Just thought I'd take a quick visit to Goddessville and see how you are?

Hi Queenie, checking in to say hi and say hope all is well with you and your family.

Keeping busy is always a good thing for us LBS. take care.

My prayers are hard and fast for Chai.....

Hi everyone,

Yepper doo, for the most part I am behaving myself. Living life. It snowed here yesterday and it is so pretty. I went out shopping last night for 2 1/2 hours at a dollar store for items to the gift baskets that I am making for this week's big classified dinner that I am chairing. My GF and I decided on doing themes, so we have mexican, beauty, movie, candy, books, gardening, sun, etc.

We had so much fun. I think my favorite is going to be the mexican one where we got a blow up sombrero and am going to stuff it with many items.

I love doing this stuff so much.

It occured to me through things that have been said on here that I might be giving the impression that I am really just sitting at home pining for WH to come home. So, to squash that notion I think I should post more about what I do do in my real life so that you are assured that is NOT the case and I am living life to the fullest.

However, let it be clear, I want my M and I am willing to keep walking in FAITH and TRUST G-d that one day he will let me H come home. OK.

So tonight, I am off to my second job, and then tomorrow I am putting the baskets together, and then going to an AA meeting if there is time.

Thursday is the dinner and I have been working on this for a few months now. I have a count of 200 people.

Friday no services so I think I'll pop over to alanon and aa meeting and this weekend. Well, my YS is going to a lacrosse tournament and OS and I are going out to dinner with his GF family to celebrate her and my dinner. Oh, I have a wedding preliminary to do that day as well.

As for Sunday, maybe it will be nice and I can plant the beautiful flowers that I got.

Looking4, if you read this can you please email me at mvlaxmom@yahoo.com?

thanks.

No doubt in my mind that you are NOT pining at home for WH.
As always you are a Godess. Need some of it to rub off on me!!

Hope,

What's mine is yours.....

You are doing awesome, Hope... Don't underestimate yourself. It took me SO LONG to get to this place and I'm still working on it.

Shabbat Shalom, Queenie.

Queenie

You didnt tell me it was your birthday :twobyfour: I would have got you something when I saw you.
I just wanted to stop by and say how totally awesome it was to meet you, you are every bit as sweet in person as you are on here. I wish we had more time, but I am grateful and blessed for the time we did have.

A belated for you

Shabbat Shalom!

Mark

Shabbat Shalom!

Queenie

I've missed you so much everyone.....

Hi Queenie! (JT waving and enjoying a break in the rain/wind)

I've missed you and everyone too!

Hugs to all!!!!

Hi guys,

Well life certainly has been interesting. Work, well let's just say that no one is safe from budget cuts and those who thought they might be, were told they aren't. Scare tactics, maybe. What I know is that I can't worry about it. I'll just take it when it comes.

I made it through the ONE YEAR anniversary of Plan B. Not ONE WORD was spoken to WH since March 17, 08. Nothing short of a G-d given miracle for those who know me. LOL The day passed uneventful other than MB going down like last year. I did receive an email from WH on Tuesday.

Queenie
Question, the taxs for 07 and 08. What, when and where?
Thank you, WH

At first I wondered if this was a slight reaching out, but like last year I had to turn it over to G-d. I can tell you what I wanted to say, but I didn't. I just ignored him.
In fact, not only did I not find this email acceptable, but I found it to be arrogant, and rude.

And I went about my business of living my life away from a selfish man or at the very least someone who isn't ready to come home.

Last night in my boredom I did check out my children's facebook and low and behold WH has updated his facebook. This was surprising to say the least. But I know enough to not make anything out of it.

He put up pictures of himself playing lacrosse the last two years since he left, but then he put up pictures of OS from his senior night lacrosse game and the senior festivities. He took pictures of this, not just pictures of my son on the field, but of ME. He took pictures of OS, carrying the flowers and walking over to me at midfield and giving me a hug, then we walked together to give the coach a hug and he kept taking pictures. 15 or so in all. Then he put the picture of me and OS on as the cover. Other than the fact that you have to choose a picture for the cover, I'm not making much of it.

I'm testing the waters, I put up pictures of family life and him and me together. Whether he sees it or not, I don't know or don't care because I'm doing what I want to do.

So last night, I get a call from my OS around 3:30 am. Remember it wasn't too long ago that my DD called me drunk and wanting me to come and get her. He didn't. he evidently got drunk, got mad and went out and broke his hand or so he thought. He didn't want me to come and get him. So I had his GF, put ice on the top and the bottom of his hand and hold it up above his heart for the flow to reduce the inflammation.

Well, he probably didn't break it, but it is swollen, he is totally hung over and he went to play his lacrosse game. Geez, the men in my life.. His GF and I had a wonderful long talk about him and I realized that this experience was in a way something that he could draw upon and understand how people do insane things and you need to make amends for what you have done. He got so drunk he blacked out. I'm not explaining very well what I'm trying to say, but let's just say I have been in constant prayer for my family and the coming together and healing of us.

I know people think I'm stupid, crazy, deserve better or whatever. What I know is that I am the lighthouse in my family and I'll continue to until the fat lady sings... Remember she is still dressing.

Queenie -- No matter what anyone else says, you are the HEART of your family. Period. That's the role of us wives and mothers. And WH was suppose to be the HEAD of the family. He, like all WHs, dropped the ball.

So keep doing what you can to be both the heart and the head of your family. Your kids appreciate you and the sacrifices you make for them.

Queenie, love the analogy of being the lighthouse. You are the beacon in the troubled waters. You shine the true light that they will follow home. No one could ever fault you for that.

You know Holy, I'm not making sacrifices. I'm doing what I believe is G-ds will for me today.

Hope, the lighthouse is actually an analogy that Ark wrote about and I read and it just helped me for so long to maintain my sanity.

I strived to become a Proverbs 31 woman. Though I still have much to learn, I have worked very hard to become someone I am very proud of. I like Queenie. I have learned to love her in a way I didn't think possible. I take care of my person because I am a child of G-d. I'm no one special. But like every one of us are unique. I continue to learn about what I like and what is ok in my life and what isn't.

And I continue to be stewards of the children G-d entrusted with me and my husband. They certainly have their journeys, and it's hard to watch, but I can also keep my sense of humor about the situations and one day....

But today... I am sober, I am grateful and I am very blessed, because G-d allows it to be.

YOU my friend, are a wonderful, beautiful, and caring person. Your kids are very lucky to have you.

Remember, concentrate on you. No more looking at Facebook. Don't read anything into the cover picture because he is still in a fog. He's struggling right now. Back off and let God take care of it. You know that he will.....

What's up bump.

So what's up Queenie? Your thread dropped to the second page.

The quote and your thread dropping off has me wondering...

Queenie? You there?

Wow you can't make any mistakes around here.

LOL