What I Want to Say When I See Him (But Can't if I Stay in Plan A and Don't LB):

* You are an A---HOLE.
* You are a big, liar.
* Your girlfriend is young enough to be your daughter.
*Why couldn't you give me another chance?
*How could you just kick me to the curb after all these years?
*Why can't you take me away for just one weekend?
*Why are you being so mean and cruel to me?
* What happened to your sense of morals and decency?
*I'm having telephone conversations with one of your best friends who is telling me how wonderful I am and that I am a beautiful woman who deserves better and his words feel so good.
* I wish I could Hate You
* How could you be planning on abandoning your son during his jr. year of high school?
*I'm beginning to think that you are really a jerk!

I know that he is trying to get me to rant like this so he can feel justified in leaving me. He told me last night to "let him go". He will go on his own accord. I will not fall into this new manipulative scheme of his. I am having second thoughts though of carrying on with this. However, I'll probably melt as usual when I see him. He always acts so nice to me just before he pulls one these weekend episodes. I can't help thinking of him and her,laughing and having fun while I sit here being miserable. During these times, I have to stop myself from destroying some of his belongings.

Just had to vent!

Thanks for listening!

Much better to say it here than there! Mimi, hopefully you will see the day [soon!] when he will say all the above to himself and wonder what ever got into him! Just please lock up all the baseball bats until he gets to that point.

When is your next appt with Harley?

I didn't reschedule. He wanted to speak with WS first. I don't know if that will happen since he is doing this strange AWOL Routine.

I plan to schedule an appointment for myself tomorrow.