Holy mackeral! Has it really been that long already?

When we get all settled in at our new place down south, I am going to take some fun classes, too. As it is I spent all weekend crocheting. LOL Can you believe it?

I taught myself using a book. I so could have used a grandma. GB told me to go to the old folks home and borrow one. It was the hardest friggen directions I ever tried to follow. Just the abreviations were enough to send me through the roof. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

It's fun though and it gives me something to do while I sit and watch TV with GB. I have never been able to sit and watch TV.

And I think he might be a little deaf, because he just BLASTS it. He's about giving my cat a nervous breakdown. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

Thanks believer!

Ooh! I'd love to learn scuba diving! I've always wanted to go below the surface and explore. Well, add that to the list for later! Next up after dance lessons or during dance lessons will be my pilot's license!

Thank you, smartie!!!

I never thought it would be this way and it just keeps getting better and better!!!!

Yeah, I hear you about your WH....at this point I believe it would be all about the kids if I were to give him another chance. And I don't know if it would work.

But right now I'm just living...and living more than I have in years! It's great!!

Good to see ya' and take care!

Just had to add: I can just see us in the Killer Bee costumes....they MUST be just like the ones in vintage SNL with John Belushi, Gilda Radner and all of the other originators!!!

Oh, Josie, crocheting! I always had a problem with it no matter who showed me the "ropes!"

I can weave all kinds of things with beads, though. Go figure!

I have a big project I'm about to start on soon. I'm making a thank you gift for my Doberman for taking such good care of me. I figure I can finish it by the time we are all done with court and all. He likes ducks...scratch that....he LOVES ducks so I'm weaving a Wood Duck picture for him. It looks like the real McCoy....or shall I say the real decoy? LOL!

38 colors, Delica beads (they are very uniform in size, etc.), 5x7...I just have to figure out what I'm going to mount it on. I don't want to put it behind glass in a frame so I'm not sure on that yet.

If I finish it before everything is done I will probably end up giving it to him ahead of time, though!

The ladies in the office will receive amulet bags made with seed beads.

My second lesson was great! We are going to do 2 sessions on Saturdays so I don't have to drive as much. It's nearly 50 miles one way.

So I'm going to get in touch with Gray's XW because I haven't had time to call her with an update lately (last time we talked for 5 hours on the phone!!! LOL!) and see if she'd like to go to lunch or dinner that day.

And on Sunday I have visitors from a Doberman adoption agency coming to visit. I sent my application today and they responded immediately.

The rep is bringing Dobie Annabelle along with her for a visit.

So soon, my Lovelies, soon will be my OTHER Doberman! Of the canine variety this time!

LOL!!

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"The ladies in the office will receive amulet bags made with seed beads."

Hey, how about sending an amulet bag out to all of the goddesses? Do the amulets work? I mean, what do they DO?

Well, you can use them for a fashion accessory or enclose your favorite good luck charm or talisman. Someone who used to be my friend put her kids' first haircut in one. Just a few locks of hair, not all of it!! LOL!

I do have crystals that I can enclose, some use these for healing.

Well, I don't know what the Goddess count is up to now but it takes a while to weave them. The simple ones take a month or two while more elaborate ones take longer.

I suppose I could do some with suede remnants, those are fast...as long as I didn't accidentally send on to a Vegan!!

"Well, I don't know what the Goddess count is up to now but it takes a while to weave them."

Just kidding, LOL. And wondering what they were used for.

Before D-day, I'd bought a bunch of weird stuff at a garage sale. One was a chicken foot on a piece of leather. It turned out it was some kind of voodoo stuff. I got rid of it right after D-day!

LOL! Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah! A chicken foot!!!

Really though, it would be kinda cool to make a Goddess bracelet or necklace with a big "G" or even the word "goddess" as the charm.

For all of us here. It's something to think about! First things first, though. Duck!!!! LOL!!

Way cool! I used to do Dobe rescue. Let me know how the visit goes.

Okay, this might be long. Grab a cup o' joe and pull up a seat!

I guess I'd better start with last week. I logged into IM to talk to my DIL. For no apparent reason...but probably ESP, I ran the pointer over Mr. Gray's moniker in IM, which is my Doberman's Dinner. No, I haven't deleted him out of there, I can't block him well enough if I do.

Anyway I saw that he was online and also that he had a "headline," which he NEVER used to do before. It said "Axe Victim."

I don't know why he would think I would see because I NEVER pay attention to him. I do notice when he logs in and out sometimes. That's it. I don't look at him otherwise. Well, I did that night.

It had to be meant for my eyes only. Who else?

My DIL and I were LOAO about it. Then I told my mom. She said, "Maybe he got fired!"

Okay. Good point. But my Doberman has heard nothing up to now and neither have my DS & DIL.

He had the same headline the next night but not during the day. Then I decided to quit checking.

I told a couple of others about it. One of them being Gray's XW. Both said, maybe Slag gave him the axe. LOL! Gray's XW was more colorful when she said it, though. She said, "What? Sheba get tired of him already?" LOL!

So the weekend passed without incident. No UFO sightings. No close encounters. Phew! I was starting to get afraid he might show up and I still am, a little.

Well, today I was talking to my DD, sis and bro in IM. I saw when Gray logged out and logged back in a little while later. I think that's when he got to the pig sty. It was about the same amount of time as a long time ago when I was paying attention to him and he logged out and in again. I figure that it's travel time from work to sty.

I gave him until 6pm today (even though he has no grace period) but he still hasn't deposited the first support check for this month. It was due on the 1st. So at midnight he will be 3 days late I have been keeping my Doberman informed about the situation. I told him about the "headline" as well. So he'd have a head's up.

Now I have to call him so he can release the hounds.

Here's my dilemma: Now I feel bad for Gray. I think Mom might be right about him being homesick and I feel bad about that. I feel bad also because I know where he will end up if he doesn't straighten his life out.

I haven't cried...but if I go back into the living room and watch the rest of the Green Mile that I started watching when I had supper. I will cry. And not only because of John Coffey. Because of Gray. And also because that movie moved him as well as me when we saw it the first time.

That was back when he used to go to the movies to watch movies. LOL!

Anyway, if someone would be kind enough to offer a little input it would be greatly appreciated.

Charlotte - NO FEELING SORRY FOR MR. GRAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He can end the affair and get back with you anytime he wants to.

Axe victim sounds more like being fired to me, but who's speculating?

That's hard, Charlotte. I wonder if the intermediary might be able to relay to him that you'd be willing to talk if your conditions are met (NC with OW), and that the situation is not hopeless. (He may think it's already too far gone to even attempt a reconciliation, but maybe showing him the way might spur him along a little.)

Thanks believer.

I can't help it. Now I have been trying not to think about this for hours!!!

I can't shake the feeling that he wants me to contact him but I'm not going to of course.

I will contact my Doberman and that's that. Gray should know better. And there's just NO WAY he FORGOT. No way!

Thanks cathy.

It is hard.

Melody Lane is my intermediary so I don't see that happening, LOL!!!

I was even reluctant to post here because I was afraid he might be looking for me. I never told him about MB but I did send an email to OWH, which was intercepted and read by Slag. OWH still got it, though. It was the only mail in his box that had been read in weeks.

That was in November, I think. She may or may not have come here and looked. She may or may not have mentioned it to Gray. I have NO idea.

Meanwhile, I am trying NOT to think about what is up with him.

I just can't shake the feeling that he wants me to contact him. Which of course, I won't.

I call my Doberman, my Doberman calls Emperor Palpitine, Palpitine calls Gray. That's it.

And if he has to be dragged into court, well, so be it. I am not in control of the situation. But I still feel bad for him because I know what will happen to him for the rest of his life.

"But I still feel bad for him because I know what will happen to him for the rest of his life."

He could turn things around tomorrow if he chose.

My ex made choices that will controll the rest of his life too. I tried my best, but I wasn't in control.

You're right, believer.

What the hail's wrong with me!!

Doberman! Release the hounds!

Charlotte
Sometimes they have to hit rock bottom. Let him.

This is the main reason for going very very dark. It's best to not be aware of his daily problems. This protects you. You don't need that drama. You don't need to be sucked into his fantasy life.

Try not to think about him. Remember....YOU ARE FABULOUS!!!!

You're right, MicheleG!

Thank you!

I paid for it when I woke up this a.m., I tell ya'. My shoulder injury from when I saved Gray from choking on his own vomit because he was bombed on Crown Royal and Soma (and probably Xanax, since they were sharing meds) hurt this a.m. and I had a headache.

I have learned my lesson.

Meanwhile, back in Oz, I let my Doberman know that the alien hadn't made the deposit and told him to release the hounds!!!

Speak of the Devil! There he went! Logged of to go to the pig sty! LOL! Just now!

Anyway, I told my Doberman not to release the hounds immediately because I had talked to Gray's XW and she said he will wait until you start to do something and then deposit the money, thus resulting in a lot of wasted effort.

So I told my Doberman that we should wait a couple of days or so to see what he does. I am not hurting just yet as far as money goes but I did have to transfer from savings to cover bills.

My Doberman has other people that need him and I don't want him wasting his valuable time on mind games. So I'm going to tough it out. If Gray thinks I'll fold because of this he is SO wrong.

So we shall see what happens here. Should be interesting, as always.

In other news: Dancing is going really well. My teacher has been teaching me advanced moves because I am doing so well. Yay!

I also found out that my teacher is not promiscuous. I told him about the situation and was happy to learn that he is someone that is all for fidelity in a relationship. I was worried about this when I started dancing because I knew that a lot of rampant sex probably goes on with some...especially dancing so close with one another.

Well, as it turns out, my teacher left dance because he was so disgusted with the behavior! He had to come back, though, because he loves dance.

He even said if he ever gets married he knows he will have to give up dance. He wouldn't want his wife all stressed out because he has to dance with other women. He's so sweet!

I knew he was the right teacher for me when I found out what his name was when I signed up...it is linked to other circumstances I won't go into here because I'll end up writing a book.

So I thought that was GRAND!!! Yep!!

I'll post updates on this latest Gray snafu.

I have no idea if he knows about this place but I haven't given up any tacticals.

Have a great evening, All!!

And any Texans...go rock the vote if you haven't gone yet!!! You still have time!