This is so weird....I haven't heard a thing from my WH since last Thursday, no e-mails, no calls, no nothing. The last time we spoke he was very cold towards me. As well as this, I know that he hasn't received any e-mails from the OW since last Thursday either (she needs time to 'think'). This is so weird...waiting and wondering. I'm wondering WHAT is going to happen next, and WHEN. Will it be tonight when he brings the kids back from vacation, or will he be too jetlagged and wait until Tuesday or Wednesday. <BR>This is driving me crazy I would really, really welcome seeing an e-mail from her, so I've got a clue as to what's going on...<P>Paint.

The part of this whole thing that is so frustrating is the 'not being in control' part.<P>But...as I look at the Harley's principals, I think that is the overall central idea. No one should be 'in control' of another or the marriage.<P>I am struggling today with not checking his cell phone voicemail! I will not check it. I will not check it. I only hurt myself when I listen to her messages. What's the point? I cannot control this beast.<P>The other part I struggle with is not being consumed by it all. One of these days, soon I hope, I will skip coming to MB for a whole day...maybe two .<P>Hang tough, Paint!<P>AKA: InShockinCali<P>------------------<BR>Cali<P><I> Humble yourselves, therefore, under God's mighty hand, that he may lift you up in due time. Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. </I><BR>1 Peter 5:6-7

Thanks Cali - I'm hanging in there, but I think I need to go and meditate for a while later on - I've actually started shaking now!! I know it's the adrenaline rush of nerves - don't know if it's just because of what WH will say, or whether it's also got something to do with being excited that the girls will be home soon too! Meanwhile, I'm cleaning, doing laundry, doing more cleaning...