I am very honored to have my own personal Jewish Mother to worry about me when I have a bad cold. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/grin.gif" alt="" />

My cold isn't worse because of my treatments last year. Everything is back to normal-most of the time. It's because my DD22 has been working at a daycare (she loves working with the little ones) and caught something from her kiddos. Of course, she didn't slow down until it was nearly pneumonia. Then, she decided to share it with me. Not on purpose-but that's just how it seems to go.

This week-end is the NJROTC drill team meet at my YS's high school. If I am not croaking by then, I will be helping with the concessions with the other parent boosters. It should be fun. My dad and mom will come up to watch and my OS is home from Wazzu so he'll be there as well.

That's about it. What are you up to this week-end?

Just got word, hubby is about to be serve with LSA papers. I'm so shaking.

I make the best matzah ball soup you will ever taste. I wish I lived closer so I could bring you my cold remedy.

Ah, those others kids are always good for the killing of sicknesses.

Be careful being around all those people. You can catch something just being out in public. Take care of yourself, special one.

This weekend is pretty much devoted to my apt, my children an helping them with the history project and senior project. You know those 3 section boards, each one has their due this coming week. I am really looking forward to just having them to myself and helping them. I think I might even throw in the baking Goddess and gardening goddess into the mix after the domestic goddess strikes. <img src="/ubbt/images/graemlins/smile.gif" alt="" />

I just realized today is 10 months since D-Day. I'm thinking I should have warned him this was coming, but then did I have any warning. NO.

I came home thinking my world was awesome and got blindsided. Maybe it's ok to surprise him?

This just hurts. Please please reinforce that I am doing the right thing?

The fact that it hurts, might ought to be all the proof you need to know that LSA and Plan B are the right thing to do.

I seem to remember you expressing quite clearly in your PBL that you love him and want him back.. I don't think there's any way to misconstrue this.

I don't understand.

I haven't given him the PBL yet. That is next, one he is served.

Hi Queenie,

You are doing what you need to do for you, remember.
I've got a little bit of a different take on this. To me he has to be expecting that this is coming, he just didn't know when. This will make it all too real for him. Remember the night that we had the mediator over to talk LSA. My FWW went over to the neighbors place and was taken back by the reality. This is not done dear, don't forget that part. This will let you heal, and put pressure on the A. My suggestion is to have your PBL ready to give to him the moment he comes to talk to you about the LSA. Have one of your L's business cards with you and tell him to have his L contact you’re L, and give him the PBL, give him a big kiss and hug then walk away. (See what Mimi's take in on this idea)

Hugs and prayers to you Queenie.

What make you think this TMTS? Just a week ago I saw him and said nothing. And one month ago I asked him what it would take for him to come home?

I am just shaking and crying inside. Now, for the letter. How do I give it to him and when? Should I just drop it off at work?

My DD called and evidently WH and OW are moving into the house in front of where he lives. He'll get a garage. He just doesn't stop the changes does he. I wonder if moving will make him happy now? I wonder if the job is making him happy?

I wonder when this pain that is cutting me up inside will go away and I will be at peace.

Here are the mass readings for the day

Jeremiah 20: 10 - 13

10 For I hear many whispering. Terror is on every side! "Denounce him! Let us denounce him!" say all my familiar friends, watching for my fall. "Perhaps he will be deceived, then we can overcome him, and take our revenge on him."
11 But the LORD is with me as a dread warrior; therefore my persecutors will stumble, they will not overcome me. They will be greatly shamed, for they will not succeed. Their eternal dishonor will never be forgotten.
12 O LORD of hosts, who triest the righteous, who seest the heart and the mind, let me see thy vengeance upon them, for to thee have I committed my cause.
13 Sing to the LORD; praise the LORD! For he has delivered the life of the needy from the hand of evildoers.

Psalms 18: 2 - 7

2 The LORD is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer, my God, my rock, in whom I take refuge, my shield, and the horn of my salvation, my stronghold.
3 I call upon the LORD, who is worthy to be praised, and I am saved from my enemies.
4 The cords of death encompassed me, the torrents of perdition assailed me;
5 the cords of Sheol entangled me, the snares of death confronted me.
6 In my distress I called upon the LORD; to my God I cried for help. From his temple he heard my voice, and my cry to him reached his ears.
7 Then the earth reeled and rocked; the foundations also of the mountains trembled and quaked, because he was angry.

How fitting..... Oh G-d..... I am trusting him, walking in FAITH of his plan for ME, and believing that you are RIGHT, to save my M, this is the ONLY way.....

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I hope this finds everyone doing ok. I sure missed you all so much.

WH was served with LSA on Friday the 14th. Didn't hear one word from him. I hand delivered PBL and told him I was setting him free. I hugged him tightly and walked away. For one split second he hugged me back.

Have not heard one word from him, but he didn't deposit his paycheck into my account for the first time since D-day. Imagine that. I didn't contact him, but I did call the lawyer who is sending him a letter tomorrow.

I did find out one thing that has set me free. He is buying cigarettes and beer for her. He HATES people who smoke. Hates it. So, I have hope.

So, as Plan B begins... what do I need to start doing or not doing?

Gosh I missed you all so much.

(((((Queenie))))))

Hey honey, Lala told me about you going into plan B. MB's timing couldn't have been worse huh??? Anyway, I have no advice, since my head has not been screwed on well as it is...hang in there and stay strong....

not2fun

I think that what happened with MB and the timing of the board going down was very interesting and G-ds way of making me rely on him during the first few days.

I actually have been doing ok. Had questions I needed answered, kept in contact with some people by email.

But interesting nonetheless.

G-d works in mysterious ways.

Amen to that Queenie....On the night of my confrontation, I still am amazed at the timing of it all. I mean, I did not know what I was going to stumble on, and it was not why I went there in the first place...just amazing really....

Glad to hear you are doing well...now if we can hear from Serenity, I will feel better. I worried about her the most while the boards were down....

There is quite a few people I am worried about. Do you know if Serenity emailed with anyone?

OMGoodness Not2! You're going to have me in tears. I actually thought about you all when the board was down. But I believe the timing was REALLY Gods timing!

Queenie! Good that you have gone no contact and you're letting your lawyer handle things. Did you do anything to celebrate? New outfit... anything special?

Serenity

PS No, didn't email with anyone as I have NO ones email ;-(

I was only in contact with Lala and snuggles, and no they didn't know her addy or anything. So I worried about her a lot. There were others I worried about too, but I had so much drama going on over here, that I didn't have time to worry about too much...

Anyway, been praying for you...keep your GODDESS chin up...

It's pretty amazing how much a part of each others lives we have become and how we miss and worry about others.

I have to go to my 2nd job tonight, but I will read up on your post when I get home.

Hey Queenie,

Glad to see you made it to the other side...

Mark

Hey there, Queenie!! I missed you!!

Hi Queenie (JT waving from up north)

Hope you didn't get too drenched in any rain squalls yesterday.

It rained so hard against the windows that it scared DD22's wimpy dog-Grr. He's the biggest of the three and was cowaring behind our legs.

I'll be back later-gotta run errands.

Hi Queenie,

I was worried about you. glad to hear it went reletively well.

Watch out for that Not lady, she's got a temper and a mean hook. LOL

As far as what you do now... Live Queenie Live! God has set your path, it's for you to take it.