I just read through.. ALL of the post and it has opened my eyes soooo much! Thanks everyone!!!
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My story is very very long.. But right now I have made up my mind to not accept others to flirt with me. I used to be VERY flirtatious until I got myself in trouble. Since then I work to protect my marriage. Well lately my husband thinks I take the protection thing to far because I don't like that he texts and "jokes" with his female coworker/ friend/s. I get extremely hurt when I see texts from them talking about poly marriages and her asking him how she smelled last night at work.. Or crap like that.. That looks like flirting to me. Which he claims it is just joking.

I know what flirting is but apparently I'm wrong since they are "only friends and wouldn't do anything more" and they are "only joking around". That sounds like bull to me and I feel lied too. I am hurting Sooo bad from this. I can't seem to get him to understand why this is hurting me and he thinks I'm just being irrational and shouldn't freak out when there isn't anything going on between them.

I feel broken hearted. Jan 20th is my 5 year anniversary. I'm 26 and we have 2 kids. I just want to be completely loved with no doubts that I'm on him mind. I feel like I can't trust him and obsessively look at him phone, Internet history and any thing I can find. I shouldn't have to feel like I'm hovering and hounding him..
I just want to make since of all of this...
Sorry for the bad grammer and errors..