Really? That's cool!

I would ask about it, but Anywhere, USA is going to be too close for comfort!

I'm talking to my stepdaughter AND my DIL in IM.

They are SO great!

DD wants to come to the next court hearing. I don't know if that's a good idea but if it is she is more than welcome. She wants to sit on my side.

I GOT A NEW CAR!!!!

yes if you didn't know I am EXCITED <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

I got a new 2008 nissan sentra with blue tooth stuff. I luff it.

Wow! That's great, SIHW!!!!!!!

What color is it?

(Besides "blue tooth" LOL!)

I want one! I use my bluetooth all the time anyway!

Charlotte,

I felt the same way too. I've been contemplating a move to Europe.

However, that being said Plan B is rough <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/frown.gif" alt="" />. It's hard to detach from someone you love especially when you can see that they are floundering and their life would be much more simple out of the A.

Here's the thing. You've shown incredible strengh thus far. Conitue to do so. If you want to move to Europe then do so but only if you are doing it for you.

Going to Europe may take you away from the posion of the A but the A will be a part of you.

You use as a source of strength and do things because now you are chosing to live for you rather than living for him.

You control your destiny.

Charlotte. Stop this. I hear so much pain and negativity in this post. I hope I'm wrong. You have no IDEA of what the future holds. How can you plan A (when you get the opportunity-- and you will) if you're in this mindset?

Right now you should be concentrating on YOU and not so much on him. I KNOW what you're feeling right now (the funk) because I've lived it. I went through it during the holidays too.

So let me ask you... what has Charlotte done for Charlotte today? Nothing like a good facial, pedicure, etc. to boost the old morale.

(((Charlotte)))

Oh it's a beautiful sapphire blue.......I love the MP3 option....

Play artist Micheal Bolton.....hahaha (i love that commercial) <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

no it's not a focus but I never knew Nissan had the same option till I checked.....and all the Nissan's I have had have ALWAYS been so reliable. It's a cheaper payment and WAY better on gas than my truck was. Merry x-mas to me....hehe....now santa has to go shopping for DS.... we got transorfers and pirates definatly on the list....what are you getting DGS.

Thanks princess meggy.

I'm trying. It's so hard.

Especially with him plan b-ing me in his own way

Just a thought. It's obvious that he's computer saavy. If you found your own name with Google linking you to MB, is it possible that he's done the same? Does he think like that?

Thanks 411,

I'm trying to hang in.

Gets harder every day.

Tryin' to stay busy.

Waiting for Mr. Gray

To go away.

JONESY!!!!!!!!

Save me!!!

Save us, you Fool!!

Charlotte,

Hang in there.

I know it hurts and I know you want your life back, but really think about planning out your days so that you are busy doing things that will make your life better with or without Jonesy

Thanks 411,

I guess I've just been down since I checked his blog last night before bed. Well, this morning before bed.

So it just weighed on me all day. I'm really upset now though.

I just need to have a cry and get it out I guess.

It's okay to cry and it's okay to be upset.

You're an inspiration for lots of people here.

It's impossible to keep yourself upbeat through all of this you're going to have these types of days.

I hate that you are feeling this way. You don't deserve it.
No one does.

The irony is that patience is the key here but that's the hardest thing to have in Plan B because you don't know what's going on.

That's why you've got to try to detach if possible to preserve your love bank.

Hi 411,

You're right. I do. And there's no end in sight.

No inventory was done.

No word on when he's coming to get his stuff.

I could scream, I swear!

Just come get it already if you are in such a tearing [censored] hurry to get rid of me!

I called Mr. Gray and left him a message.

I asked him if he was going to come and help me with his disaster so he can be shut of me, apparently like he wants to be.

I asked him to call me on Saturday to let me know.

Stupid move, probably...but it's DONE!

None of us are cyborgs Charlotte. You're human, so it's very understandable that you're going crazy. It's impossible to shut down emotion unless you are a psychopath. There have been so many moments over the last few days I've wanted to call her, but I keep thinking what will it do? Either she'll try to see if she can get me back or she'll say here's your check see ya. I jsut need to build up my resistance so I'm strong enough to deal with any outcome.


Sure the A is over but there's still massive amounts of fog and if she has borderline Personality Disorder like I suspect then she'll never be someone I could trust until she gets help.

Charlotte don't beat yourself up over it. Just let it go and try to write down how you feel. Pop in a movie if you can.

Try to channel all your energy into getting a good night of rest and plan some fun things to do tomorrow. If you don't haev anything planned then go some where like a mall and people watch.

Start getting angry. Jonesy is being sefish he's screwing up your life. So use that anger channel into something productive. Anytime you get sad just say F you Art Vandelet. See it seems so weird but at least your getting pissed at someone you don't know:) (You don't know Art Vandelet, do you? :P)

Sorry to come in late on a subject, but I just wanted to let you know you can still get to WH's blog with what you left. (I put about 4 words in quotation marks and got there) You might want to just edit the whole thing out.

TiredAndHurting

Sorry, I missed this post princess meggy.

I think Slag might have mentioned MB to him because I sent that message to OWH with the video link and saying there was help here if he needed it and to come on down.

She opened it. He got it three days later and he said that was the only email he had that had been opened.

I even hinted that he might be able to find my posts, but it wasn't a strong hint.

I think if Mr. Gray has been here and reading my posts he'd be hustling Slag down to the p.o. to get that package.

Hi SIHW!

Take me shopping, too!

I'm not sure what I'm getting DGS. There's so much cool stuff to get him!

I know it will be something besides clothing!

That's funny 411!

Art Vandelet! LOL!

I have been feeling creative lately so I decided to make a few special Christmas cards for some folks this year instead of store bought.

Actually, I it started because I wanted to make one for Mr. Gray since it might be the last one ever. And give it to him with the PBL.

And maybe a present. I was thinking about making a heart, a broken heart, out of Fimo or plaster and wrapping it up with a bottle of glue included.

I don't know if I'll do the heart, though. I will do the card, however.

And I've been writing poetry a lot more. Guess I'll have enough to publish a poetry book on infidelity soon!

Been updating my mp3 player a lot lately. I wasn't able to use it for a while because it was a bad trigger because of Mr. Gray and that STUPID iPod. Mine is a Sansa, thank goodness!

I had to go pick a couple up for my mom to send to my bro and his gal in SF last night. They only had one Sansa left so I got her a Phillips. Both 4 gigs. I'm jealous now! Mine is only 2.5!