He went through my IM today for a prescription that I had picked up for him; he wanted me to put it in the mailbox and he would stop and get it.

Knight - I have read Surviving an Affair, I only have a little left of it. The problem is the book makes me hopeful, and I can't be hopeful at this moment. And it also makes me see all the things that I was doing wrong in our relationship, which then also makes me think if I change then maybe it would work. I really like the concepts and I wish we had followed them before, maybe things would be differant. I know that's wishful thinking and I just can't be hopeful in any way!

No I will not be handling any more of his things whatsoever. I handled a good majority of his stuff and I am done. That I won't miss!! We won't have to go through my IM that much. We have no kids and we don't really have anything together. I think I should get to keep what's in the house since he wasted all our money on a wedding and my parent's money for that matter.

Not sleeping the best. Up down, up down. Everytime I hear something I think its him coming to the door. Really there's nothing he could do now that would ever save this marriage but I guess that doesn't make it less hurtful.

I'm on day 3 of plan B. Yeah for me, I have to be thankful for each day that I'm out of the drama!

I should call an attorney today. I just keep thinking of the holidays and my birthday right around the corner and how hard it's going to be. Anyway, on to day 3.

I gave him a plan B letter back in September the first time I plan B'd him. I moved his stuff out and left the letter with it and got on a plane to North Carolina. I was gone for a week and when I got home he was doing everything on my list of requirements. It wasn't to long though that things started to slide and then he broke the NC October 16th I believe. I didn't think it was necessary to write another one? What could he do to be better now?

I realize it's only been 3 days, but I feel relief in not constantly checking his email, facebook, phone records over and over all day. I'm a little bored without all that constant drama all day long .

I have a lot of work for the next 3 days pulling doubles, today and tomorrow. It should be good as long as I stay focused and don't get down. On Sunday I have to move all his stuff out to the garage. There isn't a ton here but I fear it will be a really hard day. The finality of all his stuff being gone will be a lot for me to process.

I will force myself to keep reading and maybe do some of the worksheets.

I gave him a plan B letter back in September the first time I plan B'd him. I moved his stuff out and left the letter with it and got on a plane to North Carolina. I was gone for a week and when I got home he was doing everything on my list of requirements. It wasn't to long though that things started to slide and then he broke the NC October 16th I believe. I didn't think it was necessary to write another one? What could he do to be better now?

I realize it's only been 3 days, but I feel relief in not constantly checking his email, facebook, phone records over and over all day. I'm a little bored without all that constant drama all day long .

I have a lot of work for the next 3 days pulling doubles, today and tomorrow. It should be good as long as I stay focused and don't get down. On Sunday I have to move all his stuff out to the garage. There isn't a ton here but I fear it will be a really hard day. The finality of all his stuff being gone will be a lot for me to process.

I will force myself to keep reading and maybe do some of the worksheets.

HOW TO PLAN B CORRECTLY
This is for those who need to go into Plan B and need quick, concise instructions. There is a lot of confusion on how to go into Plan B and what a correct Plan B actually looks like.

TIMING
~Do not go into Plan B quickly. It takes time to prep for Plan B. I went into Plan B in about 48 hours from the time I discovered we had been in a false recovery, and that�s really the quickest you can expect to be able to do this and do a good job of getting all of your ducks in a row. Except for eating and sleeping, I worked on getting ready for Plan B for those whole 48 hours, too. Prepping for Plan B is CRUCIAL and it takes a lot of TIME. Do not skimp on your planning otherwise it will backfire on you. Once you give that PBL to your WS, you want to be able to stay completely dark.

DETAILS ON HOUSING
~DO NOT worry about where the WS is going to live or how he/she is going to pay for it. This is not the BS�s problem. A WS should never be shielded from the consequences of their affair, and this is indeed a consequence. Only worry about yourself and your children at this point. If the WS was able to carry on in an affair all by him/herself, he/she can certainly figure this out. You have enough to worry about.

INTERMEDIARY (IM)
~Find an IM. There is no substitute for this. Do not underestimate the importance of an IM. Do not think �only� text messages or �only� emails are acceptable. They aren�t. YOU MUST FIND AN IM. It can be a family member, a friend or (best bet) someone from MB. A CLOSE family member (parent or in-law) isn�t recommended ~ they are usually not able to stay neutral enough and if you get into recovery this could be difficult.

IM�s ROLE
~An IM�s sole purpose is to be a SPAM FILTER (Steve Harley�s words), allowing only communication that fits the boundaries set forth in Plan B (i.e., regarding children and finances ONLY). It�s usually recommended that most of the communicating be done via email, that way everything is in writing. Phone calls and text messages are permissible but most find emailing easiest. My IM re-wrote emails between us in her own words in order to avoid any emotional tones/responses.

They do not share any other info the WS sends, regardless of how benign the content. ONLY pertinent info is to be sent through to the BS. The IM is also not to share any info about the BS with the WS. Pertinent info about children and finances only should be passed back and forth.

The IM is to remain neutral...just a messenger sending info on, no reactions.

If the WS sends something inappropriate, the IM is to thank the WS for the communication, but let the WS know it will not be shared with the BS and refer the WS back to the PBL.

If the WS tries to contact the BS in any way, the IM is to tell the WS that the BS has not opened/listened to whatever it is, and the IM is to refer the WS back to the IM for all communication.

CHANGING THE LOCKS ON YOUR HOUSE
~This is very important so that the WS cannot come back into the marital home whenever he/she pleases. I called a locksmith out at about 10:00 pm on a Saturday night, he was very helpful. I didn�t have cash and didn�t want my WH to see on our credit card that I had called a locksmith, so he even followed me to a nearby grocery store to pull money out. He was very accommodating and seemed to understand that I was in trouble.

A second option instead of changing the locks is to simply put a deadbolt on any door to which the WS has a key. Also, if there is a garage door opener with a keypad, the keypad code needs to be changed. If you don�t have a keypad (only openers) and the WS has one, make sure to deadbolt/change the lock on the door between the garage and house. It is legal to change the locks on your own home, so do not be concerned about this.

PLAN B LETTER
~Write a �love letter� to your WS. Mention some particularly good memories the two of you have (vacations, special holiday traditions, silly moments).

Mention how hurt you are over the affair but that you are still willing to try to recover because of the love you have shared in the past. In one brief sentence state that you are not willing to do this until the A is over for good and that when it is, the WS is free to let the IM know and the IM can pass this info on to you.

Tell your WS that the pain is too great to be in contact with them while the A is continuing and because of that, you need to protect yourself.

Close the letter with �I love you and will be praying for you� or something similar.

Curtail the letter to your situation. This is a �love letter� so do not add any specifics on how PB will be carried out ~ those will go in an addendum to your PBL. It�s best if this letter is in your own handwriting rather than typed.

ADDENDUM
~In the addendum will be the logistics of how full NC between the BS and WS will be carried out. Here you will list the drop off and pick up points of children, who will be your IM, how the financial obligations will work. This is NOT part of your PBL, but it WILL be given to the WS when the PBL is delivered.

In the addendum you will also let the WS know that you have packed up all of THEIR personal belongings (no household items) and that the WS's boxes will be left __________ (on the front porch or driveway, second option would be a friend or family member's home) until ________ (usually 2-3 days from the time the letter is given). I packed up all of my H's belongings in about 30 minutes. This shouldn't take long.

IF THE WS ATTEMPTS CONTACT
IGNORE HIM/HER if it comes in the form of a phone call, email, text message, etc. Let the IM know and ask the IM to reiterate to the WS again that all contact MUST go through the IM.

If it�s in person, walk away. My H caught me in our garage one day, he was early picking the kids up and I was not yet locked in the safety of the house. He commented that he liked my new haircut. I smiled and quickly walked in the house. I did NOT talk to him or thank him for the compliment.

Alright, here we go. I did not have my WH work number blocked. He's called me about 10 times, left 2 messages. As soon as I got home I blocked his work number and I deleted his voicemails before I could listen. What do I do? I want to text Elvis and tell her to tell him to leave me alone? But what now if he comes to the house; he doesn't have a key to get in. This is how it always goes...he starts looking for me and then I always give in b/c he's sorry and he loves me and wah, wah, wah. This is where I lose myself...