That's really normal. For me I wanted to hear my ex husband's voice. It just seems silly now, what did I want to hear is voice for?



That's good, though. Don't try to date until you feel better. You'll only get poor goods if you go out there while you're hurting.

Wow,I just Read through your thread and I'm thankful that you got out, and you will be too after you heal. Let me explain:

You are in love with a narcissist. They are the most charming and attractive people that fill your love bank in a second, then they do the most insensitive things ever, while at the same time blaming you for what they are doing (projecting).

Notice that she is mad at you for 'cheating' but then does the same thing times 10? Notice all of her messages are about her pride, status, or happiness?

Make no mistake about it, she will continue to contact you looking for her narcissistic supply, you need to change your number. You might consider asking your employer if you can get a cell phone allowance on your paycheck or a reimbursement. If not get a private phone, and leave your work phone at work.

If you don't you are going to get strung along.

Something that may explain how you are feeling:


I'm so glad you don't have kids with this girl, it makes it so much harder to avoid contact, which is essential to healing.

Ak

I should elaborate on the phone deal. Some employers will give you a set amount of reimbursement each month for your phone, then you manage it as a private account. If you leave the company, you keep the number, phone, etc, and they just stop paying you for it.

I really like this solution because I can upgrade my phone whenever I want if I'm willing to pay the difference as well as I can get more service than what I would need from the company if I pay the difference.

Currently, I have a my kids phones and an ipad on my account, and the first $70 is paid for by the company.

ak

Coming in late to the game here, but she is NOT happy. It is all a front. If she were happy, she would not be continuing to text you and flaunt her 'happiness' on FB.

Take it from me, you will heal. You will feel better ... one day. Every day it gets easier. One day you will love again. It is worth waiting on the right person that meets ALL of your needs.