pfft.gif" alt="" /> Good Gal!!!!!!!!!!
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Me-46yo + Husband-49yo
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Had a nice dinner with SIHW tonight. She was in town & we got together. It was alot of fun. She got to meet my 4 furry-children. It was good to be able to talk to somebody who understands whats going on in my life.
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D-day 10/03/2007
***Recovering and growing wiser and stronger.***
I was divorced 10/08/2008.
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LA, She got to meet my 4 furry-children. What kind of furry children do you have???? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> bb
Me-46yo + Husband-49yo
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I have 4 cats. 2 fluffy siamese looking boys, 1 female ginger tabby and 1 female black & white. All very spoiled. All adored by me.
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D-day 10/03/2007
***Recovering and growing wiser and stronger.***
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LA, 4 seems to be a lucky number... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" /> I've got 4 fluffy guys too. With one exception............I've got four dogs. 2 Havanese, 1 pug and a king-sized poodle. They've always given me strength..........and I also love them more than anything........... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> hugs bb
Me-46yo + Husband-49yo
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I loved her little black and white but it was painful to pet her....every time I did I got a static shock....haha. It was nice meeting up and spending some time out. I got back around 10:30 pm and just crashed on my friends couch as I was falling asleep in the car....5 mins and I was out. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />
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I checked my bank balance this morning. Looks like WS has remailed the D papers to me from the USPS. Wonder when they will show up? Had a bit of a meltdown and I feel really bad today.
Went to my career consultation for acting and the consultant was awesome. She'd been through a D too and knew I was just barely hanging in there today.
I don't know if I should call him or not.
Any advice would be great.
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D-day 10/03/2007
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I was divorced 10/08/2008.
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Faith
me: FWW/BS 52 H: FWH/BS 49
DS 30
DD 21
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OCDS 8
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OK. No calls. But I am going to take a few Ativan and try to eat some lunch. I am really down. I thought our last phone conversation was pretty good. I guess not. My chest hurts and my arm is getting tingly. Trying not to have a panic attack. Stupid, stupid husband. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />
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I was divorced 10/08/2008.
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I had a great consultation with the acting career coach. She was wonderful. Really helped me plan my attack on agents, managers and we chose pics. Made me feel good. She has been through a D too and knew what I was going through. She was glad that I was moving forward and getting my acting stuff in gear. She loved my look and gave me a long list of things to-do. Which I am starting tomorrow morning. I have it all layed out on the kitchen table.
Even though I'm moving forward, I'm not giving up on WS. He's in such a thick fog. He's like a zombie. I guess I will keep ignoring him and not calling and just wait & see what he does.
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D-day 10/03/2007
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"a few Ativan"?
Should we be worried? -Just checking.
It sounds like you are coping fairly well, that comment just got me concerned.
me - 47  H - 39  married 2001 DS 8a  DS 8b :crosseyedcrazy: (Why is DS7b now a blockhead???) (Ack! Now he's not even a blockhead, just a word! That's no fun!)
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A few is 2. 2 usually works.
I am just starting to cope somewhat OK. I used to be a complete mess. Really...I was a mess.
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***Recovering and growing wiser and stronger.***
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I know. {{{{{ LA }}}}}
I just didn't want you to add another problem to your list. It's ok to use the tools in the right way, but you don't want to stray into abuse and addiction. You have enough problems to deal with.
It's good to hear you feeling a bit more stable.
me - 47 H - 39 married 2001 DS 8a DS 8b :crosseyedcrazy: (Why is DS7b now a blockhead???) (Ack! Now he's not even a blockhead, just a word! That's no fun!)
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I'm a list maker, so I actually have a little notebook that I write down when ever I take my medication. I don't want to forget & then take too much. I definitley don't want any problems with addiction. I'd become a Hollywood cliche.
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<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" /> I'm glad to hear you are being careful and responsible.
me - 47 H - 39 married 2001 DS 8a DS 8b :crosseyedcrazy: (Why is DS7b now a blockhead???) (Ack! Now he's not even a blockhead, just a word! That's no fun!)
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Today should be OK. I go see therapy lady today. And I'm working on my acting stuff.
No contact from WS. It's been 11 days since he last called. And I haven't called him.
BS(me) 40
WH 40
D-day 10/03/2007
***Recovering and growing wiser and stronger.***
I was divorced 10/08/2008.
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