Mr. Miew,
I will pray for you brother. Give me some time to think on this. I don't want to come off harsh, BUT, you need to snap into shape and quick.
I fell over thelast week watching lite-porn on cable. Thing was, I didn't even get excited. I just stared at it and wished it was me and my W. But, and this is important, it opened the door to Satan having a feast on my soul this past week. I have to work extra hard to keep weird and lustful thoughts out of my head. But, I am winning this battle against him because I have God on my side.
Last week I saw a movie that was not really all that Christian, in fact I think it was the same day (night) I watched the porn later. The movie was, "Meet Joe Dirt" staring with David Spade. Stupid movie, but, one line stuck out in my mind later on that I think might help you. "Is that what you want to be dointg when Jesus comes for you." Interesting thought to keep in your head, huh?
As for the cyber-porn, how can I put this.
CUT IT OUT! NOW!Do you feel by her telling you to not do it, she is CONTROLLING you? If so, I have news for, SHE'S NOT CONTROLLING YOU, SHE LOVES YOU AND YOU DOING THAT
HURTS HER DEEPLY.
We have too much in common so, I will tell you IMVHO, when I think you are flirting with disaster. YOU ARE FLIRTING WITH DIVORCE - THE WORST DISASTER YOUR MARRIAGE COULD HAVE. And Satan is just realing you in for more. Look how he has you saying.... </font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">It's getting so that I'm starting not to care whether I should stay in this marriage or not anymore....</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">Just some of the confusion he loves to throw at us. Read my posting
Question for the Female BS's Out There to see hwo Satan played with me this past week.
Look, Brother, I love you and I know what you are going through, bin there-done that. Ask for God's strength. Ask for the fruits of the Spirit: love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control.
As for your W not setting parameters for you in saving your M. You already know what you SHOULDN'T be doing. Concentrate on that first and God will show you the rest.
God's Grace,
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