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Wow you can't make any mistakes around here. Nope. We're watching you like a hawk.
BS - me 56
XWH - 57
12/25/06 - Dday - WH promised NC. Plan A in effect. Thought we were in recovery.
6-3-07 - Dday#2 Found out NC never took place and A never ended. Found MB NC promised again, but WH would not write NC letter.
9/07 - Dday #3. Still lying and sneaking around. Plan B implemented
WH wants nothing to do with me
Divorced as of 12/09 after 36 years
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Wow you can't make any mistakes around here. Nope. We're watching you like a hawk. *whispers* thats because they are all stalkers   *runs and hides*
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You silly girls. I meant the editing around here. LOL
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84
D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW
Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09
WH and OW broke up 1-09
Started over 7-09
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I meant the editing around here Yeah. Like it doesn't take me forever to post something as it is. Now I have to make sure I type everything just right before I hit submit... 'Cause I can't fix it any more... 
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Just wanted to say HI....I've been MIA due to problems with logging in...
I hear you on the editing too...
A loving heart is the beginning of all knowledge.
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Aside from a few family photos of life... I have been VERY GOOD.. VERY GODDESS... Doing the mommy thing and behaving myself. Hey thanks for the update. I'm glad you're OK!  back at cha
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“In a sense now, I am homeless. For the home, the place of refuge, solitude, love-where my husband lived-no longer exists.” Joyce Carolyn Oates, A Widow's Story
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Hiya, Shabbat Shalom and Happy Friday everyone, I am ok. I'm staying dark, but I will admit I'm getting info here and there. It doesn't change what I am doing, where I am heading or where I am going towards. It just is nice to see. I figure this latest thing is #2 of 100,000 towards maybe coming home. My DD's car was broken into and the window is broken. She doesn't have insurance, so she called her father and he is willing to help her this afternoon. I did ask for a few more information points, but in theory it really doesn't matter. He hasn't been a helping dad since this all happened. As Luna, why by the way I miss very much, always says... Not much impact in my life... information to have... now it's done and I keep moving. 
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D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW
Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09
WH and OW broke up 1-09
Started over 7-09
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Ooops....
Here Mimi.... I'll do it for you... Queenie
:twobyfour: :twobyfour: :twobyfour: Queenie
LOL
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84
D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW
Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09
WH and OW broke up 1-09
Started over 7-09
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I'm so bored at work..... I'm so glad it's Friday....
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84
D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW
Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09
WH and OW broke up 1-09
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I'm so bored at work..... I'm so glad it's Friday....
Widowed 11/10/12 after 35 years of marriage
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Ooops....
Here Mimi.... I'll do it for you... Queenie
:twobyfour: :twobyfour: :twobyfour: Queenie
LOL Oops, I meant to quote this one!!! LOL
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“In a sense now, I am homeless. For the home, the place of refuge, solitude, love-where my husband lived-no longer exists.” Joyce Carolyn Oates, A Widow's Story
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Don't know if you check out the "20-90 SOMETHING Friends** (The OT Fun Thread!)" thread on the Recovery section, Queenie, but I put up a video there that will un-bored you for 3:42.
Have a nice weekend. And keep moving...
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PM, I thought I would get it before I really got it. 
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84
D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW
Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09
WH and OW broke up 1-09
Started over 7-09
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Okie dokie, I'll check it out Looking4
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84
D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW
Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09
WH and OW broke up 1-09
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Shabbat Shalom, Queenie...
Mark
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Hi Queenie, stopping by to say Hi and see how you are doing?
See you like the new 2x4 icons also! take care and stay strong.
Me 55, XWH 53, M 22 years
D17, D30
alien replaces my husband "I'm not happy" -7/08
Discover OW-8/08 (his direct report and I work there also)
H moves out 10/1/08, confront Ow 10/28/08
Plan B 1/09
D final 12/09
Quote: "First thing you do is pray; when there is nothing else to do, continue to pray."
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Hi Hope,
Just got home from services. The torah portion this week, vayikra is on sacrifices as leaders. It also was my son's portion for his bar mitzvah almost three years ago, pre A I believe.
I LOVE the new 2 x 4 icon. I might just have to do it on principle alone.
Guess what I realized tonight. I like myself and I like being with myself, living alone and having fun with myself. I don't need anyone to make me happy because G-d leads me. Seems so simple, but gosh it was hard to figure out.
Have a good weekend Mark and Hope, be good to yourselves
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84
D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW
Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09
WH and OW broke up 1-09
Started over 7-09
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Shabbat Shalom, Queenie.
Thanks for chiming in on my latest ravings.
And I hope you have a wonderful weekend.
- M
Me - BW/BS Age: 56 Married 7 1/2 years Divorced Jan 2010
EA began '07 PA began Jan '08
Found out July 2008 Found MB September
Plan A 09/03/2008
I filed D 10/31/2008
Dark Plan B began 11/09/2008
Emerged from Plan B 11/15/2009
Court date (final) scheduled for 12/16/2009
Divorce Final January 2010
Plan B recommenced upon Divorce
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Well,it's been a long time since I was this sad or low. And I wasn't sure if I wanted to post about it or not. I'm not looking for anyone's sympathy etc. I just have kept this thread as part of my journey.
Silly me thinking that I was protecting my heart. Silly me thinking I was strong enough to hear my DD talk about her dad and not have it deeply affect or scare me.
So fortunately, Rin was on and she told me to focus on G-d and that's what I am going to do. But I need to post the latest because maybe one day someone's M will be restored and they would have read something I wrote to help them not give up hope or they see that it's just the same.
My DD car got broken into Thursday night. She contacted her dad because she needed his help and he came through for her. The first time in such a long time.
She text me tonight and told me what had happened and how he was so proud of her for the help she had given him and that he realizes what a mistake he made with respect to the children. He realizes what he lost and he wants to reconnect with all three of them. But nothing about me, just he wants to know what to do about the taxes.
When will my love bank be empty or negative so that what he does won't hurt me anymore. What does G-d want from me. I hate feeling the pain and sadness. The pain of losing someone you love so deeply and they don't even care. I get that I need to go dark again and protect myself from his hurtful ways. But somehow now that she is out of the picture.... I just want to be held and cry my heart out so it will stop hurting.
I'm going to a symposium called To Life! The Journey of Addiction & Recovery in our Jewish Community. It will occupy my day tomorrow instead of me hanging around the apt, feeling sorry for myself.
BS 52, FWH 53, Married 1-1-84
D-day 5-14-07, WH moved in with OW
Plan A 9 months, DARK Plan B 3-17-08 until 3-2-09
WH and OW broke up 1-09
Started over 7-09
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 Queenie, I am in awe of you for what you do.
Recovered marriage, recovering self, life gets better everyday 
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