Understatement, lol. Yeah why are we surprised?

I remember seeing the TV commercials for that book when I was a kid; it marketed as some kind of self-help thing.

I've never read it, though.


Been a while, CP. I hope you are continuing to build strength in your faith, sir.

/tj

Oh, you don't know about Dianetics or the church of Scientology?

Ron Hubbard said he could create a religion, from a book. It is now the church of Scientology.

Its premise is that people hurt you, and it stays inside you, until you talk it out, and that cures you.

I read the book, and it is another blind alley, for people who just can't get it, that people are blind, especially those who won't see.

Lol, people are not good. Lol yeah I said it. But they can be enlightened, and inspired, from something outside of themselves.

Gee how many times do we gotta learn that? Seems like every day.

I Thank God for him reaching ME! I am truly blessed.

Thanks everyone.


Well, I need to sort the divorce, finish my maths qualification, restart my career path, redecorate, do up the garden, rent out my house and then get over my cripping fear of trying this and failing. Everything I write looks like garbage. But it won't forever. I do believe that.

Indie, I'm sure that nothing you write is garbage. You're probably just like me, your own worst critic.

I doubt this. Do you know who Stephen King is? He's a novelist over here, but has sold books and movies worldwide. He wrote his first novel and thought so little of it that he threw it in the trash. His wife dug it out and submitted it for him. The name of the novel was "Carrie" - and it was history after that.

Okay, I never knew that. WOW.

I know (huge steven king fan). Its very common. Margaret Mitchell begged her publishers for the Gone with the Wind copy back because she was so ashamed of it. I think its part of being a good writer and working on your craft.

This is the kind of spouse I need!

Stephanie Meyer never intended for anyone else to read Twilight. What a shame that would have been eh?

You're doing so great Indie.

It's funny. I used to be a bot jealous of the BSs who got to experience MR, and now, I'm a little jealous over the BSs who get PR faster than me. I know it's not a race, and we all need to take our own time. I'm HAPPY for you.

Keep it up, chica.

Indie:
I started a screenplay several years ago. It's crap, too. Who knows if I'll finish it. But the writing of it and the thinking of it has led to so many other things.

You never know WHAT your creative efforts will result in, and you never know WHERE they will take you.

Go for it!

SP

Arghhhh. My Plan B refuses to twinkle and sparkle in the impressive way I want it to sometimes.

I have been turned down by every college I applied to train as a teacher with. One didn't even bother replying. The one I interviewed for said I showed 'impressive oral and written communication skills' but that I needed to improve my knowledge regarding 'teaching and learning' and that I needed to improve the way I spoke about my teaching experience in schools.

I dont get it. I said SO MUCH about my time in schools, with detailed examples and everything. I have a top, first class English degree and seven years experience as journalist and I still dont make the cut simply to STUDY to become an English teacher? It sounds like they want me to know everything about the educational system before I even begin!

So do I apply next year? What do I do in the mean time?

I hate how competitive this recession has made every job post and college place.

Maybe it is one of Mortarman's walls. Imagine how competitive it would be to actually get a job if college places are this cut throat.

I hate my job though, and I am seeing nothing else advertised right now. It may be time to revist travelling or cruise ship idea. However I cant do that till the summer maths exams are done.

One of my old co workers also contacted me to tell me he has a book out. A fantasy novel. GREAT. Trying to be pleased for him, but that's my dream!

Have to put my thinking cap on.

All in good time my friend.

I know how we want changes to happen in Plan B. We want to feel like we have some semblance of control in our lives again.

Our lives have changed so drastically from what we imagined we were gonna have, and we want to get on with our new lives, and fast. You've got time.

I also wish that I could get a new job. Actually, I desire an actual career, and I will get there. As long as the steps I am taking gets me closer, that's the direction I need. Remember, it's WALLS AND DOORS.

Wise words Scotty. Indie, I like how you are weighing up the options you have and exploring alternatives that may appeal.

I know after D Day I went full speed ahead with some sort of crazed "I'll proove my life can be better without him" sort of mentality. I was going for interviews when I could barely breathe let alone work. Funny enough, I got offered the three jobs I was interviewed for, but realised there was no way I was up to the task, it was just too soon (and involved moving from my support networks). A month or so ago I applied for a job that REALLY appealed and I am so ready for it... and I have heard nothing. Not even an interview.

Yesterday I got a poaching phone call from the neighbouring state I want to move to... the job and city are not what I had originally planned, but its another option and a different door when I thought there might only be a wall. A nice reminder for me that I never know when I might find the next door.

Ive just got to keep casting out those nets, and keep searching.

While theres no deadline per se, and I am happy in the main, I wont be happy thinking I'm missing opportunities.

If I know Ive got my bases covered, I can be content.

Just been out dancing with my MIL. Oh wow she is so much fun! Word of warning though, don't go out drinking with an Irishwoman. Luckily we kept mostly to the dancefloor. I danced the heel off my shoe.

She says to me: "I know you don't want to hear much in the way of softlad. Anyway all I'll tell you is he sent me a huge bouquet and a big card on Mother's Day.He's still a gobshite though.
"His brother is lovely and somehow his wife is awful. Yet my muleheaded son found himself an angel".

I do love her. I wonder if we can stay friends. Tonight was fun if nothing else.

Sounds like she is already your friend, a keeper

The artist is very picky about their own work, and that is part of the process

So I'm having the oddest Plan B week. I think I'm having a low on the rollercoaster, but things have levelled out so much that I can barely feel the dip, so Im not sure.

I'm not in any pain. I havent cried. I can't sleep though. Im getting sleepy but my mind is too busy. This never happened to me before DDay - I could win awards for deep sleeping. The night OW made a slip of the tongue and first made me suspicious was the first time I ever missed a night's sleep. Now whenever I have had a low rollercoaster point, I got insomnia. But this time I dont have any particularly low feelings to go with it.

I was pretty knocked flat by my teaching plan falling through, and I dont feel like my Plan B is going as well with no firm future plans in place. I was going to give myself a break and then start looking into other options. Maybe thats all it is .

Indiegirl, I feel for you about the job situation and career situation. It sounds like you have a passionate desire to teach. I'm not sure where you live, but sometimes a good way to get a foot in the door is substitute teaching. Or, since you have experience in journalism, what about advancing your journalism degree and teaching at a junior college? Also, if you're closer to a metropolitan area, there may be cooperative schools for homeschooling families and they LOVE someone who has experience to share. Or perhaps see if you can volunteer in a school to work with a school newspaper or yearbook? Or could you go straight to teaching in a private school? If you have some flexibility about what you are going to do next in life, but know which direction you'd like to go, there are sometimes very non-traditional paths to take to get where you'd like to be.

I suffer from insomnia regularly and its always a matter of unresolved stresses and fears. Journaling can help sometimes, but others I just have to learn to live with less sleep. Not the best solution! I hope yours resolves soon so you can feel fresh and ready to take on each day for all the opportunities it presents.