Hi GWK,
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">When I pray, what do I pray for?</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I always try to pray for Spiritual understanding (Eph. 1:17) for me, my child and my W. I pray for my WW's relationship with OM to be literally DESTROYED. I prayed for emotional protection for my child.
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I am really confused at this stage of my life and sometimes I feel that God is unnessacirly cruel!!</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">God is never cruel. Only He sees what may lie ahead for your children. He may see a similar situation in their future and the way you handle your situation will teach them something. Hopefully it would be something that will help them. Hopefully it will teach them to seek God, lean on Him and trust Him in all things.
</font><blockquote><font size="1" face="Verdana, Arial">quote:</font><hr /><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">I have times when I really believe that everything will eventually come alright between me and my W, but then I start to think that it's better to just give up on our M and maybe the pain will then go away. I am really battling to keep my faith alive.</font><hr /></blockquote><font size="2" face="Verdana, Arial">You would only be giving up if you didn't try everything in your power to be the person you need to be for your WW. If you tried everything you thought there was to try and she doesn't respond even a little then you need to separate yourself from the hurt being inflicted upon you and your children.
I believe whenever we try everything we can and our WS still chooses to remanin in the A, it's time for plan B and I know that God can heal the hurt and even guide you to the next Mrs. GWK.
Hope this helps. Bless you.
S&C