Melody,
On it's face, what you are saying seems right; however, HE KNEW I had been
in the cell phone already..before I admitted it. Seriously - when I admitted it he was completely UNsurprised. That changes the truth of your observation as it applies to my situation. To be blunt: I suck at "snoop"...It was a rookie mistake to open the Inbox with new messages in it. That's how he knew I had been looking. That in itself was THE Love Buster. If he knew and I never came clean, what then? In some ways it's better this way isn't it?
Note: He is not informed about MB and has no knowledge about "snooping" or what MB says about "privacy" in marriage. Most people would view the snooping and the marital privacy just as he does if they haven't been educated like we have.
Just now, we had a "confrontation" on this...but I am happy to report that it was much different than others we've had in the past and recently...which were very one sided - him basically loud talking me and mentally / emotionally strong arming me into backing down from my POV.
This time I said my side of things without being afraid of his angry reaction. And here it is:
Yes I lied about how I obtained the message. I said that I got it from the web site when I really got it from reading your text messages. I lied because I was afraid of your angry reaction to me doing that. BUT THERE ARE TWO WRONG PEOPLE IN THIS ROOM. If you showed anyone that text message exchange - your mom, your dad, your brother, or a complete stranger - they would all tell you the same thing: YOU SHOULD NOT HAVE AN EXCHANGE LIKE THAT WITH SOMEONE WHO IS NOT YOUR WIFE. You are not going to make me think I am nuts by telling me there's nothing wrong with that text message. THE TEXT MESSAGE EXCHANGE WAS WRONG.
I was prepared for him to threaten to divorce me again and I didn't care. I was SO ready to say this (practiced it)
"I don't do divorce, I do marriage. If you want to be the idiot who goes down to the courthouse and tries to file for a divorce because of a damned text message, then be my guest - but I WILL NOT BE GETTING A DIVORCE."
But guess what?
I didn't have to say that. He looked at me in a surprised way, then he said that I should have just asked him what was up. And I said I should have asked directly but I was afraid of his reaction at me looking into the messages. He reminded me that we spoke before about being O & H. I said yes - I
have been doing that; however,
this was a chanllenging one for me. I am going to make mistakes just like you." He then started in with the "You shouldn't have been looking in my phone...stay outta my phone" crap. He also tried to accuse me of lying about why I finally decided to find out about the text message exchange. (I told him I was pushed to do it because of a discussion I had today with a "friend." (Well - it
was the discussion here amongst my MB friends which compelled me to ask. I just couldn't stand it any more.) I let him know that the compulsion to ask due to a discussion today was very real. After all, I have known about the exchange for a few days and I said nothing.
I also said
"But either way you should NOT have had that text exchange with her. I will no longer be afraid of your angry reactions. You can be as mad as you like for as long as you like."
Then we were looking at each other for a few weird and silent seconds. I said "This is me being honest." and he said "This is the new you." (Referring to my progress with Individual Counseling.)
I asked him how long he thought he would be mad and he said "For as long as I need to be." I smiled & asked him if he would let me know when he was no longer mad. He said maybe maybe not & then he asked me to leave the room.
Now he's playing with our son.