Hi Luna, Chai, thank you for checking up and supporting me. I am working hard at growing and changing.

Hey TMTS,

I miss you alot. ALOT. In fact I wish you were around more, but I understanding. You are right, there is a lot of fight in me. I get down, spiral to sadness, and want to quit, but somewhere inside G-d reaches me to keep moving for him.

I'm trying to stop the bad talk, but sometimes its just all I have in me.

G-d is patient with me and keeps working his love to help me see what he sees. Because I don't yet.

Come back soon, ya here?

Mimi,

Yep. Yom Kippur is ending tonight.

That's "the day of atonement." Fasting began at sundown last night and runs through after sunset tonight.

To see more about it look at this:Yom Kippur

Ten days from Rosh Hashanah (new year) till Yom Kippur known as the Days of Awe are reflection, repentance and atonement for sins of the past year.

God writes his "verdict" concerning each person in a book on Rosh Hashanah. That verdict is sealed after Yom Kippur. Yom Kippur is the person's last chance to make amends where they need to be made.

Mark

I guess all the other stuff I did before posting this really did take too long...


Queenie already answered before I got it posted...

Hey Mark,

Great minds... Yes...

You have done an amazing job with Catgirl. Thanks. She was struggling with her faith and you have the most soothing words.

Just print it out smaller....and put it in a nonobvious (to her) place.

Good idea Cinders, Thank you...

Ok, please forgive me for dropping and venting and yes Mimi I am ready for you.

I just got a phone call from YS, evidently WH is short on lacrosse players for a tournament next weekend and asked YS if he would like to play with him, he would pay for his entrance fee.

He told WS to ask for my permission. WTF!!!!!!!!!!!

Why would he do that, he hasn't shown one ounce of caring what I think since this started, why would he have YS involve me?

Last week he was around being the "good" birthday parent to the one he hasnt' contacted in over 9 months and now this.

Not to mention, crack ho will probably be there and he will finally be around her. UGH...

Why did he have to have YS ask me. And just invite him?

UGH....

Queenie, waywards are just nuts. Blame it his being intelligence impaired.

I think it's GREAT for your SON though.

You're not supposed to care WHY he asked that. You're not going to figure it out...

Like Cinders said, he's an IDIOT...

Woman! Are you putting words in my mouth? I didn't say that!

I might have meant it, but I didn't say it!

You are so right. And thank you for the reminder Cinders.

Ok Mimi, do you just have this alarm that goes off in your world saying Queenie's at it again, putting her mind where it should NOT be.
:RollieEyes:

You are right, it's absolutely wonderful for my son, although YS told me tonight he isn't allowed to play. What actually was nice to see was that my hurt didn't last but a few minutes, but there was some anger inside of me. And when I spoke to my sponsor about it, my anger came out again.

Not the fact that I reacted to the WH, but that I got angry. Anger is the one emotion I haven't allowed out and I think it's one of the last pieces to my healing. I have a RIGHT to be angry at WH for what he has done. And I have taken it all on my shoulders, taken his crap because I Plan A'd him, etc.

I'm not about to unleash that anger anyway but acknowledge it and ask G-d to help me walk through the next part of my healing journey. Because that's what its become for me. A journey to healing and just simply SURVIVING AN AFFAIR....

to you all, but to ME as well, because I am learning to LOVE ME.... and be GOOD to me....

Shabbat Shalom, Queenie.

Oh thank you Mark,

How's that sermon coming? I hope you have a wonderful rest day tomorrow and totally enjoy your family and time from work.

Be happy and take care of yourself.

Hi Cinders:

This is what you said:


In other words, IDIOT!!

And you said this, Queenie:


To that my reaction is >>>>>>>>

You can do it. I know you can. I have full heart you will find out how to love yourself.

And when you do it is a wonderful feeling to have inside you!!!

Hugs

Queenie:

Just wanted to drop in and say that a new member "RedskinFan" signed on today....

Washington 31, Rams 13.

I see 7-1!

LG

Whoa LG,

I must have had a sense for this posting. Thanks. I'll have to welcome them personally.

Will see. I believe, I know they can, but they still have to play the game.

Learning to love myself. Ain't so easy. I have no clue what that means.

I think it's just good for me to be kind to myself and somehow start my journey on food. But I caught a cold and my food is still a little nuts.

What does it mean to love yourself?

Easy....like you LOVE your CHILDREN...UNCONDITIONAL POSITIVE REGARD for STARTERS...

(((((Queenie)))))

Hey girl, I love you as well......

I've been thinking of you since YOUR team is playing MY team...though truth be known, I AM rooting for the 'Skins myself cuz I don't like Haslett and I don't want him to end up the coach next season,,,,but that is a WHOLE nother issue. Anyway, haven't been around lately since my puter is broken, but just wanted to say "hey"...and of course, to say I love ya too.....


not2fun

Easy, unconditional.... wow... this is NEW to me.

Hey NOT, how are you? Computer is broken? How's recovery?