This might be an odd thought, and perhaps it lies within MY main issue, however, I have had an ever increasing 'urge' to just LOVE someone. I have not said "I Love You" to anyone other than my children and my parents for over 2 months now, and it is the oddest feeling I have been having over the last couple weeks.
My main thread is here
Via Bank Notice but this is not my main issue. I am at peace with my divorce, in all actuality, it has been a relief in alot of ways, because there was little love and alot of problems, with my marriage of 3 years.
However, remaining within that marriage allowed me to have someone to FOCUS my LOVE, ABILITIES, ROMANCE, etc upon. Even if they were not received in a usual manner. I still had a person whom I could 'be me' with.
I find now, that I don't have that person, I feel a significant part of who I AM is diminished. I have always been a family man... my primary interests being the people I love. Now, I have my boys... no doubt, but the love and interaction I have for them is completely different than the love and interaction I wish from a Significant Other. Friends just aren't the same...
I know I am in a dangerous spot, because I am ripe for a rebound, which I am congnizant of and worried about as well. I am not dating, and will not do so until after the divorce is final regardless. And THIS is not even the reason I am writing this thread...
It is just to ask... Do you ever feel the 'need' within yourself, to say "I Love You" to someone real? To really love someone?
No. I don't feel 'whole' without someone to love. Is that a failing? Most would say it is I suspect. But I am not so sure. Perhaps it is the failing in that it could lead me down a path which is unhealthy or make me blind to the world, as it did in my last relationship/marriage. So perhaps, yes... that is where it is a failing.
I am just philosophizing at the moment. Trying to find a direction of thought which addresses my feelings at the current moment. Just thought I would ask if any of YOU had anything similar or any thoughts about it in general.