Please bare with me cause I have never wrote on anything like this. My friend told me about this site, and I hope that you all will help me cause I am LOST!:(
My story is not the typical story either,and even I can't believe this is MY LIFE.
Me and my husband have been married for 16 years. During this time he has had 2 affairs and I was completely faithful to him our whole marriage. Two years ago he had affair with my very best friend, and part of me died that day, and my love changed.
I still love my husband, and we have children so I told him I would try this one last time.
I did so, and we got better, but never have overcome the affair he had by any means.
This is where my life took a huge turn I never saw coming.
Me and my husband are HUGE basketball fans, and attend many games and such.
By some WILD chance of luck, and a connection, I got to met with one of my favorite NBA players.
This was no secret and everyone I knew thought it was awesome! I took pictures that day, he met my family.. I was head over hills happy.
That night I came home and sent him the picture on the internet NEVER thinking I would hear back.. I was wrong.
He wrote me that night and told me how awesome I was. I was still in shock that he was actually talking to me.
I thought that would be it, and actually told my husband about it. He said something like, "I doubt that is even him, He meets how many people a day?"
Next day he had wrote me again and said something that I had said when we met so I was sure it was him..and we have talked everyday since that FB message in November.
I talked to him for several months online,but never anything more because I was married and MUCH older than he.
We both agreed we were good friends. We kept it friendly ONLY nothing sexual other than him saying things like I am so beautiful.. He gives me free tickets to all his home games in which I go with a friend or my husband
I have to always make up reasons how I got these tickets cause I could never tell anyone other than 2 close friends.
As months went by I lived for our messages.. till one day he called me and I talked to him all day long.
That week we met up and it became sexual.That was In the beginning of February.
I am in SUCH A MESS NOW! I do not love him, but I AM OBSESSED with him. I am star struck more that I can say,and it makes me SICK! He has feelings for me, and I know they are true. He is not your typical "professional" athlete that sleeps around. I am sure of this, and know this is a HUGE deal for him also.
I was slapped into reality when I went to his game this week and a woman came up to me while I was sitting WITH MY HUSBAND and said" Do you remember me? Your *******'s girlfriend, right? I was your waitress at ********" The truth showing itself. I just laughed and said NO not me, and my husband was like wow, you wish as a Joke.:( It really really killed me inside.
It SCARED ME SO BAD I CANT THINK NOW!!!!!!
I Need to stop this NOW! I can not see how my husband will EVER be able to get over this. How can he EVER compare to a man who is 12 years younger and a well known on top of that ??
I feel like I am losing my mind, and the guilt is eating me alive!
please tell me what I can do? I am so lost.. I really am. I told the Other man what happened, and this getting out could really do damage to both of us!
I have not talked to other man since last night, and he is writing me non stop. He is making me feel bad by saying things like he has a game coming up and I am screwing with his life by ignoring him.
..he needs me.. you get it.
I want to go back to my OLD life, what steps do I take? Where do I start?
thank you so much, I know this is a huge mess, and I am so sorry.
Heather