I went to Plan B and have been in it for 3 years now. I DID talk to my ex (he came to my home) for about 20 minutes last month, but other than that, I've stayed dark. I guess it got to be a habit, and no use throwing pearls before swine.

I'm not going to be able to hang on that long, LOL!!!

I'm listening to "Tommy" right now.

Why do some things have to be SO appropriate????!!!!

Have you ever seen "Tommy?"

Rock opera by "The Who?" Or mostly Pete Townshend, really.

<img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" /> I think some of those could be considered antique's.....you could get some good money possibly....ahhh sega....I remember duck hunt. Oh and that dracula's castle game.....haha...and nothing beats frogger on the original atari.

Hey Charlotte, keep those emails and phone calls coming if something comes up! You know where to find me. As you know, I have had my hands full with Christmas vacation, company, etc. etc but I am still checking in here every other day or so. If you need me, you know where to find me!

These guys are taking good care of you! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

Sell them??!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/eek.gif" alt="" />

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Not on your life!! LOL!

Ah yes, Duck Hunt...always a good one. There was shooting gallery for Coleco that was really good, too. I used to kick butt on that thing.

Thanks Mel!

I will. I'm having a bit of a hard time today. In the first place I don't feel well and that's making me think bad thoughts.

I'll be back in to post a little later. I have to go over to my G'ma's for a while.

And speaking of bank account fraud, someone was partying down with my DEBIT CARD # last week and tried to clean out my VAST WEALTH!!! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/rolleyes.gif" alt="" /> Thankfully, the bank called on Saturday morning and said "wassup??" and put a stop to it! <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/mad.gif" alt="" />

Good thing they called!!

It's getting worse and worse with that, I swear!

So far the bank hasn't pulled that money out of the account. I'll give them a couple of extra days to make sure but after that I guess I'll assume that he did the conference call with them.

Which is a good thing. It doesn't benefit him in any way, though. The money that's in there is mine.

Not for long, though. I'm going to pull it out on Wednesday. Felt too bad to do anything today and the bank closed early.

Then there won't be any GRAY fraud with my money, either! LOL!

Okay.

I'm not feeling well at all today. I woke up with cramps so I stayed in bed a little longer.

I got up and still felt bad. Stomach is messed up. My hormones are jacking around with my emotions. I'm bloated and I feel shaky. Head hurts too.

This sucks.

So naturally I'm Negative Nellie. Well, I take that back. I'm trying to AVOID being Negative Nellie. I know what's causing my problem but I'm having trouble keeping on top of it anyway.

Mr. Gray. I'm thinking about him too much. I don't think I'll ever see Jonesy again. I'm trying to get my head around this so I can move on.

I shouldn't be thinking about him and when I do I try to change the channel. Not working. Well, it works for a short while, then it's back to thinking too much.

So I am here. I don't know or care what he is doing tonight. If we were together we'd be at home or I'd split time between my g'ma's and home so I would be there for the midnight thing.

For years I'd been trying to get him to go to a dance or something. He even bought a dress for me to go dancing in a few years ago. We just never went.

So I'm just blah. I'll feel better in a few days. I'm just down right now. And I won't even be able to toast the New Year tonight if I feel this way. NO alcohol! Toast with tea!

I'm also worried yet again about that dang package that finally came back to me the other day. I'll be taking mail to my Doberman this week and I'm taking that as well as a couple of letters I found in the file that are related to his DWI/Possession charge.

Oh, and his voter's registration card. Maybe he'll have a chance to vote in the primary election before his felony conviction.

But the package. It's not MY fault people don't pick up their packages but I will probably be blamed for it.

I feel bad about it, a little. How stupid is that? It's not MY responsibility!

So I'm having a dilemma about that and it's not helping me.

My Doberman has all the proof that I sent the package in plenty of time for it to be taken care of.

So it's not my fault. But I can't stop thinking about it!! And I doubt he'll say anything to her so there won't be any LB's on that end. At least not that SHE knows of.

I really hope I don't get blamed but I'm sure the alien will put me in the worst possible light. Hey! He wasn't even TALKING to me then!

What could I do?

And my Doberman approved it because it would be quicker. Well, it was supposed to be quicker, anyway.

I'm just going 'round and 'round here. I'm sorry.

I'll just take the dang thing over there and be done with it. I thought about not taking it there but I guess I kinda need to. I don't want it in my possession anyway.

I left it intact with her address on it and all of the marks of attempted delivery. And the "denied" stamp.

The letter I wrote is still in there.

So anyway, even being at home was kinda bothering me today. I packed up all the memories but they are still in the house in the spare room with 10,000 radios, antennas, microphones and other radio related stuff. Well, not 10,000 but it just seems that way.

Not a peep from the other side about the estate sale idea or the idea to sell a few rigs to help out DS and DIL.

The light at the end of the tunnel right now is my new house mate, I hope! I have to break her of her rap addiction and her feather pulling. I sure hope she gets to live with me!

It was so funny the other day...after she got on my hand and then on my shoulder for a while she was getting impatient and she bit the crap out of my hand. After I left my friend and drove back to my g'ma's, BOTH of my hands were bloody!

She hit a good vein in my hand. See? She LOVES me! LOL!

My aunt asked me if I leaned against the house and some of the old paint rubbed off. I'm like..."No, it's blood. Mine. I didn't kill anyone!!"

I guess I'll sign-off for now. I might be back to whine some more later so BRING PLENTY OF CHEESE!!!!

Happy New Year!

Okay.

I am feeling better today emotionally but physically I am still crapola.

I was talking to DIL and she said that Mr. Gray brought his adultery partner over to FIL's house for Christmas.

Surprised? Me? No. I suspected as much.

Then she tells me they are sharing an apartment.

Surprised? Me? No.

Since her parents own the house an disapprove of the affair it's no surprise at all.

That doesn't mean I am overjoyed about it but I am not surprised.

I have to make a delivery to my Doberman tomorrow. I am taking the package I was SO worried about to him so it can be forwarded to Gray.

Do I care, really? If he is mad? No. It wasn't my responsibility and if he forgot then it's his [censored].

I really find it hard to believe...that my husband has become such dogmeat.

Well, since I have learned so much here...it's not that it's hard to believe, just hard to swallow (?) I guess. I'd appreciate anyone's comments here.

Thank you.

It does hurt, though. Even knowing all I know thanks to all of you here.

Sure it hurts. I'm not made of stone.

I can only surmise that everything will follow the natural course of Plan D, which was filed for protection, only.

Okay. So anything that's left will fund a trip to Europe for me, I suppose.

That will work just fine.

I'll just tell my Doberman to do whatever he wants now. Forget about delaying. What's the point? Really?

I don't want to be hurt anymore and he can stop it so that will be just fine.

And when Mr. Gray goes to jail I guess I'll scramble around to pay bills but I'll live.

Charlotte, I am so sorry that you're hurting. Tomorrow by the light of day think about this. Even though they're shacking up this is really good news. Why? Because now she'll have to meet all of his EN and reality will set in.

Why tell your lawyer to go forward? Don't do that. Wait. Wait. Wait. As to going to FIL's house, what do you think people REALLY thought about that?

I'm telling you Charlotte... be still. Don't rush anything.

I know it hurts. I've lived it.

(((Charlotte)))

I was going to say something similar PM - glad you got here - Charlotte - read Mimi's threads from a few years ago - forced full time EN is a great thing to break up the affair. All of the disgusting things he does that you grew to tolerate because you really love him - she hasn't seen those yet because they've been in that fantasy. She probably snores - and whoa! wait til the make up comes off...

There are lots of recovery stories here - look up Leilana some time. She never posted what happened after her last exposure, but they are very much married, happily to this day, if you have any doubts. I think that last break down happened three years ago coming on four this August?? or is it only two? Anybody remember Leilana?

Thanks princess meggy!

I'll try. Of course I'm not happy about it although it isn't all bad because of the EN thing.

Plus the reason.

I don't know. I have to go there so I know I'll end up telling him about it.

I just don't know what to tell my Doberman anymore. The whole thing is just crap.

I don't want to waste his time. Or mine.

Thank you KaylaAndy.

I know you are right. And so is princess meggy.

I have to find a way to digest, I guess.

I knew she was going to tell me this but knowing she was going to tell me and actually hearing it are two different animals, I guess.

Here's a link to her last post that I can find - then click on her name and see all her posts. You'll see a woman worth studying... Leilana's last post

Thank you, KaylaAndy.

I'm gonna go read awhile now

Oh, Charlotte - that is very good news that they are living together. That will end the affair that much sooner. Sorry you are feeling down.

Well, that was a short link. Was it the right one? I didn't quite get anything out of that one.

Maybe it's just me. Probably, yeah.

Thanks believer.

I hope so.

I've been pretty good so far. Even feeling better today since it's been over 2 weeks since I gave him the PBL.

Now? I'm just "blah."