A lot of valid points. You are right, a lot of things have been withheld because I don't know how to keep it anonymous. I won't go on some radio broadcast - and I'm not really looking for anyone to pat me on the back or anything.
I realize I haven't put my best effort into things - and that is my fault, no one elses. I have to take responsibility for the times that I got angry and did not do things that would harbor good feelings or attitudes to help my cause.
Biker,
I suspect what you really want is someone to convince you of something. I suspect that it is that you should stay and work on your marriage. I'll tell you why I think this (and the idea is really my W, with my own thoughts furthering it).
Not sure what type of man you are, but I suspect you consider yourself fiercely loyal. To a fault. I suspect you fit into that category. Problem is (and this is more related to human nature than anything) is that there seems to be a lot of pride tied to all this. Am I right?
You want a good marriage, but are too proud to call the radio show. You want help, but won't come out and ask for it, want encouragement, but not a pat on the back.
Recovery... real recovery... Takes swallowing our pride, whether we are the BS or WS. Not that good pride, but the bad pride that refuses to change or ask for help. The one that keeps us from moving forward and receiving encouragement when we need it.
And here's another thing... We WANT to help. But we can't do it unless you are willing to let us help you.
I think you can recover, do you? Do you want to?
Give MB a real shot. Not a half-a-ed one. Whadda you say?
CV
