411 - eeeeewwww.

Hey, thanks for the support..."ya'll!"

It went really well with H today. The hot button issue did not come up.

We talked about family and other things and we flirted and a Plan A'ed my butt off!

I made pasta with homemade sauce...H loves my homemade sauce... and he took a doggie bag with him when he left.

I walked him out to the car and noticed the note I gave him on Thursday was under the console in the middle. It was not folded, it was underneath with the words that I wrote showing. (It was a short, to the point letter re: our M, etc. that Melody helped me write.)

I said, "Oh, there's the letter I gave you, did you have a chance to read it?"

H says, "Yes, and it is right here so I can read it again."

So I thought that was cool. Not crumbled up into a ball...not lying on the floor...but under the console where he can see it for comfort. Good.

In other news:

The OM and OWH will be subpoened to testify at the temporary hearing. (I can hear something hitting the fan already!!)

Oh, must add: There was a lot of GOOD tension between the two of us. For reasons unknown, two or three stacks of radio stuff...sometimes books, sometimes microphones and radios and books etc., fell over so I helped H pick them up. (He had some things for eBay that he was getting ready before the tsunami of truth hit.)

So that was a good opportunity because I was wearing short shorts, and well, you know... <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/blush.gif" alt="" />!!!!

Here's what you're missing, H! Etc., etc.

I haven't had so much fun being around him since before this whole mess started. I could tell he was enjoying it, too...and that I make him nervous; in a GOOD way. Also, since exposure I am being treated with RESPECT by H, none of that crap that was going on before exposure.

Of course, the foggy thing once in a while but on the whole, R-E-S-P-E-C-T and courtesy when he talks to me, etc.

You did just fine, Charlotte. I don't know how it could have gone any better. Keep it up. And post that recipe for the homemade sauce.

Thanks, believer. I must have reserves of strength that I am drawing from. I'm going to need all of the strength I can get when it's time for the hearing. I have to be in SERIOUS Spock mode!

I'll have to post that sauce...unless I'm in Granny Clampett mode...secret secret secret!!

It's simple, not a lot of things mucking it up. Some of the best recipes have the least "decoration" it seems...

I imagine hubby will probably try to wiggle his way back into your good graces.

But I think it is EXCELLENT that OM and his wife will be called as witnesses. Very good.

You seem to have a knack for this stuff and I'm very confident that you will do well.

Okay, I went to bed a little after 10 or so. I sent H a goodnight text telling him I enjoyed our time together even though it was short.

I woke up a bit ago from a dream, thinking it was the wee hours. Ha! It wasn't even two hours since I went to bed!

Anyway, in the dream my niece was in my mom's van. Her sister had gone back to another state where they live with my bro. My niece had been in the van for 3 or 4 days. Closer to 3 I think.

Somehow everyone kept forgetting she was in there and she was afraid to get out because of the consequences. Her bio "mother" had trained her to be afraid.

I was inside talking to my mom and I saw my niece out there and I asked her what she was going to do about the kid.

Then I remembered that my niece had been in the van for 3 days and I ran out there to go get her. She even still had her seatbelt on.

I hugged her tight and asked her if she was okay and apologized over and over again for forgetting about her in the van.

I took her into the kitchen to give her some water and I told her to drink very slowly. A sip...wait...a sip...wait, etc.

She was in great condition for having been in the van for so long.

She asked me how do people do that with the fog, or reach through the fog without others knowing...kind of like it was a magic trick. (It had apparently been very foggy on one of the mornings she was in the van.)

It was around this time that I woke up. At first I was afraid something happened to my niece but then I was like...
...Oh, yeah...(duh!)...she was ME...or I was she, etc.

When I thought more about it it made perfect sense, of course. And she is the niece that looks the most like my bro when he was little (facial features) and my bro and I look a lot alike because of facial features (except when he has a beard). Bro & I look alike, sis doesn't look like us but we all sound a lot alike on the phone & so does my mom.

My other niece resembles my sis more, especially when she was younger...and the dream niece as well. They are a little different now but you can still see our family line in them.

Anyway...just had to share that dream! Now I get to try and go back to sleep!

Hey Charlotte!

I hardly ever remember my dreams...

Just wanted to let you know that I'm here on the Night-Shift if you have trouble getting back to sleep!

Semper Fi,

RIF

Thanks believer!

I wasn't sure it could be done until that interesting convo with the process server and he brought it up.

Well, I had to think about it...for about 1 second! Perfect! Another nail in the coffin of the A!! Now that I know one of her weaknesses about being SO worried about what others think of her. To the extreme.

Thank you, OWH.

I was talking to Melody earlier this evening. I told her, "I'm SO evil!! But I'm a GOOD evil!!"

Naturally I felt bad about having to do this, to an extent. But then I told myself, "What the heck is wrong with you! She didn't give a rat's a** when she was stabbing you in the back and hurting you. All you are doing is giving her another dose of reality! This could help you and others as well so that she never cheats on her hubby again! That way some other woman can be spared the pain of infidelity at least from this woman."

So I gotta do it.

Will it help to stop her from cheating again? There's a strong possibility. I don't think she has any idea of the consequences of her actions. Well, I guess she does a little bit now, but I don't think she realizes the extent of the consequences. Yet.

Must add:

I will enjoy the time with hubby while he tries to wiggle his way back into my good graces. But I'm not budging.

Hi RIF!

Thanks! I'm probably going to try to sleep again in a little while.

You said you don't remember your dreams. You don't remember anything at all? Do you remember if they are in color? I know that some believe that people never dream in color but I think it depends on the individual. I've always dreamt in color. I remember once or twice when I had some sepia-toned dreams...but that's it. The rest of the time color is always there.

Charlotte, when I dream, it's ALWAYS in VIVID COLOR! Nothing like Technicolor Dreams! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" /> LOL!

TJ...Hey, RIF! Hope you're doing well. I'm still holding down our end of our state! Take care over there, and I appreciate what you're doing for us!

Hi Charlotte,

I can remember some of my dreams, and they are usually in color... but I don't remember them as clearly as you do... just bits and pieces...

Hope you're getting some well deserved rest!

Ditto from me re: Lady Clueless's words to you, RIF!

How did you know I was still up? I tried twice to go back to sleep but now my mind is bugging me and keeping me awake thinking too much.

I even emailed H and told him about the dream...but not the interpretation...except that "she was me."

I started thinking about everything H and I have been through over the years and also about when his mom died. Then I started thinking about the damn pill thing again. His mom took a lot of pills...not just prescription but OTC also.

His dad believes this might have contributed to her renal failure and he's probably right.

I'm so worried about H and the damn pills, I really hope they have a policy at work so he can get some help. Unless they just let him go when they finish their investigation.

I brought the pill thing up when he was here on Sunday but I didn't dwell on it long. He ordered more pills on Monday. I think he was a little stoned when he was over here earlier.

He was probably nervous about coming here so he took something. He does too much of that when stressed. I really hope this issue can be resolved before the damage to his system is too extensive. I hope it's not too late already.

I know he thinks he has the pills under control but he really doesn't. Not when he can go through a bottle of 90 m.r.'s in a week and a half or so. That's about the average.

Okay, I've got to stop thinking about it. My brother's GF is Hawaiian and she's a healer and they've both been praying overtime for me as of late, before the day I exposed to OWH.

They've been praying for H, too and I asked them to send some extra praying his way to help him get out of the fog and back into the real world...to get Mr. Gray out of Jonesy so Jonesy will be saved.

Well, I guess I'm going to try and go back to sleep for the third time.

Have a great night and with any luck...I won't be back until daylight here. Or maybe even after daylight!!

Hey Charlotte & L_C - thanks for the kind words!

Try not to worry about the pills for now... I suspect that your H is doing some serious thinking about all that's gone on in the past couple of days. Once he de-fogs, you can work on the pill thing...

Semper Fi,

RIF

It's funny - I believe that doctors say dreams are always in black & white.

Dreams, mine are in color. And Usually Ican't hear anything. The ones where I can hear something are so rare I remember them. Mostly I "hear" in my head when dreaming.

Charlotte, nice "fog" dream. It won't be long now.....!

Hi Bellevue!

Nice to see you this morning.

Do you ever taste things in your dreams? What about smell?

I sure hope your right and H's fog lifts soon. This a.m. he sent me an email asking if the pictures were all there and that I should text him or email him because he has to "dig up a lawyer for next week."

I wrote back thanking him and wished him a good day.

Charlotte, rarely I taste & smell things, so those times stick in my mind.

So your H is going to "dig up a lawyer"? Where, from the graveyard? ROFL

I hope he finds one before he gets there. Someone still breathing. [Well, maybe not. All the better for you.]

BigK, that just goes to show that doctors don't know everything! They oughta know better than to say "always", if that's what they say.

Or, maybe doctors just don't have any imagination or something. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />