I am currently in counceling for reasons not inclusive to only the divorce, but many stemming from it. Although, this is a secular councelor, I brought up issues that I have, being a Christian and dealing with the fact the my sacred vows are now broken.
Yesterday, I put myself on the prayer request list on Restore Ministries-My name and ex-husbands' name appear as desiring restoration of our marriage.
My ex-husband has a serious girlfriend, and as for me........My heart cannot let go and because God worked a miracle by bringing him back before, I can't think that it couldn't happen again.
I am recognizing issues that were in our marriage, for one thing, I always put his needs first and can see that it was not give and take.
I am in prayer several times a day, and mainly I want God's will to be done in my life.
I do consider myself "available" and say that I am, and have gone out on dates. I have to admit, that I think I am going thru the motions, because I still feel that my heart belongs to only my ex-husband. The dates I have gone on have gone absolutely no further than dinner and maybe a kiss. Yes, morals and my Christian beliefs stop me, but I also feel partly like I am "saving" myself for XH. How silly is that, as he has had a couple of new partners and I would still welcome him back if he came back today.
Please pray for me that God will let his will be done in my life, and to let me know when to move on and let myself be open to a new possibility.

When do you stop hoping, and realize that it isn't going to happen? I know that there isn't an answer, but please pray for me.
-as I am writing this, my XH just called me here at work, to ask me how I was doing (I was recently ill). Is that a miracle or what?
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-Blessed (rejected) Petrie

My heart reaches out to you...
So many times people ignore Gods will and sometimes their own hearts. I dont have any answers for you. I do have prayers and will put it out there.
I pray for you that God will put a healing on your heart, your mind an your soul. I pray that the Lord will keep you strong in his word so tha tyou may not falter and lose hope in life or faith in people. I pray a blessing so BIG happens in your life that you are over come with a joy that rises up in you.I pray you find a joy and a happiness you so deserve...

You're prayer gave me so much comfort, thank you.
God Bless
Petrie

Dear Lord, thank You for prompting Petrie's husband to call her today. Lord, we put all our faith and trust in You knowing You will prevail, the enemy has already lost the battle. Thank You Lord, Father, I ask in Jesus' name that Petrie's husband will be overwhelmingly drawn unto You. Father, please order his steps and direct his paths. Lord, I pray that he will constanly hear Your voice behind him saying 'this is the way, walk in it'. Lord I pray that You will give Petrie strength to endure, and ask that she be comforted continually. Father, fill her with peace. Lord, I pray that this marriage is restored, and is a glorious testimony to You. Lord nothing is impossible for You. We stand on the promise of the Word and in Jesus name I pray, AMEN

Ach. Wife,
I just read aloud your prayer, and thank you so much. Thank you for letting my feel like having hope is okay and that the Lord's will, will prevail.
God Bless
Petrie

Rejected,
I will stand in agreement with all the prayers for you. One puts a thousand to flite and two puts ten thousand to flite. I also want to see You in the perfect will of God. I will say that if you want to go have fun, do it. But don't go if your heart isn't in it. It's not fair to you or him. But be open to God's leading. He may just want you to get out and laugh a little. Laughter is good medicine.
God Bless
singleguy

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