this is what i have so far.

Dear ws

I am very sorry for loosing my temper and calling you names. I just wanted to let you know that i now understand i cannot lose my temper anymore.
that is a weakness of mine. i feel very bad that you had to see it,while i looked at it as a oppertunity to make that weakness a strength so ive taken
and passed anger management classes before it was court ordered i dont expect you to praise me for something simple i just wanted to let you know the changes
i have taken to better myself. Also while you say i have been cheating on you it is not true those accusations have hurt my feelings. i am very willing to prove
to you they are not true by taking a lie detector test or also called a polygraph test. Just to give you a piece of mind that I would never cheat on you. I have eyes
for you and only you.

Also I am hoping you are doing good and im glad you got a new car that looks very nice. I am also working to get a place soon and you and dsd are more then welcome to
move in.

Here are my suggestions:

I would lose the bit about the car, since you really didn't like the means she went about getting it, it seems disingenuous.

Those are grest suggestions as I am not so good at saying things about my feelings.

I forgotten to add she has accused me of being unfaithful.

You did say "Also while you say i have been cheating on you it is not true." The problem with wording it this way is that she will see you as saying "LIAR." Don't tell her it is not true. Assume she really does fear that it is true. Tell her that you're willing to prove that it is not true.

The thing about saying she accused you of being unfaithful is that it will come across as an invitation to fight. "Accuse" is disrespectful and a fighting word. But, by rewording it to "I have heard that you believe I have cheated on you," you've taken a lot of the emotion out of it, and it's just a factual statement. It will come across a lot gentler. She may remain open to the rest of what you have to say. Take out the part about it hurting your feelings -- just concentrate on showing her that you're willing to prove that you have been faithful all this time.

Thank you prisca that really is insightful. I know I lack tact in talking and writing. Ill be asking more when I write letters.

Dsd called me today in tears saying that her mother wont let her do anything with me on fathers day. It upsets me that I have done nothing wrong and dsd knows this but her mother is acting like I am a vile worthless puke ready to abandon her like everyone has in her daughters life. I have been put through a lot of stuff. But I would rather die then put loved ones in my position. I may be a atheist, I am just hoping I am doing the right things.

Ok I have question to ask. I know ww's just love to say hurtful stuff. But do you think its blowing smoke up peoples behind when they talk about divorce to everyone but the bs?

Sorry for freaking out. The d word scares me but its just her way to trick her friends that what she is doing is ok.

Yup.

That's why you don't listen to waywards. You watch their actions.

Has she done anything to start D?

Do you know how a wayward is lying?????

Their lips are moving.

How are your Plan A efforts going? How is your self-care and self-improvement going?

Nothing other then just trying to make me look like the evil abusive husband.

You did abuse her with your AO.
Did you send her that letter?

Even though it was once or twice you are right. It stings but at least it reminds me on what kind of damage I can do. I have not sent the letter yet. I plan on doing it after court next weds.

Just in case. Might be a protective order on her from me.

What's court about?

Domestic violence. But she attacked me and I pushed her into her seat to keep her from accidently hitting the driver. It just sucks I would never lay a hand on her unless its to eefend myself or to pull her away so she wouldn't get punched.

I think ww is trying to call me from a private number I never answer private numbers or blocked. Should I answer the phone next time?

Does she contact you another way normally?

As of lately no. Its just that I am terrified of talking to her now. Im afaid of letting emotions taking over.