Thank you, JJ!!

You're DY-NO-MITE!!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Knowing that you and others are with me in spirit really helps me. It helped me through the hearing, too!!

That was REALLY tough...in spite of the distraction!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

You don't mind if I call you JJ do ya'? I loved JJ Evans...that was one of my favorite shows growing up. And Florida's cooking ALWAYS made me hungry!!!

But then, I'm always thinking with my stomach...unless it betrays me and gets nervous!! Like on Saturday!! I know it will. I'm still going to have something good going in the kitchen, though.

Hi RIF!!

Thank you! I did actually get some rest. Had a dream about Jonesy.

Not a bad dream either, but I don't remember what was happening in it.

I woke up too early and went back to sleep. When I woke up again, he had sent an email

He said he'd eaten pizza and zonked out the other night. Tuesday. Then he let me know the time on Saturday. He said he's taking the tv but not the stand and will move the one in the radio room out here for me and put it on the stand.

And wow, he signed his name!

I haven't replied yet. I'm still thinking about a reply.

Hmmmmmm....AAAHHHH!! What's burning? <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

He IM'd me while I was in the other room!

Just to let me know about the email, though.

I was working on all of the "stuff" that couldn't be inventoried because of the disastrous way it is arranged. So I found one of our photo albums in there. I looked.

Fool that I am.

Pictures of us with the kids and my sis riding horses and horsing around.

Pics from our trip to N'Awlins running around in the French Quarter taking pics and going to the aquarium. Some with cute little captions from Jonesy.

Pics of our favorite Italian restaurant in Kenner, LA.

There were even some from our very first photo shoot.

Despair. I decided to take a break for a while.

Dammit, Jonesy!!!!!!!!!

Just hang in there Charlotte. I don't really know what else to say and I don't see any point in speculating about what it means.

The trip down memory lane with the photo's would be very upsetting.

I used to spend a lot of my time cooking and listening to Bocelli (and heavy metal, and rock, etc). Complicated, elaborated chit and it was like therapy for me. I also drank my share of wine while doing it, although I don't recomment THAT to anyone else, as it was tough to break that habit (and my husband doesn't like any drinking at home for the most part).

Just hang on. Try and find things you love that can be your therapy and what ever source of inspiration you can glean from them.

I wished I could have watched TV, as I think that may have helped me, but I just couldn't for some reason.

Oh and plants. I got all sorts of plants and cool pots, and spent a lot of time with them, potting repotting hanging...made quite the retreat for myself. Sounds stupid, I know. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/crazy.gif" alt="" />

Oh, and I worked out all the time and concentrated on my looks...to an embarassing degree. What can I say. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Hi Josie,

You're right. I don't know why I kept looking. I looked to begin with to see how many of the horse photos there were. I've been talking to DD a LOT lately and I just know she'll want copies. She was just a tiny thing then! She's so pretty and strong and smart and grown-up now! But she asked me for advice the other day! How cool!!!

I didn't even remember that all of the other photos were in there. Well, I don't like to torture myself, really!!

I've been listening to music a LOT lately and singing a lot, too. I just have to avoid what Mr. Gray was listening to with Slag.

I could hear it sometimes. With that stupid, childish, "Okay, I punched the button so the song will sync up together so we can listen!" Puh-lease! As if they were going to sync up!

As for plants? Hey-ho, let's go!! I never get enough of gardening so I do a lot inside during the winter. I guess I'll end up having a whole new crop of African Violets! I like to propagate them with the clone method. Takes a while for them to flower but it's fun!!

As for TV, I haven't been watching much. L&O Criminal Intent for sure. Gotta be careful about movies, though!

Except when 24 starts.....me and Mom are SO there!!!

Wine, eh? Gives me a headache. Vodka has been more my speed. This from a near-teetotaler! I've managed to stay away from it more often, though. I just don't have the desire for it much now. That's a good thing.

I'm sure I'll need a couple of shots before Mr. Gray gets here, though! Just to level me out! If it works! It might not if I'm too keyed up.

*gurgle gurgle* *Whassa matta Ossifa? No, o'coss not! I dron't dink!!*

May be a monkey wrench being thrown into B already and it hasn't even begun!!!!!!!!!!

HHHHHHHHHHEEEEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLPPPPPPPPPP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

call me at home, please!

Thanks, Melody!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/wink.gif" alt="" />

I had to call my Doberman because I was supposed to let him know when Mr. Gray would be here. I got an actual time of day out of Mr. Gray so I called my Doberman.

Well, now HE'S worried about the stupid radios! I swear, it's getting so that if I ever see another radio in my life it'll be too soon!

Funny thing is....I had been working on the dang things all day!!

What are we gonna do? What are we gonna do?

Some suggestions were made: Bonfire!

Nah.

Okay so now I have to sleep on it and see if I have any solutions. Well, I do, but they could affect Plan B, possibly. I talked to Mel about a solution that won't affect B, so I'll run it by my Doberman tomorrow.

Hang in there, Charlotte

This is the rough part. There's going to be lots of weird vibes in the next few days. It's going to be hard to figure what's what but jsut stay focused on your Plan A until you transfer into B.

Try to keep yourself calm even when you feel frantic.

Hi 411!!!!

Thank you!!

I'm sure trying!!!

Funny you should mention weird vibes. This a.m. I was talking to DD im IM and we had some psychic connection going on. We had so many of the same thoughts at the same time it was eerie! And way cool!!

And then I was really busting my tail today working on Mr. Gray's disaster only to find out how much fretting was going on over at my Doberman's about that stuff.

Mr. Gray/Jonesy and I had a great conversation going in IM. He even slipped in a joke. It's been forever since he's kidded around with me like that. We used to do that a lot. It was a lot of fun.

Sometimes I could just scream. I do that a lot in IM. Not with him, though. It looks funny, so there's always a lot of LMAO and that works to get the frustration out. Plus DIL and DD get a good laugh, too.

Yeah, I'm gonna be a nervous wreck!!! But he won't know it. I'm gonna push it all down into that tiny box and sit on the lid so I can lock down all of the fear.

Well, back to the trenches!!

I hope your doing okay!! Take care!

Charlotte

I have faith that you will do great and be your normal goddess self.

I can tell that Jonesy is on his way back, slowly but surely. If not, which is highly doubtful, then he's a fool.

Make him squirm with your goddessness. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Don't give up!

It sounds like you're doing your best to hold things together. You'll be tested a lot in the next few days, weeks, months etc regardless of the outcome. Just stick to your plan.

I'm doing better now that I've chosen to have her mail the check. NC starts tomorrow.

higher powers only know if it's NC for this lifetime.

Now Mr. Gray has posted new updates in his stupid blog. Buncha trash talkin' crap.

Whatever.

I'm trying not to let it get to me but it still p*sses me off somewhat.

I have a headache.

I was SO upset earlier. I know I shouldn't have been. I know that's what he wants. I know he thinks I'm looking. But I haven't been. Just the other day when I looked...and today.

Well, I just had a feeling about it, is all. So I looked.

He IM'ed me again today. On his own. Surprise again.

Anyway, I'm a little better but my heart is still beating really fast.

I sure hope I can hold it together tomorrow.

Charlotte, he's just trying to guilt you into giving him his stuff.

Part of the WS script, that's all!

You'll do fine tomorrow. Wow his wayward butt with a dazzling finale to your Plan A, and then hand him your Plan B letter as he heads out the door. Try not to slam the door on his butt, OK?

LOL!!

Thanks Lady Clueless!!

I am starting to get REALLY, REALLY nervous now!!

Understandable. Maybe you can do something to take your mind off tommorow. Like a movie or something. Hot baths usually relax me.

When you start getting butterflies tommorow, just try to picture all of us here sitting in the bleachers and cheering you on. I'll be the loud obnoxous one with the blow horn.

Just don't go into it expecting anything, and then you won't get dissapointed. That's what my H always tells me. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/rolleyes.gif" alt="" />

You'll be fine. I have faith in you. I know you're scared and you'll be courageous and work through it. One day, he'll look back and see what a hero you were. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />