I am so confused. I have recenlty found out that my husband of 6 1/2 years has had 2 affairs in the last 2 years. I am angry, hurt, and mad!!! But I also have a feeling of responsiblity, I have not always been the most suppportative, loving wife. We have 2 children, 4 & 3. My 4 year old son has autism (we found that out in Dec.) My husband & I really got into it this evening. I have done some really ugly things the last couple of days to hurt him (no, I have not had an affair, but I have been thinking of it), when supposedly we are trying to work things out. I did them intentionally and I wanted to hurt him, I wanted him to know how bad it could hurt. Now he's angry, he doesn't feel he should continue to pay for his mistakes when I have hurt him too. He told me that I needed to think about this marriage and that if I could not trust him, and would continue to hurt him, he can't see the point. Maybe this is his way out. Sometimes I want out too. Please pray that we will be able to overcome this obstacle and have a stronger marriage where we love each other for who we are. Thank you!!!

Hi Super:<BR> Since I'm from Texas too, I had to click on your profile...actually, we are practically neighbors (I'm in Big D).<BR> My heart goes out to you. You and your family are in my prayers.<BR> Kathi

Thanks Kathi. I have been on this site all day it is the only thing that comforts me. I guess I can expect good & bad days for some time to come. And thanks for the "Super" I haven't been feeling that way, but you made me grin!!!