...diverted into a grievance stirring.

And he saw that in coming to confront him for his deceptions and continuing betrayal, it was another manifestation of that love.

Just for the record, it is not too hard to compete with an unrepentant OP. You just have to be patient till the WS 'get it', and of course a few never do.

One more little bit of distance gained.

You can have your own dignity intact, and know you tried everything you could, but the bottom line is an A cannot be tolerated forever. You will lose yourself completely if you try.

The OP will never understand that there is a world of difference between supposed manipulations from the BS, and the BS enforcing natural consequences upon the WS.

But learning is a process we all go through in our own ways, and none of us arrived on the A scene knowing everything.

There won't be any one thing the BS can do to end the A, except just keep chipping away little by little, doing everything to make sure the A is not a comfortable place to be.

It must be nice to have blocked out so much.

He was walking out in the woods. Walking and walking. He came to a river and began to walk along the bank. Water, flowing rushing water. "Hmmmm," he thought, "I need to go pee, yes I do, and there is the river. How convenient."

The air of unreality is just, well, unreal.

Trust me, you are better company to yourself than any WS can ever be to you, so on the chance that you are alone today, thank God that you are out of the chaos for a little while and enjoy the peace.

"I forgive you."

"Daddy, what's adultery?"

I'm not over this, not even close, but have gotten fairly skillful at redirecting my thoughts into positive channels and dwelling more in the present.

I would have just turned it off and done something else.

Justice if sin is cherished, and mercy if it is forgiven and forsaken.

So it is not all bad, and not all good, and frequently both at the same time.

I have no trouble talking to him about problem stuff, or discussing just about anything under the sun, except for my pain.

I cannot stay this way, and I recognize that, but I also believe that I will get better, given more time.

Well, darling, I'm glad you're wanting to be as patient as Neak is, and not as patient as I am...which would be NOT PATIENT AT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

tl