Or put another way -

You have searched me, Lord,
and you know me.

2You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4Before a word is on my tongue
you, Lord, know it completely.

5You hem me in behind and before,
and you lay your hand upon me.

6Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, you are there.

9If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11If I say, “Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,”

12even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17How precious to me are your thoughts,[1] God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand—
when I awake, I am still with you.

19If only you, God, would slay the wicked!
Away from me, you who are bloodthirsty!

20They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

21Do I not hate those who hate you, Lord,
and abhor those who are in rebellion against you?

22I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23Search me, God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

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And my most favorite part is this:

13For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

Thank you Believer,

You know I am going to ask you for a little carpo tunnel moment. Do you think this affair is going to make it?

One day I'll understand what you all are trying to teach me. I just am not there yet. But I am working and praying for the willingess to just act as if.

I'm closer, before I wouldn't have even gone to a place where I could see I was worth it. Now I just have to ask G-d how to let it be inside of me.

{{{{{{{Believer}}}}}}}}

Queenie - There is no doubt. The affair will not last. You can count on it. You just need to hang in there and know that you are fearfully and wonderfully made.

Can you tell me how you know there is no doubt it can last.

I'm working me. I keep fighting it, but I keep plugging away.

I'm hanging in there. I just need a little hope. But then maybe I just need to TRUST and keep walking in FAITH.

Trust and walk in faith. I didn't trust enough, my ex was completely gone. But we could have recovered. It was just too hard for me to believe.

I think the first sign of recovery is when you KNOW that your life will be good, with or without them. You need to let go, and let God.

You are good woman. I'll give you that.

I'm not there totally, that my life will be good with or without him, but I am dang closer.

And I do believe that we could recover if he would just give me a chance.

I see a woman, strong in her faith. I see a woman whose kind, caring, forgiving and loving heart is making a way for a man who is not deserving of such munificence.
I see a woman who is taking the broken parts of herself and touching the hem of the Lords’ robe. Fully relying on Him, not herself.

The A will end, I believe it. Whether or not you have moved on when it does, is another issue.
Queenie, its an appropriate name. You are a queen. Your royal dignity shows in every post.

Peace Queenie.
{{{{hugs}}}}

LIL,

You are too kind. Lil, He is deserving. He is an addict who is sick. And I married him for life, in sickness and health and I just can't give up on him. Though it's tempting.

What I have become is because of G-d and not anything I did. He had enough FAITH in me to keep on walking even when I want to stop, and just don't.

I love the H Lil, I am a servant of G-d and I married a man that I just didn't appreciate and take care of like I could have. And I pray with all my heart G-d gives me one more chance to make it up to my H.

Loving your H and wanting to make it up.. I understand. Regret every day i didnt do my part.

I disagree, God has done much, but you had to be willing to be open to Him

I will agree with this one. I was willing to go to any length.

And still am to recover both me and my M.

Hi Queenie,
Just to let you know I'm keeping up with your thread....
I know this is tough but keep on standing...
I hope your kids are supporting you all the way..

Its 10pm here and I'm leaving work..wil pop in tomorrow ...
Walk by faith and not by sight....

Hi Hope,

Have a good day at work. I just got back from disappearing so YS can go be with his dad. Turns out WH didn't come to get him because he didn't think he could waste the gas.

My YS told me that. WOW.....

My son is hurt, I can see it in his eyes. So, I just asked him if I could do anything, he said no. I dropped him and his brother off at a volley ball tournament and am heading over to my sponsors house for a party.

I made taboule.

I gotta say, that just about floored me. WH can get the money to play lacrosse, but not come see his son. Wow...

He needs our prayers for sure.

You know when I see WH's treating their children like this all I can say is this is proof to me that satan has a hand in this .....in destroying families....I mean the kids are the innocent ones here....

I hate it that we,the moms have to pick up the pieces and put our kids hearts back together again.

It is a spiritual battle for sure....

I forget that its a spiritual battle and then I start feeling sorry for myself.

Thank you for the reminder of what I am involved in.

Cmon, Queenie..you are WAY past this...

You ALSO are knowledgeable about ADDICTIONS...you know the CRACK comes FIRST over anything else...

Stop it, Queenie...

LOL - you are RIGHT. I am.

But the reminders don't hurt.

I'm OLD.

And you're NOT OLD. I'm OLDER than you and I'm not OLD so that makes you YOUNG...

LOL - OUCH

Is your arm HURTING YET?