Guess who is Pisces....

Strivn you are one of the most amazing people I know. Any MAN would be BLESSED to have you in their life. I would have to agree with many thoughts. Your picker is better and weeding out the yutzes....

It's amazing how sometimes we overlook our worth in spite of all the goodness around us. Ah well, just makes a realize there is more work to be done.

Hurray for Queen! See that's why we get along so well! HAHA

:very humble: Thank you!
(that's what I was taught in my program! LOL)

Did you guys see the update about my call from my lawyer? Interesting!

I was heading on to that now.... Hold on...

Well, today was a pretty good day!

OS and I went to his eye appt and it was suppose to be the last one. POWS did txt me asking if I stil wanted him to check OS out of school or if I would prefer that he not go.

I replied that I got it, thx for asking and would let him know the results.

So, the dr. office was backed up, so OS didn't get to finish all out the testing done required today so we have to go back on the 10th! I have to say that after all the kicking and screaming that I had to do with the school system, that OS's grades are coming up! The teacher emails me every day that OS has homework to do and OS knows this. Twice he's called me form the sitter's to get the work for one reason or another. I'm proud of him for stepping up to the plate and have rewarded him for that effort.

And he now has one teachers instead of three, so he's been able to keep up with his stuff better too! With all of the pushing that I've had to do in that area I'm really feeling better and think that OS's attitude has improved. He's owning his stuff and there has been an attitude change IMHO!

We also got to have some great conversation on the ride over and back; and instead of immediately picking up his brother, I chose to spent some QT time with him. So, we went to the uniform shop and got them some new uniforms and stopped to rent a few movies as a special treat.

Then I got some news tonight that I'm going to do my best to follow through with in regards to POWS, CS, taxes, etc. I'm not exactly prepared for the battle that I'm fixing to take on, but I'm doing it! I'm going to use the strength that I have found and take one step at a time with some pretty awesome help!

EPH, where are you man? Just wanting to touch base with you!

Hi all! I hope that you are all well today!

Earlier this morning, I got to hash out some of my feelings with my Aunt. Alot of my friends can't relate to that lonely feeling being that they are younder than me, married, etc.

But my Aunt was married to my uncle for 15 years and then he passed away. I was nearly in tears talking with her about the frustrates of the D, being lonely, etc.

That really felt good to have someone to relate too! After spending 15 years with someone to come home to every day and then that's not there, well, it's pretty depressing.

And some of my friends can't seem to understand it when I say that I don't need a man but it's a blessing to have one around! They don't seem to understand that because they ahve never been in my situation, still married, young, and never felt that ALONE feeling. I mean the kids are wonderful, but there's that companionship that I miss, that adult conversation, being able to talk, etc...friends and family came only provide so much support...there's only so much that they can do...

it was just really great to have someone to say "yea, I get you!"

but at the same time

Rin,

This a blast from the past used to be Stillhurting01. Hope you remember me.

I can so totally relate to the lonliness even when the kids are around.

Just wanted to do a drive by.

Still

Hey pretty lady! Great to see you dropping by, hope you plan to stick around for a little bit!

Yea, there are just some days that, I'm present, walking and talking but am just not into whatever it is that I'm doing!

On a separate note, I tlaked to a friend of mine who works for a lawyer today, briefly told her what was going on in my world with POWS and "the" lawyers...she knows that I'm not happy with mine...we're going to see how things go with this meeting on monday and I just may be seeing what I can do about changing...

One of the first things on my agenda is to get my CS filed with the state so that I have some type of recourse when POWS is not paying...however I have to do that I will...

I have felt that my hands have been tried in all of this, waiting and waiting...well, I am certainly stronger than I use to be and now that I ahve OS's issued pretty much dealt with...plan to start a new battle for the kids sake...

After a great massage today, I'm ready to get this party started...anyone want some punch?

Hey Rin!


I'm always up for a party! Count me in! I'll bring my own jug o' wine,,,,,maybe Eph will show up with the popcorn?

Seriously, don't be questioning your ability to pick the 'right' sort of man. While it's easy to believe we are the creatures of our past, we can't UN-LEARN what we have learned here and through the process of having dealt with infidelity. It just can't be undone.

Think of trusting more in yourself, and in God,,,and that the RIGHT relationship will happen at the RIGHT time. Perhaps it's not yet time. If you are gearing up for another battle with the POWS, it probably isn't a good time to be distracted with a new R. Ya know?

I'm so happy that things are turning around for OS!! You should really be proud of yourself for having fought the battles necessary. I can 'see' how proud you are of OS stepping up to the plate himself! Did you consider that he is merely following YOUR lead? He sees what you have done,,,,and knows a good role model when she comes along!!

Chin Up. Chest Out. You are doin just fine!

I should have posted a few hours ago when I woke up and couldn't go back to sleep but I didn't. Perhaps if I got everything off of my mind, I wouldn't have been laying there tossing and turning.

Bugs, I'm done with thinking my picker is broken. Everyone is right in the fact that I ahve no problems stepping over the dogs to get to a good one.
I am however still impatience in areas of my life and often have to remind myself that a rush has gotten me nowhere.

That Pisces person is still hangin around, acyaully called me and invited me to dinner Sat. Night. I surrendered myself to the fact Friday that I was done becasue it wasn't going the pace that I wanted. As soon as I did that, he calls. I did enjoy myself, he cooked, we watched a movie and I went home.

No matter how many times I tell myself that Rome was not built in a day or what I'm looking for is I'm not goingt o get in a day, I still am impatience becasue I'm not where I want to be.

Enough said about that, except I prayed for a Christain man to come along and I have been presented with one and have been treated with the upmost respect. THere was even a part in the evening where the Bible was taken out and some discussion was done. Regardless of where this goes, he will end up being a great friend who can help me fed my soul.

THE MAIN THING I HAVE TODAY IS THAT MEETING!

THere's a chance that I could end up firing my lawyer tomorrow if I don't like what he has to say. I spent most of the day today in prayer and meditation, praise and worship. The service at church I feel like I was being prepared for the last week and I got alot out of it. I typically don't give up anything for Lent, but after some discussion with my Pisces last nite and mentioned that I was thinking about it but had not come up with anything concluded today that I will sacifice my time to read my Bible.

That has been a struggle for me to pick it up, although I have wanted to, I find other thing that are more important, like being on the computer! So, today I read all of the Book of Eph, and noted Eph's favorite verse while I was reading. 5:25 I started there as a result of church today and then went to 2 Corinthians, and on to Galatians. Before going to bed, I did my very best to turn this meeting over to God, what's happening with Pisces, and a few things that have a strong hold on me in my life. More so this meeting, asking God to protect and watch over the kids and I's interest, to sent his angels to walk with me so that I can do the right thing for us!

To be strong enough to lay my foot down and stand up for up should the need arise.

POWS wanted me to watch the kids today so that he could go on a POker run and said that he would call Sat. night to let me know what his plans were. Well, he didn't, so I called him. I didn't have any problems taking the kids, as far as I was concerned this is just more evident that POWS puts other things ahead of his kids. Of course you have to spend money to get into these runs, and he's not paying CS, not to mention he would have given up his time with them. They would ahve seen that; however, after talking with him Sat. night, he chose not to go because of the weather and the wind chill.

OS asked me before going to bed, why I wouldn't watch them today so that Dad could go on the poker run. I explained the comversation that I had with POWS and said that was his choice not mine and that's why I called in the first place. I had actually tlaked to both the boys waiting for POWS to make up his mind but when it came down to it POWS lied to them and said I wouldn't watch them for whatever reason OS told me. OS then said that his dad was going to be mad at him for telling me what he said. I told OS he didn't ahve to worry about that becasue I wasn't going to say a word to him about it and that it just wasn't worth it. It wasn't what happened and there was no point in confronting his dad!

I don't know why it still amazes me that POWS can lie over the simpliest things and amazes is really not the right word to use. It was more like WOW, he's stuck on stupid, trying to make me out to be the bad guy but just a few weeks ago, he said something about the two of us and I told him that he didn't stand a chance. GOT TO LOVE PLAN B!!

I probably had the same reaction to OS's question about the situation as BUGS did recently...like UNBELIEVABLE, this is the man I was so in love with...I still stands that ppl should say I'm stupid about you!

Okay, well, I have to get some rest otherwise I'm not going to be any good for tomorrow. I have done by best to hand this over to God and I'm not really dealing with any anxiety about it becasue like always God's got my back all I have to do it pay attention!

I could certainly use your thoughts and prayers this morning!

I'm off to work in a minute, then to my lawyer's office about 10 this morning!

Rin,



Thinking of you this morning. Trust that all will be fine.

I don't have much time to share thoughts about your overnight post, but will try to touch base later!

Chin Up! Chest out!

today did not go well and I'm working on accepting it!

Rin,

I'm hoping that no 3 a.m. posts from you means that you were able to get some rest last night?!?

I haven't been sleeping well lately and seems the weight is just jumping on my body,,,so I can relate! I am starting exercise again to try to relieve both those issues.

Give us an update when you can.

Morning, I can't say that it's a good one becasue today I'm just mad as He))...I truely hope that the X rots in he)) for all of the lies and deceitful things that he had done...I'm hoping that his dad and BF is in that line with him.

First off, the X lost 15K in the 401K...I'm not mad about that, I get that with the stock market the way it is...

What I don't get is the lies about the guns that we purchased together...he's saying that several of those were given to him by the dad and BF and that he can get states saying this...and since I don't have receipts, can't get receipts due to the privacy laws and the guns not being in my name, I'm @ss out...in addition to that I have to had receipts for the tools also...these are the areas that's holding us down...

Due to the lost in the 401, if we accounted for rental reimbursement, I would end up oweing him, because this has been dragged out for so long...I have been in the house for 17.5 months and he was in the house 6.5 months...each of us is entitled to half of the note on the house....right along with half of whatever we have paid in bills...

Hence, I'm pretty screwed all the way around, and I'll be lucky if I get a few things back that he took...

In addition to this, the X tried to give me back my laptop. The one that he would not give me in Oct 07, the one that he looked up all of his porn on, the one that he burnt up recently...

My lawyer said that he was trying to give me back the laptop and I asked why would I want it now, it's broken...and he asked me how I knew this...I said becasue "I met him at Best buy awhile back and he was telling me that his dog chewed up the cord, so he went to find a replacement...he was in the store and tried the new one there, when he pulled it in front of the salesmen and smoke started coming out of it."

My lawyer laughed and said let me tell his lawyer that...When he reappeared, he said that there were tons of roaches, cockroaches, scum, and trash out there...in the whole process, my lawyer is going to try to get a few things back but feels that I should cut my loses and be grateful that I have made it out with my health and what I have...

After alot of talking to friends and family yesterday, I am the one who's making it out of this deal better than him...I have some really great equity in the house, my old car is paid for and as soon as we finish this I'm ready to sell it...I have the kids and they very well "SEE" who and what their dad stands for...

MOF, Sunday night OS asked me why I wouldn't keep them Sunday so that Dad could go on the poker run...I think I posted about this earlier...well, OS said that Dad said that I could have at least kept YS so that he could have brough OS on the back on the motorcycle with him. AGHRRRRR!

The lies and deceit is what had me SOOOOO upset yesterday...I cried and and really worked on accepting this...but I didn't get upset while I was in the office or on the way home, it was when I started looking for the recipts that the lawyer asked me to find is when I got upset...I have some but nothing in comparision to what we actually had...so i feel defeat by the X again...and today I'm just mad and hope that he rots in hell because that's the only peace of mind I ahve right now to say that justice will be services....

I could fight this with the sell of my motorcycle and the other dirty things that he did but in reality I know that I need to cut my loses and run, to be done with him...because I'm only going to get more of the same...

Also, I have been instructed at my request to file for CS at the DA's office, that way if the X is not paying he has no rights to hunting/fishing license, federal refunds, recreational licenses (wonder if this included a mototrcycle endorsement, HA)...I also don't ahve to worry about tracking him down and wondering if he's working or not...

Just more of the grieving process...I'm just angry!!!!!!!!!

I am firing my lawyer and will be meeting with my new one this Thursday!

The major issue is CS. The last thing that the new lawyer said is to NOT go through the state.

The new lawyer from the conversation that I had with him said that it was unbelieveable that this whole process has taken this long! Especailly the fact that it took six and a half months to get back into the house after I left, and then the whole fight for CS. Including the fact that he doesn't have a job yet in our market with his skills!

Good for you, Rin!


I really don't understand why child support seems so unimportant to everyone.

"oh, well, we'll get to it when we get to it. We'll figure that out later."


RESEARCH this!! Make sure they will be doing what you expect them to do.

It can save you some aggravation chasing down WxH if he doesn't pay - but it can also CAUSE aggravation when you get the run around and they are not fulfilling what they should be.

Your state might be different, just keep your eyes open.

Fox

Gosh Rin, there is not much I can say. This just stinks all around. I have had no problems with the Z and child support, nor support in paying the mortgage until property settlement is done.

I hear about boys like your ex and it boils my blood. Just pieces of poo, they are. They are not MEN.

This will pass, and will get settled. Don't give in on the CS.

Rin

Sorry, Rin.

Waywards suck. So sorry that you are having to continue dealing with yours.

Rin

I'm sorry I was in a hurry and meant to right NOT GO THROUGH THE STATE!

Thanks SL, I apprecaite your support all the same.

I have to admit that I'm really scared about this whole new process. I have felt that my lawyer had not done the kids and I judge from that first court hearing.

But I'm willing to walk through that fear...the new lawyer also asked why POWS was not paying alimony and why we didn't file adultery in the first place. So, we will probably be revisiting those issues also.

He asked if I was seeing anyone, where POWS was living etc, and said that if I was seeing someone that I should stop...I think that he will be revisiting ALL issues from the conversation that I had with him.