Man, I have not been able to log on for like weeks! I'm so glad to finally get back here.<p>I don't really have much time to read everyone's updates, but I hope everyone is doing well. Will try to read when I can and catch up.<p>Things are going so-so for me. H keeps having his mood swings and temper tantrums where he just leaves for like a day or two. I guess it's better than keeping it inside like he used to do...<p>Counseling has NOT been going well. H has missed 2 out of 4 appointments because he's so run down and tired from his busy schedule. <p>I've been pretty mad at my H lately. He ended up keeping his apartment for an extra month, but he is pretty much here 98% of the time. His apartment is a security blanket just incase...<p>H is doing pretty good on most stuff, the issue now is just his time. I calculated it out and he spends approx. 30% of his time sleeping, 30% at work, and 30% at school, with 10% for me and the kids. I was actually pretty anal about it and did all these calculations and stuff. I didn't show him cuz' I thought he would freak that this was actually how he was spending his time and I shouldn't be analyzing him like that. <p>Do you think I should show him???<p>I am at a real loss on how to talk to him about this stuff. I keep trying and like last night he says he wants me to MAKE him quit his job, and I'm like NO, I won't do that, you have to make this decision, he says maybe he wants to, he just needs a push. It's so hard, it's like he tries to make me control him and then comes back later and resents it...<p>But, alas, that is another discussion for counseling. I just wish we could go more often. <p>Ow, et al. is all in the past, thank God!! Although these freakin' triggers are killing me. My H tries real hard with anything to do with OW. He really is truly remorseful for what happened and he abhors this women who he said he "LOVED" all but 5 months ago. I think he may actually hate her more than I do...<p>HbH

Glad to see you back...I was about to send out the troops to find you [img]images/icons/smile.gif" border="0[/img] ...(dig through my stuff and find your phone # and give you a call)...<p>Take care,
Cali

welcome back. I posted a search for ya a few days ago. We were gonna send a search party pretty soon. Glad you and H are still on track - a rough one, but still on track. [img]images/icons/wink.gif" border="0[/img] <p>Hang in there. Get caught up when you can.

Hi Hbh,<p>Good to hear from you. Been trying to call you. Not your fault, it's mine. Gotta use my cell when I am away from the house. The signal here is bad and that's where all my 'free' minutes are to make my long distance calls......<p>Will try to connect with you this weekend. Glad to see your H is turning around. {{hugs}}<p>L.

Hi all. I kept clicking on the MB site discussion area, and it kept bombing out saying there was an error.<p>After 2 weeks I figured it must have been something I was doing and not the MB site. I figured out a way to get around it...<p>Orchid, can't wait to hear from you. Cali and Faith, thanks for thinking of me...

Hi HbH - just one thought: patience, time consistency. OK, I guess that's three thoughts. Let's make it four: compassion.<p>Keep up the good work.