Thanks Cind,


Probably not...just made me look forward to a more colourful explanation!

Hi Queenie (and others),


Thanks Mark were putting words to what I also was thinking....as it's part of what a BS needs to do to NOT add to the pain already there...yet not lose HOPE!

This is true - very true - when dealing with waywards.

Hi Mark,

Intellectually I see what you are saying, I realize I am in that place where I would just like the chance to have what's happening and sadly probably would take him back before he hit rock bottom.

I see where being desparate, or wanting something so bad can be a place where you do allow yourself to be hurt again. I'm seeing this all from Bugs heart, which is NOT the place to be.

She is getting amazing advice and it's awesome for me to be able to just witness it and wish it could be over here with me. But I also get that seeing it from the heart, moving to fast, etc. is being out of G-ds will and that's something that I ABSOLUTELY have to be careful of, no matter how much I want it.

For me, that will be the real test of my commitment to my G-d. Having this opportunity and letting G-d take care of it instead of me fixing it, controlling it, manipulating it etc.

A SUCCESS....

I could feel myself feeling sorry for myself and starting to go down that sad, useless path.

So, I thought of you, and after procrastinating, I called two old friends to spend time with them, but they are out having fun together. So, instead of continuing down that path, I called someone else and we are going out shopping for the day. Don't have any money, but I can help her spend hers.

I'm changing... and it's good. And I am learning to take care of myself by not going down that path when I can stop it.

YES............

Hugs

Have fun. Its fun to just look and well cant help not finding fun in shopping for and with a friend!

Talk to you later

Queenine,

Hope you had a good time shopping. I wish I had lots of money because I think you would be the perfect person to help me spend it!! I know you have good taste in everything.


Girl, you have come so far it amazes me. Keep leading the way....

Thanks Pretty and Chai,

How are you girlies today?

I LOVE to help people spend their money. It's good for them. I had a blast with her. She is so sweet and I love being around her, she is caring, hurting inside and I can just offer an ear and love.

I bet you have awesome taste Chai. Actually we just went to Goodwill in Seattle. Its a huge place to shop. I found a couple of good books, the holy scriptures (Jewish style), a book for my grandchildren on Jewish prayers, a book by Max Lucado - When G-d whispers your name, a Just for Today book from NA, Awaken the Giant Within, Compulsive Overeaters Anonymous book. And a pair of shoes. I did pretty good for under 20.00.

I had three pairs of shoes, but I chose the books over the shoes.

The Redskins are about the kick off and I am texting the kid who bought my seats for this year. He's really enjoying himself which is awesome for me. I know he loves my skins as much as me.

How is everyone else doing?

Queenie,


I am soooo happy to hear you say this...and see the steps you are taking to NOT go down that road.

It was one of THE hardest lessons I ever learned...and although hard to resist, it's too high a price to pay for GODDESSES like us!

Truth be told though,



I haven't had the opportunity to test it or not. Probably G-d knows this. Ya think? :RollieEyes:

How are you ??? Thinking of you!

Hi Pretty,

I woke up late, met with a sponsee then came home and took a nap, the weather sucked all weekend, and went to my AA meeting.

I'm getting ready to go to sleep in a little while.

I have stopped going down the pitty road a few times this weekend so I feel really good about that. Progress, not perfection.

What about you? How are you doing?

I am glad you detoured a bit this weekend in the low path. If you can pull yourself out either by yourself or with friends its a good way to go

I am doing pretty good. On my only day off my boss calls me and starts a fight over the phone with me. I am just glad I do not see him till Wed or I would tell him where to go! I fill in for the next two days at another store.

I did talk to a higher level about the stress my boss has been putting on me and he couldnt believe what he heard. I told him I think I need to be moved to a different store and somethign closer to my house. He said he would look into it. So we shall see.

We are going to make Challa on Thursday together as a family! Unfortantly I probally wont be home to watch them make it but it will work out!

I have decided next weekend *I requested it off and no matter what will be off* I am going to not answer my phone if its work calling I am not going to answer any phone unless its family. I am so strung out. And it looks like I have to atleast work another 6 months or so before I can actually stay home. ICK.

How much is the scroll that we tuck inside the mezuzah cost? I need to find one for mine. When I rec'd it, it came with one but the kids have misplaced it before I could put the mezuzah up and I really want to put it up on my doorpost.

Sounds like you are learning how to set boundaries with your boss. A tough thing to do for sure.

Six months will fly by, especially if you are watching football. But remember it's one day at a time.

Challah, how cool. What is the recipe?

I'm grateful that I am getting better at switching the thoughts in my head.

I can email you the reciepe if you would like it. I have not used this one yet but you use honey, of coarse yeast, veg oil, eggs and flour. mix it up let rise for a bit and cook it.

I'd love to have it. mvlaxmom@yahoo.com

Thanks...

Ok, I was wrong, slight meltdown, but I am doing better.

I think I need to get to sleep and let the thoughts go with G-d. Talk to you tomorrow, ok?

I don't know. I know the real ones can be expensive, but let me see if I have one laying around the house that I can send you, ok?

Sounds good. I appriciate it. I hope you have a sleepful night and I will talk with you later.

Thank you.

Small meltdowns are normal. Its when you can pull yourself out and away from it will be a better feeling.

So true, not to mention you feel like you are starting to overcome that deep pain.