Yup, baby is still breech! I had my ultrasound and he is so cute. I guess I just wait until Monday for my dr to see the u/s results and tell me what to do next.

No contractions yet. This could be days away......

Spend as much time as you can relaxing face down with your butt elevated. Sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesn't, but it's worth a try. Baby will have to turn if he or she wants to continue with the heads up sensation he or she likes so well.

Several of mine were very late turners.

WH went out of town today for a funeral and he took my car, leaving me his truck. It was so full of garbage and empty bottles that I decided to clean it for him - and in the meantime found a bunch of notes and cards from OW, trash about them being "soul mates" and how happy she was with him, and how she loved him, etc etc. I was ABSOLUTELY sickened and so angry.

Shredded them. Immediately. Also took my rage out on an unlabelled cd I suspected she made for him (put it in to take a quick listen and it's all country love songs, no way would that be his). Snapping THAT was satisfying. Considering setting burning the shreds of the love notes too, just to finalize the destruction.

I texted WH and told him I had found and shredded them, and that I wasn't sorry (I know, AO.....I was just shaking after seeing them). He didn't answer but when I talked to him later he said it pissed him off, but he was trying not to think about it, and he supposed it was better that it was done and he didn't consider it a setback in his working on the marriage or anything. So that was good, sort of. I guess I can't expect that he would THANK me for that, not yet.

But I still feel like smashing things. I swear to God, sometimes it's SO HARD to stop myself from emailing her and calling her a POS wh*re and little b#tch slut, and every other name I could think of under the sun. I hate the fact that she was ever in my life and if I could turn back the clock to every encounter I had with her (there were two, for x'mas parties) she would have left those parties humiliated and sobbing.

Okay. Rant over.

There. Burned the scraps, and made sure every last piece was turned to ashes. Feel better, a little bit.....

NP, Nice therapy huh?....It might have been an LB, but you know what, if it were me, I would be so glad all that crap is gone now...no worrying about him having to get rid of it, Its all gone.

NP, good for you!!!

I wish I had done that when I first found that kind of stuff. But I didn't want to do AO, I didn't want to upset WH, and I wanted WH to think that I wasn't snooping.
But I think it would have been so therapeutic to burn and shred the things I had found.

Good for you! You are the owner of that stuff - this is YOUR R. I would have sent them to OWH.

good for you for burning - if I had found anything I probably would have done the same...

thinking of you in the last few days or so of your pregnancy! Make sure to keep us all updated!!!!

{{{{{{{NP!!!}}}}}}}}

Funnel your normal and righteous anger on here, no matter how much WH deserves it. What a hard thing to go through, and you didn't even strangle him - great job!

Now do something nice for you, and refuse to engage even if he gets angry later.

Did you take a Louisville Slugger to both tail lights and slash a hole in all 4 tires?

Gosh, girl, he sure has cojones! He's lucky that you haven't torched it or sold it. Leaving you to drive around in his tramp truck....yyyuuuccckkk...

There's just something about him that makes me uncomfortable. He's very passive aggressive....taking your car and leaving you his tramp truck to drive, filled with it's skank ho filth.

I mean you could have baby at any time. He's an insensitive jerk.

You're a brave, strong woman to put up with his antics.

Insensitive jerk, yes, though no surprise. He's still a wayward, just with hopefully a little light peeking through.

IMO, he actually wanted NP to find everything, and that was his little cowardly way of making sure that happened. Then he got to get rid of the stuff without actually having to step up and do away with it himself.

This is a good sign - he's very weak and not charting his own course, but willing/hoping to let NP chart one for him. It's also a bad sign, short-term, since he's going to be prone to relapse (like almost guaranteed) until he's strong enough to reject the OW on his own, rather than through P/A maneuvers with NP.

Ultimately, this story has a great likelihood of a happily ever after, though I forecast some more bumps on the way. I hope I'm wrong; I'd just much rather see you brace yourself for a hard time for the next little while and it not materialize, than to see you floating along blithely right up until you smack into the pole.

Has he written the NC letter for you to send yet? If not, how I wish I could be a fly on the wall when he talks to Steve tomorrow...

Nope, no NC letter yet. I asked him last night if he was planning on sending one, and he said yes, but he hasn't made any moves and I'm not pushing it, leaving that to Steve. We talk to Steve tomorrow - I'd love to be able to listen in on the convo too!

I also told him last night the things about his affair that keep me up at night - I mean, the whole THING is awful and horrible, but there were specifically a few points that make me absolutely sick - a) that he not only slept with her, I mean, a ONS would be easier to get over, but that he let it get to the point where he felt like he was cheating on HER to sleep with me, b) that he took vows and promised to love me forever, and then told some other woman she was his soul mate and he felt that so strongly that they felt even death couldn't part them, and c) that she had the pregnancy scare, WHILE HIS OWN WIFE was pregnant. That last one really makes me want to when I think of it.

I expected him to get defensive and angry, but he thanked me for telling him those things, and said telling him that and getting it off my chest would help us move forward.

I thought telling him WOULD make me feel better, but it doesn't help any of the hurt and pain.

On another note, no baby yet.....!

What are you doing here, young lady? Get thee to a hospital and deliver yourself a baby!

I am sorry, NP...I know it hurts...I wish there were something I could do for you....You are in my prayers, Hang in there, okay?

Don't forget your laptop...

Wait, wait, wait. I thought we were going w/ Twitter here. I mean, isn't that what ALL of the celebs are using these days?

Thanks Mrs Vanilla and still!

As for the baby, just had a conversation with the dr and they can either try to turn the baby or I can schedule a C-section. Going to book an appointment to turn the kiddo and if I change my mind - well, the baby will be cut out next week. Gosh - now that it's here I'm a little frightened and nervous lol! I think it's the whole breech thing - if it was regular delivery I'd be fine.

Thanks for the prayers - they are never wasted.

lol what if I wanted to pull a Miley Cyrus and swear off Twitter?

NP, I am praying for you and lil bean!

Hrm. I just realized that little smiley icon I used above is actually some frilly smiley washing dishes. Whoops.

Just pretend it's still a baby doing something cute or whatever, right?