Plan a is not about becoming a doormat right.. you be nice to your spouse, but do not tolerate disrespect , etc. right? Meaning as far as I am concerned , in my marriage.. I cannot tolerate my spouse sleeping with other women, I draw the line there.. I will not become a monster which I have become attacking and losing my mind and focusing on OW, FIL, etc. etc. etc... <p>MY spouse who I have loved with all of my heart and soul for 10 married yrs and 7 before that abandoned me and our 2 precious boys for a good time dart playing drunk gf! I am not going to stoop to their levels anymore... they are bringing me into true gutter life...<p>Thanks to you folks for being here while I grow through my anger and outbursts into understanding that I cannot go over to Hs house he and gf rented and try to bring him home with good sex. I am worth a lot more than this, and this is not who I am in any way... I cannot and will not stoop to this level. He has had a taste of who I am.. if he has forgotten who I am over the yrs.. he need stop and remember<p>The yrs... a small child right now.. and more focus on the kids, and hardly any on our marriage along with a serious injury to my back drove us apart... my h has not been here for me when I needed him and SELFISHLY... went out to bars, met women and cheated on me, his loving wife... <p>YES< I lost it quite a bit.. I cannot be this crzed person anymore now- I have to be myself and I have turned into a monster while I lose it since I have been trying to hold in so much.<p>I appreciate all of you people here listening and advising me.<p>Tonight I am going to work on my boxes advised earlier today.. problem boxes.. what I can adn cannot fix.<p>Thanks to everyone and praise be to god for the harleys and this site.<p>amen.<p>HONEY
